My frail heart avoided a beat
Now I'm staring at my small feet
Waiting for my very reply
Not a single word I spoke, why?

My cheeks changes to warm and red
I desire I'm on my safe bed
My daydreams are her coy smile
Beautiful in her own style

As my lonely feeble heart burn
Mind said escape and never turn
Around and not ever look back
I scamper fast not coming back..

Inside my bedroom I rejoice
I still hear her sweet shy voice
Her honeyed shy voice makes me fly
My gut now fills with butterflies

First time her pure coy smile so real
Crazy and in-love all I feel
But wait, reflect back what happen
I think I made a big mistake

A sudden bolt of pure sadness
Struck me hard to unmixed madness
Life inside me evaporate
I'll sleep weary and never wake..

O, morning that brings thrill and peace
Will revive my physique at ease
My core ignited by the sun
A dream to see her having fun

Down the road walking, wondering
There she is playing and singing
O, this sweet black haired creature
Undisturbed, an angel so pure

Wish she could turn around and look
I'll do whatever to show-off
She stand up and our sense connected
My soul exploded unprotected


Instantly I ignore her eyes
And gaze the lovely butterflies
I drain myself to capture one
To present to her but she's gone

She's walking toward her big house
I ‘am down cause she never look back
She paused outside and throws something
I dash to fetch the lovely thing

Innocently laid on the ground
A beautiful floret, I'm bound
To pick and lay it near my heart
And I walk a beautiful start..

This soothing cool night I can't sleep
Because the bliss lingers so deep
As my soul lay in my soft bed
The night so eerie like the dead

There lay in the table untouched
The symbol of pure love and life
Driving me crazy and restless
I will keep the flower to death

Cold lose to warmth, dark lose to light
Morning smile to everyone's sight
My thrill drop dead, I hate Mondays
Goodbye Saturday and Sunday..


Morning air rust my very core
I dislike school more than my chore
School means cage in my young small mind
You're force to do things like a blind

Face the wall, you did something wrong
Always make homework all night long
Composition, projects I'm chained
Every school day is like pain

Cold water knocks me to my sense
Sullenly I move, dull essence
Mom so furious now, I must dash
In seconds, I’ am gone in a flash..

This room gives me unhappy thoughts
As I sit grumpily and down
I never listen, all self-taught
None make me smile even a clown

Early I know but still sleepy
My mind temps me to dream freely
I should be there outside running
There in the cool river swimming

There’s a movement on the girls side
Curiosity aroused inside
Our teacher came all settle down
Then called a name new to my ears..


Curiosity fills my dull soul
I look up and my time slow
A sudden bliss ignite my heart
Oh, Monday not a bad start

There standing in front of me
This naked mortal eyes to see
Young and innocent, an angel
With a pretty charming name "Belle"

A star fallen to the earth
With a face that glows in every smile
Her warm voice a sweet symphony
What a thrill she's my new classmate..

I walk
on a park so serene that birds gather on the tree tops to sing
a song that so nostalgic in a way you lighten up
and smile to embrace the setting sun an overwhelming feeling nonetheless
and you cannot ignore the view of the diving sun splattering depths of maroon
to the innocent clouds co-waltzing by with the grey blue sky so obvious
which only shows a beauty the nature can offer to the mortal eyes to see

the scenery is alluring that I would rather enjoy to sit under a tree
than to relax my body on a bench that are lined in an amusing way
facing the performance  of the slow warm afternoon



I write
under a tree to feel the fullness of this afternoon scribbling poems
because in this way I feel amazingly close to  nature that I appreciate every bit of it,
watching the butterflies playing a game of hide and seek while the one hiding
are the little pretty flowers rooted near the trees and the other rooted under the bench
and how I notice the trees are laughing cause the butterflies can’t seem to find the shy flowers
because in this spot I can see clearly what’s happening around me every bit of it
kids running around full of innocence and happiness not minding the butterflies
a lovers embracing each other like they are the only sweet thing around
and gaze at each other’s eye that seems likely make the time lingers

and look at the bench again that is not so far away from me
an uneasy feeling, a feeling of familiarity, a feeling of connection
just like me sitting alone under a tree a girl alone on her bench



I look
at you partly because you’re alone like me enjoying the dawdling afternoon,
partly because you have the beauty my very heart so desire,
partly because you make my heart skipped a beat this past few days,
partly because my love for you is growing every day I see you here and
it is not that hard to focused my all attention to you ignoring everything around me
even the love the couple emits with their embrace but you seem to be in trance
with the love the couple radiates and closely in your eyes melancholy tears fell
but still your even perfect when you cry and even angels weep to see you cry
maybe you miss the love you once have, maybe you feel so alone and so absorbed
that you feel there is no hope for the right one for you but only if you would look at me
here by the tree and I’ll give you a hope, I’ll offer you a smile so warm

but I can’t tell I’m the one only you can, but I’m sure I could kiss your tears goodbye
and you’re the only one I see myself dancing and holding each other’s hand
to stand near the tree when the sun sunk and this is all I’m hoping tell you about it.

Left in the dark
walking, crawling, crying
Out of breathe
trembling, suffocating, dying

A faint sound
beating, stimulating, overwhelming
A spark of light
running, living, smiling

A rose that grew through concrete..

I
A café
One table and two chairs
Two coffees and a vanilla cake
She then: "You remember my favorite cake.
My very wish in the morning every time I wake."
     And he then observing: "How can I not, my lovely thing."
She then: "How warming your smile takes my breath
That I fell blue if you walk away. That’s why I love you."
     And he then with a kind smile: "I know and also
     I love you."

What a lovely day that even angels sing.


II
One afternoon
A couple of unhappy months or so
On a park under a gloomy birch-tree
She then crying: "Please hear me out,
I’m sorry."
     And he then: "Why? Please don’t make me worry."
     He then crying: "Don’t tell me you don’t love me anymore.
                                   This doesn’t make any sense."
…Silence

This cloudy afternoon walks with pain and sadness.


III
On a rainy day
She then crying: "My heart is breaking what you have done
Smile for me once to heal my collapsing heart."
     And he then: …Silence
She then sobbing: "Remember the bitter day we talk
I take back the one that hurt you the worst part."
     And he then: …Silence
She then wailing: "Please come back to me
I love you, more than songs can say."
     And he then: …Silence

A girl in a garden of remembrance where he stay...

Act 1..**

I never went outside and play
Watching kids I stood and I stay
Minutes circles to hours at home
Sometimes I study, cry alone

I see their faces with big smile
Feeling sad makes me run a mile
Away from home and loneliness
Be with her full of friendliness

I dreamed, outside we are playing
She who is beautiful and sing
My weak heart beats, I saw her pass
To my small window a clear mass

Steal a peek, lovely she walk
I hide, run close behind and stalk
Wind blows carries her honeyed smell
A pleasing symphony of bell

Takes me to a melodic daydream
In love, unaware, sleep walking
Her honest hair gloomy as night
Introduce yours truly, I might

Be amazing as a valiant
But to speak close to her, I fright
"HI" I try to whisper the words
"Hello" with a beautiful smile..

A nice ballad so nostalgic
Emotions lingers very deep
Even angels’ listens and weep
Of an untold tale so tragic
An olden song tells a story
Of promises and loyalty

A gang’s promise to a real friend
Whose loyal still 50 years waiting
Until the gang’s last breathe, they sing
This song hoping to reach their friend
In land sailors tell about this song
At sea pirates enjoy this song

Listen to it you’ll laugh and cry
It connects your past and present
You feel the lost but not resent
After a storm the sun will rise high
Through golden days and silver waves
Promises are keep and days are save
And remember to hum the lyrics
For a one fine day.

Poems are endured and love by the sad only
Songs are enjoyed by the ecstatic one's
To the broken, ignored and left lonely
The pure, loved and who smile like the sun

Everyone search one truly majestic
Only to be fooled, betrayed, a tragic
Soft touch and sweet kiss, love is chaotic
Climb, run, jump, save the world and be epic

Strange how the mind works, full of mysteries
And we become outsiders to ourselves
But we find ourselves making great stories
We alone suffer this fate to ourselves

Breathing, evolving to beautiful beings
Poems are written and the blissful one's sings

A gentle yet somewhat eccentric
The time stops and enjoys
My focus magnified
Like a certain high
Floating along with time
An unending nostalgia
Hair in my skin stands
Telling myself to breathe
I could just die right here
Its a romance in motion
An angels poem.

This fairy tale is over
I know it's never our story
Maybe, I'am feeling not myself
In a mirror saw someone else
What's the mystery, no one knew
Not even I, not even you
We don't have an ending
But a beautiful beginning
Things I imagine and that I knew
Are not meant to be view
Things I did and forgotten
Places I've never thought I'd go
When I told you my dreams
You just laugh and left me with a smile
I play always this kind of game
You scream, run and try to hide
I prepare this and enjoy it every time
The silence surrounds you now

Excited as I wait the kiss
Of twilight in the vast blue sky.
Rush of exhilarating bliss
To my soul a fuel to fly.
Blood to my veins, nerves to my brain
Power to move and mind to think
Waiting....


The darkness awarded my patience
Tonight i shall gaze her presence.
Disturbing emotion never
Before so near to touch and bear
Waiting....


This awful night she never came,
Not even her hair or shadow
I stood there waiting hurt and lost
Like a weak fool a lonely ghost.
Bewildered, this night is freezing
Tired and weary, I'll sleep thinking
.....

in that bitter cold raining evening
heaven wept to my pain and longing
heavy rain drown me from my despair
a battered heart now beyond repair
she never came…

in my bed having a uncertainty
I’ll slumber with a bitter nightmare
that I’ll never gaze those green oval stare
those smile that can break reality
an angel in my eyes..

did she know how I suffer for her,
this terrible void in my fool heart
bitter wrong mixture of love and hate
or life and death a terrible fate

Fire to be the blame
left me to ashes of mistake.
Fire to be the blame
that burns inside my life.
Does it make sense?
But nevermind.
Nevermind.

Trouble me with your smiles
or break me with your cries
Judge me with your fingertips
and **** me with your lips


Revive me with your voice
Show me life without choice
Paint my life with chaos
Stun me with that elegant poise


Poison me with your beauty
And influence me smartly
I'll wait, with a rose in my vest
Will you wear your white dress?

A kiss ignites my whole body
Now yearning to touch you badly
You make dreams to reality
It’s intriguing, your specialty
Enigmatic the way you walk
I’m spellbound when you talk
Always trap in your deep blue eyes
Inside I’m high and mesmerize
I kiss your lips with deep longing
You let go and don’t care breathing
Drowned, I’m out of breath we collide
I push you fight back, we go wild
Heart beats and breathing synchronize
Slowly, bodies melted like ice
We became one, bodies intact
Every ****** and breathe, wrongful act
You push me back but you don’t have
The strength and desire to resist me
Here I’m staring at your perfection
In my arms, so little, so beautiful