They paint pictures
Of golden gates cloaked in mist
Have you sinned?
How is it humanly possible
To never sin?
And if you do
You must beg forgiveness?
And forgiveness will be given
If you forgive yourself?
People portray god
As a man that gave his life for us
They say he wants all his children
To be happy?
But then they say he would never except
Anyone who is of the same ***
And in love?
In my mind it bounces from wall to wall
How could simple people
Parents, except their children
And love them
But a man so just and unselfish
Not?
Who is god in my eyes?
I can ask myself this all the time
But I don't know
We're deceived everyday
I can't allow myself to believe
That he would
Cast away his children
Because they chose to love

Remains of lost hopes and dreams
Sleeping in this endless stream
Ubiquitous the sound of screams
A place they were last seen

Maybe they're the captured last moments
Before the lights inside went out
A last resonating shout
That never ceased it's breathing

It comes alive in the dark
When the shadows tag along
And the stars whistle
To an unrepentant song

Background noise fills my mind
It seems my memory has closed the blinds
On the thrill of reality
And chosen a new mentality

A flash in the sky
One question, why?
A small bit of fear
The feeling that it's near
The mentioning of stranger things
A presence from above the radio sings
The dark night sky filled by lights
Are the sightings right
The things that roam inside my head
At night when the stop light is red

Into the trees
Into the darkness of the trees
My pain, my tears they follow me
To slip away from the world
Slip away into the trees
Where the leaves will carry me
Into the darkness
Into the darkness of me
My heart, my chest is swollen
I chip away with this disease
Where death will carry me
Into the trees
Into the trees I'll never leave

I just want to cry
Wishing that I'd die
This anger deep inside
Hoping just to hide
Hating you for hating me
There are scars that cut so deep
******* pain inflicting me
These ignorant people never see
Broken inside this fragile wing
The broken song I always sing
Why is it so hard to let go
Of the railing, of the rope
I'm dying already
My heartbeat unsteady
Until it all goes blank
Deeper and deeper I sink

It took me a minute
It took me a minute to open up my mind
My hand was shaking
Trembling as it hovered
Right over that rusted, squeaking handle
When my fingertips brushed the cool metal it was rough and rugged
The doors paint chipping away
What used to be bright cherry oak
Was now crumbling
But I was not deterred
I ****** in a deep breath
Gripped that cool metal tightly and twisted
There was loud screech as the once sedentary **** broke back into action
As I pushed open the door
It was dusty and burned my eyes and filled my lungs with jmpurities
It was troubling to look past the fog it had created
Old debris and dirt particles danced and twirled in the air as it descended back down to the creaking floor boards
I recall how quiet it was in that room
Lacking windows and furniture
Lacking security and confidence
But I was determined
I slipped on my blue gloves
A snap against skin like a war cry
I was ready to begin
I started by dusting the corners, then the walls
I swept the floor with gusto and will
I envisioned that room spotless
I envisioned windows filing that room with sunlight
I envisioned music playing soft tunes that pulled your body into rhythmic motion
I envisioned that room filled with people that I love
I envisioned us smiling, laughing
Pure moments of humanity shining in and brushing my skin with its warmth
Once the festivities come to end
I envisioned that room bright with the moonlights company
Until morning when sun rises and fills the room once again

The morning light spilt in through the window
The birds chirped a soft melody
The curtains swayed with the breeze
And I watched the ebbing trees
Today I honor a woman I trust
A woman who gives me all
Today I honor a woman so strong
A woman who never falls
Fighting through all the blood and disaster
Fighting through all the pain
This woman fought for everything I have
And crazily she's still sane
I love you mom
Don't ever forget
That I love you with all my heart
And you fight for us even if we don't see it
And I will never forget

A new face
You make me wonder
You make me laugh
From across the rows
Of desks
I feel your gaze
Bite my lip
To stay still
You watch me with courios eyes
But when I turn my head
Your gaze shifts off
How you make me want to
Just grab your hand
And place it above my beating heart
To feel your warmth
Leaking through my skin
To gaze into your eyes
To run my fingers through your silk hair
To feel you there
Just to breath
In your scent
Drink you in
Never releasing you
But I only smile shyly
And watch the ground while I walk past you
Someday
Maybe
I'll grow the courage

There in your eyes
There was a beauty so divine
There was no explanation to why,
Your gorgeous eyes would shine
So bright like nothing I've seen before
And it outlined your soft face
That contributes to your beauty's soft allure
It has me spinning off into space
The way you lay by my side
And whisper in my ear
The way you duck behind your hands to hide
And say every word I long to hear
This, what I'm feeling, is a love without bounds
So pure and bright
Something rarely found
Laying plain in my sight

Your tear drops hit the floor like glass
and everything you loved has passed.
There's a new found ache in your heart,
and it gnaws and claws you apart.
You feel the new year has brought you dead ends,
and you're too tired from last year to pretend.
Fighting for this will they say you own,
but you're standing on the battlefield alone.
This day does not end in laughs and smiles,
no it ends in tests and trials.
Measuring the strength you've been forced to show,
you can't hide it anymore because now they know.
You saw God crying in the face of your enemies,
and that gave you strength to fight endlessly.
Anywhere you would've followed the horizon,
but now you can rest your head,
for now you're done.

Your eyes are tame
Your voice is hushed
You look mundane
But your look makes me blush
Beneath your guise I bet you are
Soft and tender , all at the same
The type of person
That lives by one name
I'll remember you by one I choose
I don't pick winners , because they truly lose
I like your vibe , I like your look
Give me back what others took
Ill give you as much in return
Let our love and passion burn

I can feel the tingle start at the tip of my tongue
I feel the burn in the pit of my stomach
The lightness washing over these heavy limbs
The weightless impossibility
The drunken bliss
A feeling I miss
With each shot I forget your face
Each drink of this liquid pain killer
Takes me a step away from the memories
That haunt me

A melody as black as her heart
Playing like a theme song to despair
Dark it dives into your being
Filling your bones with cuts and tears

Singing as color drains and the picture turns to black
Ashes fall down, down, down
A tear of indignation curling it's shapeless body, falling
How does death move so silently making no sound

This fatal lullaby that drags it's poisoned body along
Infecting our minds as well as our souls
Leaving us at mercy to our own sicknesses,
We created upon years of singing with this song

I was alive for a moment
Truly felt the wind brush my skin
Felt it thread it's fingers in my hair
Felt it caress my heart from within

It was a moment
Fleeting in it's wispy form
It was a moment that I felt
reborn

It was then I could raise my head
But alas, the moment past
and again I was dead

The first kiss
The gift of bliss
The beat of my heart
How I can't bare to be a part
The way you laugh
I know your my other half
How you get so excited for Dr.Who
Just you
The names we call each other
It's not right with another
The way your eyes sparkle and shine
When I say your name I know your mine
How you own my beating heart
And you have since the start
The way you always make me see
The way you make me happy
How I look forwarded to seeing you
And going to school too
The way my friends all say we'll last
And me praying we will never be a past
How I thank god for you every night
And how I hold you tight
And we never fight
Because you're just right
This is how I know  
This is love

There's someone else inside of me
Alone in there I hear it breathe
It's me, but a different side you see
It awakens and destroys the weak

Eyes open to the purest red
All the innocence gone its fled
Full of rebillious thoughts in my head
The old me could be gone and dead

It laughs it breaks it taunts
It takes it steals it wants
Beware of it, it haunts
Just give in to it

Tall and glorious in all her beauty,
She will fall,
She points her blood smathered sword into the midnight air,
The moonlight slipping through her silky hair,
Victory amongst her face,
She will fall,
She turned her horse to face her lover,
But his eyes ounce kind,
Turned vile,
His mouth set with disgust,
He raised his sword and swung it towards her,
She had fell

I felt a shift in overwhelming air
It tingled against my sensitive eyes
I felt the breeze run fingers in my hair
And I felt where the Earths heart really lies

The sun rested its arms against my face
And brushed away the shards blown asunder
Took me in and gave me a humble place
Beneath it's warm wings safe from the thunder

The rain washed away my dry salted tears
Held me in blankets of security
Erased my frothing belligerent fears
In a stronghold of true sincerity

This is the place that I call my real home
It's a place that I have built on my own

Why am I so disappointed if I have everything I want?
*Because I have nothing I need.

There and gone again
Where are you?
I whisper in the quiet of the night
Hypnotic stars blanketing the sky
In the shadows do you lay?
Where are you?
My fingers barely brush the veil
Before you are gone
Again
I am in your trance
Following your heartbeat
You I smell in the fragile breeze
Soft and sweet the aroma fills me
Where are you?
Come out come out
My searching heart begs of you
Show yourself to me
One who manipulates the shadows
And dances with the stars
I hear you, smell you, but cannot see
Why must you torture me
Give yourself to me
So I may rest again
From the earth I rose
Necromancers
Spirt dancers
Find me I must see
This heartbeat that has woke me
From my sleep

I wish to roam among them
Loyal strong and prideful
Together a body
Which moves as one
My dream to look Into their
Hunters eyes
So full of truth
But this Villalobos is burning down
Scattered running
Their paws hit the ground
Smoke fire chaos all around
I stand in the middle and watch the flames
My heart is breaking I call their names
How could we do this ?
Let this be?
Did this happen because of us?
Because of me,?
Bothers stop they matter to
Their foreign to us
Because they don't speak our language
Respect to you lobos
Because you are free
That's something above all of us
Even me

Broken
My friend
Do not pretend
It hasn't happened again
I lie my head here
Just to rest for a while
Realese a shaky breath and a tear
Had been hours since I've manage to smile
Just have to wait, the rain clouds will clear

I am alone, beneath the skin of a smiling girl.

I am weak, underneath the tough words.

I cry when the doors are closed

and I lie when I'm vulnerable.

I'm scared of the entire world

I hate to know pains cold fingers

they linger their frozen touch on my heart

and it's there I know I am falling apart.

I break like glass thats already cracked

shattered asunder, just like that.

Sometimes, while my lips quiver and my eyes shine with unshed tears

I think about what there isn't to fear.

What is the reward of this wayward place

Ridden in hate

I cant walk a mile in anyone else's shoes

I haven't even ran in my own

My heart cant bare the thought

Of stepping outside it's home

Oh yes, it's been broken

And yes, it's done wrong,

but that imperfect heart

that broken, hurt swollen heart is strong.

I have been careless
I used to move with wind beneath my feet
The eyes of no man could see
I was part of the night
Which no one had found
A shadow with no end
Looming across the skies
Gracefully perched in the black of night
No eyes had set
Upon my beauty
No hand had laid
Against my silk skin
Plush lips never brushed softly
Hair unbound only by myself
But the night with its star filled sky
And the moons luminous gaze
I was not alone
I was completed by myself
But the wrong move,
Was my own undoing
I could have quietly picked the shattered
Pieces and put them back in place
But I liked the freedom
Of the light
The heated gaze of the sun
I could see clearer
And the opaque window
I had been gazing through
Wiped clean
Revealed me to the world
But I was okay

Iridescent eyes
Tsunami's crash inside
Is your heart breaking?
Like the sad story playing in those orbs?

Winter cold heart
Your love tore me apart
Like an Earthquake beneath my feet
You sent me falling through the cracks

Love destroyed us
Like a hurricane, it floored us
Stole my breath and left me gasping
It was your hand I was grasping
for

Down at the bottom
That's where I found them
Those whose hearts were broken like mine
And were left to drown, and die

Broken wings on a butterfly
Struggling to breath
Don't
         Let
                 It
                           Die
Cold stings frozen hands
No snow falls
No
            One
                                        Understands
Soft strum of your guitar strings
The fast flutter of quick fingers
Along
             I
                         Sing
In your arms I'm safe and sound
Just you and me
               No
                            One
                                               Around
Watch the sun drop before our eyes
The stars left hanging there
Lighting
         Up
                       The
                                     Sky
Close your eyes
Before what we have dies
Like a flame
Bending the same
We
                Must  
                               Ignite
                                                         Tonight
Before our wings give out

I am one
In a sea of a thousand
I swim among myself
Because I cannot go on
Pretending to be
Some one I am not
They ask us to morph
Our beliefs to fit theirs
With no care of how we
Feel
Only of how they can gain
From our blood sweat and tears
How they can take
From us
But never give
Its a one way street with them
And they won't stop at the
Lights
Because they don't mean a thing to
Them
Our rules don't apply to them
Because in some way
That I cannot see
They are above us
If I could raise my voice
Above the uproar
I would ask how
How they think they can push us down
Why they think we deserve less
Is it because we make less?
Now how is it our fault
When work is bad
And gas is through the roof
My mom is barely home
She comes home with bleeding fingers
Only to make just enough to pay the bills
I know she hurts
And she thinks of leaving
Everyday
But I'll be the one
To stand for my mother
When she's to weak
I'll speak for her
When she can't
I'll be her eyes
When hers won't see
I'll lead her from this world
Of this trumps this
To one that could care less
If you can afford to waste money
On things that mean nothing
Things that are expendable
That can be replaced
I'll live for a world of peace
Where differences make us smile
Where love is for anyone
Where we all respect each other