"Why are we here?" he asks me with a certain innocence resonating in his voice.
"I think we're here for something, we all have something we were meant to do," I say in a voice of certainty although the emotion doesn't reach my heart.
"What do you think you were meant to do?" he asks staring up at the pale sky with his hands shoved deep in his pockets, with a thoughtful expression on his face.
"I don't think I'm meant for anything, I was a mistake, someone must've really messed up," I say laughing dryly.
"I think you're wrong. You're a lot more special than you think. You should give yourself more credit, at least you're still here breathing."

I'm so sad
I'm always mad
Mad at the world
Mad at myself
Mad at the pain
And mad at tears
Because I cry a lot
I hate it
Makes me feel weak
I don't like talking about my feelings
I never have
Chasing a picture of a life I'll never have
Chasing a a world beyond my grip
My heart needs saving
But it's out of reach
For anyone ordinary
I love someone, but can they love me back
No ever has
They can claim that they have
Maybe they believe it
But it's not true
If I can't love myself
I can't be loved by you
Always going around
And around
The faster I get
The dizzier I become
Like a high
It blurs out the world
And the darkness stays at the threshold
And I'm safe for the moment
But only for the moment
I'm never truly safe
Never

Along the trees that sit in a twisted path carved out just for me
The wind blows a big gust of air realesed from lungs that rustle the leaves
The stars overhead gently blanket the tree tops and give a brilliant sight
And then I hear them, their strong howls break out beneath the moonlight
And I smile as I walk the twisted path carved just for me
Looking and observing the blur of thick colored coats I can see
The thunder of their paws slapping the earths bed
It echoes, reverberates inside of my head
Oh my thunderous brothers howl the songs you sing
Howl, please howl and bring that joy to my heart you bring

I found out something funny about the world today,
when your life is going good
something tends to stain it grey

It seems like when your tears finally dry,
tricks are pulled to break you down
and make you cry

Whether it's a nightmare that brings every hidden scar to the surface,
or the departure of a close friend
it breaks through my inner barriers
so I can't pretend

I watch everyone else's pain
and take it in like my own,
I think misery
has become my new home

And every time I lose faith
in myself
in my family
in the human race

I find it that much harder to pick myself up,
wonder why I even care
so much

I take the good things
and make them bad
I take a happy moment
and twist them sad

I just wish there was a place for peace
where I was alone
Somewhere that actually
felt like a home

A place where it didn't hurt like this
a place where ignorance
truly is bliss.

Flawless was the sky
Stained by blood
A rise in the war fields
A smile among hate

A child born of darkness
But eyes of innocence

Pulled closer to the pain
I was wrapped in my own cocoon
So beaten on the inside
Soul ridden

Twinkling light held above my head
Cry blood

Sticks scrape my skin
Rocks break my bone
Words slice my neck

One scream to echo

No one can feel my pain
I must bare it alone
Carting this weight on my back
I mustn't fall

No wings to beat
No way of escape
I hang my head mournfully

String to bow
My song plays
But my soul
Lost its
Way
Home

The stars seem to curse me this sorrowful night
They scold my blind sight
For I never foresaw a turn of events
I read the signs but did not know what they meant

The moon seems to share my tears
and this sorrow seems to simmer into slow burning fears
Ones that incinerate my heart
To a pile of ash left spread apart

This pain is one for a muses tale
A cliche among the weak and frail
Ones that break like me
From things that I never see

It hit me like a wave of awful despair
But these tears where hidden from their stares
For my love is my weakness
It is my own kryptonite

Sometimes in being the hero
you become the villain
When you've been overlooked so many times
Your sanity steps out of line

And your heart takes the leap
into darkness

I am drowning
Underneath this feeling of desperation
I am dying
Inside this broken heart is bleeding
I am crying
These tears falling with the loss
The enormous loss of not knowing
Not knowing that the even the ones closest to you
Will betray you
Berate you
Break you
Let me drown

I'm young in appearance ,
But what I've seen has made me wise,
I don't know all there is to know
But what I have learned is priceless,
I don't need to see the entire world,
To know what I love and cherish the  most,
It's right there infront of me,
Even if it's blocked from my sight,
I can feel it even though it's lost,
It's apart of me,
It always has been

I've been lifeless lately 
Time rushing past 
I've been slow motion lately 
Can't remember what I did last 
The airs cold against my tears 
I have been running so long 
I have hid from these fears 
It was so wrong 

Burnt bridges all around 
Glass is breaking through the sound 
This pain is taking over me 
Im falling to the ground 
Please take my hand save me 
I've been no good but maybe 
You could change me 
Maybe it's you that I need 

a dove in my window Payne 
They said it was a chance of sun 
But my sky is full of rain 
and I feel like I'm done 
The lights flicker to black 
My head is spinning 
I need to take you back 
All this hurt it's been bringing 
I cried all I could 
And I seen this day coming 
I just wished it never would 
And now I'm lost again 

Burnt bridges all around 
Glass is breaking through the sound 
This pain is taking over me 
I'm falling to the ground 
Please take my hand, save me 
I've been no good but maybe 
You could change me 
Maybe it's you that I need 

And if only you could see 
That this light burns inside me 
I'm shining in the shadows 
Its like it's never mattered 
But I just want to light your way 
Even if that path is out of "our" days 
I just need to know that we 
Were something to keep 
Even if it's not me that you seek

Inside your embrace
I feel at home
Looking at your face
I finally stopped feeling alone
I can finally breathe without the pain
I can feel my heart being repaired
I can love you without shame
Knowing you love me back, that we share
Listening to our wild plans as we grow older
To live a life we can only dream
But I told her
That nothing is as hard as it seems
Just pull away the fear
Take a step into the light
Keep close what you hold dear
And never give up the fight
We can be who we want to be
We can live a dream, make it reality
We can overcome the dark that thrashes like an angry sea
Turn simple things into beauty
We just have to try

Snowflakes on the ground
Angels in the snowy banks
Trees slouched over , bare

Crouching in tendrils of bright green grass
Two caterpillars set out on a daunting task
Hearts filled with hope to taste the fruit
Which had rendered so many full and moot

They slugged their way out beneath the sun
And laughed and talked of all they'd done
Distracted they never saw the bird coming
It swooped down much too close and sent them running

Once they were sure the bird was lost
They argued their plan and what it could cost
They were both still afraid the bird would come back
And this time that bird would precisely attack

But they knew in their hearts that they came so far
They couldn't turn back on their wishing star
So they hauled for the tree which was just in sight
When the bird swooped in and with all it's might

Bit a chunk from both caterpillars **** end
And with a mighty resurrection of power would send
Both caterpillars catapulting to the tree
Where both could feast and drink fruit mead

In a drunken stupor honey glazed thoughts soar
The caterpillars lost in slumber would snore
And in their sleep their body's tore
To be rebuilt with fine allure

They stretched out their legs, wings unfolded as well
Both stared in awe at the beauty, love spell
They leapt in the air and tested their wings
And rose to the sky to cheerfully sing

Two soaring butterflies dancing with the wind
They looked at each other and victoriously grinned
They had beat the bird and ate all their fruit
And may never had if they left that route

Dust settles inside my veins,
dirt lingers inside my heart
Broken bones lead to shame
sharp pieces rip me apart

Dreary Dreary
These Weary Bones
They Holler And Shudder
In Dreadful Tones
I've Strained Them So Terribly
I've Pained Them So Much
These Bones Cry Their Fury
With Each Simple Touch

Burning Burning
My Churning Guts
I've Worked Myself Desprate
I've Worked Myself Nuts
I'm Nearly Depleted
I'm Running On Low
I'm Broke And Defeated
I Really Must Go

I want to get off this train
that drives me to and from my pain
It's a ride that lasts a life time
and you won't get off alive.

I miss the days I didn't fight this way
crying for the days I didn't run away
the days where the sun did shine
and my life was fine.

I'm a drama flick that runs forever
a heart as light as a feather
but my hearts not whats at steak
it's my brain that makes these mistakes.

One minute I feel alright
the next I can't survive the night
I'm holding on by my finger tips
God forbid my grip may slip.

Where I fall right into my grave
and become the broken teen never saved
the young one lost so soon
it's a cry for help of adolescent doom.

No I'm just sick of the black and the white
there's no grey left in sight
no in between for the likes of us
so why not give up?

Why do I even try
when I really rather die
maybe I'm just a *******
and live for the pain I suffer from as I exist.

Dew drops in the dawn
Cricket choirs overhead
The stars so neatly drawn
Above an earthly kind of bed

The birds will sing softly
As they dip and soar, alive!
Hearts beating like soft wings
Waiting for the sun to arrive

Blinking lights below sunrise
Take breath away, so honestly
I’d never seen fireflies  
Until you pointed them out to me
Blanketed by the tickling fog
Excited by the breeze
Surrounded by the comfort
Of the sweet tranquility of trees

Head back in awe
Gazing at the vast sky
Eyes wide with laughter
Who knows what comes
In twilights after
When you’re not afraid to die

To learn to live in the moments
That are bright like imagery
To hang off every word transpired
By brown eyed chivalry

For once to be distracted
To truly be at peace
I allow myself to be surrounded
By the safety of your trees

Tears are streaming down her face
Our trust has been misplaced
In the hands of a human being
A mother can't believe what she is seeing

The same ones who swore to protect and serve
Leave bodies dead, laid out by the curb
And my heart is bleeding as much as their wounds
Our streets are becoming tombs

Our hate is destroying our humanity
And we let pride take away from our dignity
We let stereotypes destroy our humility
It's become a tragedy

There within the dark
Glowing eyes
Golden
Staring at me with a predatory hunger
Am I scared?
Oh certainly not
The vicious teeth
Snarling and snipping
Are only a barrier
To the soft heart
That lay beneath the dusty chains
The angry eyes
A reflection of a broken image
Those sharp claws
Threatening to rip through flesh
Remnants of the daggers pierced through a once soft heart
All of it made from scars long in the past
**And some of it freshly torn

Senõr De Los Lobos
Your kingdom is falling
Mankind has no passion
For those that do not
Speak their language
But I hear your prayer Lobos
I will stand against the flame
If you will stand along side me
We will go to war  
We will fight to belong
Because I see through your eyes
We are one