josin137: Poems

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josin137 Jun 2015

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A star so bright
It blinds the eye.

A sky so dark
It dims the heart.

A tree so high
It scars the skin.

A sea so deep
It stabs the soul.

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josin137 Jul 2015

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I wish I had given him some space,
So that he never needed any more*.

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josin137 Oct 2015

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If life needed a soul,
And I needed yours,
Would you have granted me,
Or would you have granted she?

If love wanted a heart,
And I wanted yours,
Would you give yours to me,
Or would it belong to she?

If lust wanted a body,
And I craved yours,
Would it then be given to me,
Or would it have been delivered to she?

If death had wanted me,
And I wanted you,
Would you give yourself to me,
Or would I be given to she?

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josin137 May 2015

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A comma is to wait,
A full stop is the end.

This time, I'm giving you a *full stop.

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josin137 Apr 2015

...

I just want to close my eyes,
And fall asleep.

The end.

*

josin137 May 2015

*

Stars are beautiful
Because they're out of reach.

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After Rain

josin137 Apr 2015

After Rain

I speak from experience,
Don’t love a person twice,
Only his appearance,
Could turn you into icy ice.

I speak these words,
Because they are lonely truths,
They stab like swords,
To show and not to soothe.

Believe me or not,
The love you feel is very tight,
Like a single knot,
But easily untied.

Only the one,
Can make you feel at ease,
But it is not to be the one,
Who easily release.

It is then when you know,
Who is the one who is truly worth,
When you ask questions like what and how?
And feel the entire Earth.

Again I say,
It is truly pain,
But endure another day,
Just right after the rain,

And there it is, the perfect sun.

Time might not help, but someone will and that's when you know he is the one.

#love #pain #hurt #him #you #wait

All there is.

josin137 Oct 2015

All there is.

The words dripping,
Our feelings flipping,
The tears falling,
Our ways splitting,

Your care disappears,
Your heart reappears,
Your eyes like gears,
Your ears mishear,

I speak in language,
Our thoughts never engage,
I try to salvage,
Our mismatch **damage.

Anger

josin137 Apr 2015

Anger

Always her.
She's say what she doesn't do.
She do what she doesn't say.
She kills other's words,
with words she doesn't mean.
I'm ******.
My anger welled up within,
But I cannot say it out.
I will one day, just wait.

I'm going to say it out to your face and make you know that you're wrong.

She ****** me off every tume

#anger

Battlefield

josin137 Mar 2015

Battlefield

I speak, I cry, I feel
But who’s on the other end?
I’m fighting,
I’m trying,
It takes forever just to handle a day,
It is hard and suffocating,
But I am still standing
I will survive
No matter what,
It is mine, this life
And it will be me,
Who decides when it ends
I love, I give, and I try
Though it’s hard,
But it’s worth the suffering
Every step, every moment
A new live is born
But at the same time
A life is taken away
Will I be one of them?
No, not until I fall in complete
Devastation
I’ll stand as long
As I am in this battlefield
I’ll live to tell the tale.

:)

#dying #life #trying #surviving #battlefield

Before

josin137 Jan 2016

Before

Love is common to all,
As forms of unbreakabke bond,
Some says it comes when it's called,
And some says it only appears at dawn.

My love was never called,
Nor was it formed at dawn,
But appeared as a form of bawl,
That marched my heart as drawn.

The end was nothing but more,
Than the start is nothing but shore,
And waves that has been played,
Gives nothing, but raw grade.

Black & White

josin137 May 2015

Black & White

When you came into my life,
You brought in colours

...

And when you left,
You took them with you.

Blames

josin137 Jul 2015

Blames

It's no wonder
There's so much hate in the world,
When everyone's being blamed.

Broken

josin137 Apr 2015

Broken

My dready face,
My swollen eyes,
My lonely heart,
My broken self.

I'm broken now, you made me fall...you've disappeared

Come back to me, this time I'll stand

#love #broken #sad #pain #hurt #you

But

josin137 May 2015

But

If only I didn't feel this way,
The world would be a lot brighter,

But

It will also be a lot lonelier.

Sigh.

Crying

josin137 Mar 2015

Crying

I was told,
Crying shows weakness
To never cry
In front of others
So I never did,
Every time I felt like crying
I showed a smile
That would make people believe,
I was happy
To laugh off others joke,
That was killing me inside out
I smiled,
I felt like crying,
But I held it in
I looked at people,
With a gentle smile
They never noticed,
How much tears,
Have been held inside
It’s killing me,
It really is
I want to cry out loud,
And show people,
What I really feel
But I can’t,
Because it shows weakness
So instead,
I cry inside,
Causing a major flood.

I held it in,

#depression #sadness #cry #weakness #others

Fear

josin137 Aug 2015

Fear

Once, you told me you were afraid of the dark,
And that that fear was erased because of my spark.
But now, it seems I am the one who's afraid,
Just because you and her are in that parade.

Those times when you were mine:..

Give

josin137 Apr 2015

Give

The dreams I dreamt,
The tears I spent,
The sorrows I have,
The love I gave,
It was all meant for him.

His love,
His hate,
His laughter,
His sorrow,
I wish I could accept it all.

Our time,
Our thought,
Our laugh,
Our smile,
It’s now in the past.

My wishes,
My dreams,
My kisses,
My gleams,
I give it all to him.

everything i seek

#love #pain #thoughts #him

Go.

josin137 Apr 2015

Go.

I speak my mind,
Non is transferred,
I stand behind,
A complete mirror of reddish red.

A hope I do not have,
Gives me wishes I do not wish,
All I do is give,
And try out all my hiss.

I thank you for all your pity,
But I wish no more than your go,
To then relieve the roses pretty,
In my own imaginable row.

Please just go, hurt me no more or I'll die...

#love #go #pain #hurt #him #you

Haiku: Winter Time

josin137 Dec 2016

Haiku: Winter Time

Waves of the ever sky,
Time sailing like winter light,
Tears have come to rob.

Hopeless

josin137 Apr 2015

Hopeless

The sun is setting,
The painted sky,
All I see is black lighting,
Which makes me cry.

The silence that kills,
My heart collides,
The fire drills,
All those painful rides.

The drips and drops,
Like on a rainy night,
A rabbit hops,
I see no light.

Dreading myself,
In endless sorrow,
In mindless shelfs,
The screaming crow.

And now it's the end,
Of this painful book,
Memories end,
My heart shook.

*... I feel hopeless ...

i feel stabs but there's no wound

#pain #sadness #hurt #hopeless #cries

Hurt(haiku)

josin137 Apr 2015

Hurt(haiku)

I spoke icily,
Only because I'm hurting,
The sky exploded.

I'm hurting because of *you*

#feelings #haiku #hurt #ice

Loss of Words

josin137 Nov 2015

Loss of Words

i write about you,
not knowing how
to deal with my
*loss of words.

Meaning.

josin137 May 2015

Meaning.

Don't shadow my heart,
Don't tear up my eyes,
Don't tear me apart,
Don't say more goodbyes.

Stop all your words,
Stop giving me hope,
Stop all the past,
Stop making me mope.*

It's me who's clinging, but if you don't push me away... I can't stop.

My.

josin137 May 2017

My.

The stars hear with hysterical pry,
And the moon speaks of light and its cry,
But the sky shout of the horse and its hay,
Then let the sun speak, the precious golden ray.

It's eternal it seems.

No Turning Back

josin137 Apr 2015

No Turning Back

The time I spent,
Wishing for more,
It's now to repent,
For the times I felt roar.

To be by your side,
I think of nothing else,
Only to reside,
And be my only self.

Let the love be forever,
And learn the way of the heart,
Where everything gives for never,
Like a single piece of art.

We knew it won't last,
But we kept decieving,
Regrets that run fast,
Through the veins of reviving.

I wish, but there's no turning back...

Although there might have been bad times, but it was still a beautiful experience that you'll never forget.
Sometimes you'll bring it up in your memories and smile back at those stupid times and just feel the innocent love all over again.

#love #pain #memories #hurt #him #we

Pain are like Rain

josin137 May 2015

Pain are like Rain

You really shouldn't. Is there really no other way?

There's no wrong in feeling pain nor the thoughts of depression but it is wrong to surrender to the depression and pain that tortured you.

Why not leave it as it it? Endure through the pain and when time starts to heal, you'll be laughing and enjoying the win.

Pain are like rain:
It showers you and make you cold and after a long, lonely shower. It disappears and the sun rise again making you feel warm.

Cutting yourself, feeling depressed, everything you're doing that is making yourself hurt more. I don't know why you're doing this to make a memory of depression. Scars are something that stays forever, they'll remind you of the depression even if you have gone past it. Don't be so stupid, and let people help.

People are out there watching life past by, but why is it that people like them have to suffer a sudden chill when they hear you're hurt when all they always see are smiles?

Give it a thought, people are out there looking after you, loving you when you're not, caring for you more than you're caring for yourself, and feeling scared for you because you aren't doing it yourself.

Think about them, think about you.

I know it's painful but pain won't last and scars will.

Part I

josin137 May 2015

Part I

We use to say,
'Nothing can do us apart.'

In the end, **you did.

#love #pain #us #part

Poetry...

josin137 May 2015

Poetry...

I woke up,
Early in the morning,
Exhausted,
And the one thing,
In my mind,
Was poetry,
Because,
I couldn't wait,
To express the feelings,
Erupting inside,
Of me.

A short expression...
First time writing like this...

#feelings #poetry #poets

Rewind.

josin137 Jun 2015

Rewind.

Please rewind the time,
To when it was only him,
With no one to squeeze the lime,
On this already cut skin.

Now it's only worst,
A feeling experienced twice,
Ready to re-burst,
To once again throw the dice

He made the world dim,
Only as revenge,
Again inside the rim,
Only in another's clench.

It was once a better thought,
Now a battle meant to fought.

Shatters

josin137 Apr 2015

Shatters

What keeps me awake late at night, are the thoughts of you...

The way you look at me,
The way you smile at me,
The way you talk to me,
The way you wave to me.

It makes me feel special

But

When I see you looking at her the same way you looked at me...

My heart shatters into pieces.

I wish you knew how much you affected me

#love #pain #shatter #hurt #wish #you

Stop.

josin137 Jul 2015

Stop.

Why can't you just stay where you are,
And stop messing up my life,
Don't break down all the walls
I have built to distant me from you.

It's making me hurt,
More than you ignoring me,
It's making me hurt,
Knowing I can't have all of you.

Stop your smiles that melts my heart,
Stop your talks that tingles my brain,
Stop your stares that make me feel weak,
Stop your kindness that makes me want you.

Strangers

josin137 Jul 2015

Strangers

from strangers, we became friends,
from friends, we became lovers,

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and from there, we are once again *strangers.

Stress

josin137 Jul 2016

Stress

Catastrophe runs in my mind,
Desperate on my fragile soul,
Dare not I look behind,
Unto my long lost role.
Now, banging on the sheer white wall,
Face with the truth of my denial,
Looking through the empty halls,
Smiling, to forgotten dials.

Strong Willed Girl

josin137 Mar 2015

Strong Willed Girl

She’s born a girl
But knows not what fear is
She wonders in her sleep
‘How great would it be
If I was born a boy
When in need of strength
The hidden is stronger
When in need of support
The trust comes forward
Just why was I not born a boy’
But she does not complain
Only dreams in her sleep,
She live the life of liberty
Just like those creatures,
Soaring through the skies
She loves the world,
She trusts herself,
She believes in power,
Within herself
She’s a Strong Willed Girl.

Girls, we are not weak!

#girl #dreams #strong #believing

The sea and the sky

josin137 Aug 2016

The sea and the sky

In the deepest part of the sea,
The sky brings away the glee.
You are the cry that I be,
And the hope that has flee.

As wine I have treasured,
Fragile glasses against pressure,
You are the time I never measured,
And the pain of simple gesture.

Of tongue that has tangled,
I feel as if, strangled.
The fire always rattled,
And yet you haven't prattled.

At the brim of the ocean depths,
The stars cry for the sky, of its death.
Swaying above the panting waves,
You grab on me as I sink below.

The SKY

josin137 Oct 2016

The SKY

The stars
       Of the sky,
Like the powers of the EYE.

The moon
       Of the sky,
Like the HEART and its cry.

And of the
         SKY,
Is the sheet of ETERNITY sigh.

The Truth

josin137 Apr 2015

The Truth

I laugh like it's nothing,
I talk like it's normal,
I greet as if we're fine,
I smile as innocent as possible.

But the truth is,
It's hurting so much,
When all the memories,
Starts stabbing me.

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I wish you knew,
How much you meant,
To start anew,
Like a metal bent.

But first, I have to melt away and be shaped again...

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#love #truth #pain #sadness #time #hurt

Time

josin137 May 2015

Time

They say time heals,
But really, **time kills.

How long more do I have to wait for time to erase you ?

To Poets Out There

josin137 Apr 2015

To Poets Out There

We write things we don't understand,
We write about the feelings erupting inside,
The story behind every smile,
The sadness behind every tear,
We write about the things that keep us awake late at night,
And the things that awake us from a deep slumber,
We are not only poets but story tellers as well.

*Of our own daily life, write more, express more and hurt less.

Writing is one of the expression, when one writes something that make people feel the same, it just shows how much that one is hurting.

#poetry #pain #hurt #poems #poets #storytellers

To Those Out There

josin137 Mar 2015

To Those Out There

I have a message,
To all those out there
Who have been hurt, betrayed, and lied to
I say this once,
I’ll say it again
Stay strong,
Wait for tomorrow
A brighter day
A day that will arrive no matter what
But will you be there?
Yes, you will
Tomorrow will be the day
You smile, with all your heart
And laugh, with all your might
Be there, be happy
Show them,
Who you truly are
The strong, powerful and bright
The person they’ll regret
Throwing away
Like useless trash
Make them think
Make them want you back
And tell them,
NO
This is a message,
Stay Strong.

Stay Strong, Love Again

#love #staystrong #stand #message

trapped

josin137 Jul 2016

trapped

the tears wasted,
the feelings painted,
the eyes diverted,
the words muted.

the heart broken,
the pain unspoken,
the smiles unbroken,
the lies spoken.

the colours faded,
the thoughts remembered,
the future feared,
the present smeared.

...broken to pieces

Unfold

josin137 Aug 2015

Unfold

A story to be told,
On how the world suddenly rose,
But the truth cannot be unfold,
Since we're all growing old.

Untitled

josin137 May 2015

Untitled

The moon and the sun,
When one is up, the other is down.
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Just like our **love

We were always there, but we never meet.

#sun #moon #lost #us #missing

Untitled

josin137 Apr 2015

Untitled

It hurts,

If you are hurting as much as I am,
you'll understand the meaning behind these two words.

#hurt

Untitled

josin137 Jul 2015

Untitled

Rains are like cries,
The sadness wells up inside,
Changing its form to watery tears,
And when it can't hold it anymore,
It comes rushing down.

Untitled

josin137 Dec 2015

Untitled

When words can't express,
Feelings accumulate,
Tears repress,
And the heart calculates.

Us

josin137 Oct 2015

Us

You gave me lights,
You gave me rights,
I was stubborn,
You were nice.

I gave you tears,
I gave you cheers,
You persevered,
I didn't.

They gave us time,
They gave us lime,
You said 'please',
I said, 'sorry'.

White (Haiku)

josin137 May 2015

White (Haiku)

The snow is so white,
It falls down yet so gently,
My heart shatters then.

Without you

josin137 Oct 2015

Without you

You arrived with a bang,
Brought lights and colours,
Turned my world upside down,
Drained my eyes of tears,
Created muscles on my cheek,
And did surgeries on my heart.

But,

When you left, the colours dulled,
The lights switched off,
The tears kept on flowing,
The stitches in my heart reopened,
The smiles for you disappeared,
And the warm summer became cold.

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