The prancing sheep evade my mind and eat upon greener pastures.
I squirm and wince at every thought that repetitively repeats, "just go to sleep", while tracing back the day's steps and weighing the factors.
Why must my mind be so out of sync with the tune of my body?
The wise would advise physical exhaustion is not sufficient ammo to defend against morphing into a groggy zombie.
Insomnia? No...I can have a good night, windows open and naturally closed eyes.
Anxiety? No...my life is too right, for me to not realize this sleep is just something I idiotically idolize.
Change? Yes...I can grow and stow away any thoughts which summon the riot, organize the files and endless waiting miles.
Minutes to hours, hours to frustration,
all until a simple revelation, I've had singular control of the entire situation.
Through meditation, finally free of this voluntary probation.
For no longer do I fear my head touching those precious feathers, and no longer wince at the warm and fleece-ridden wrapping like tethers.
I can now dim the blinding internal light, and tear from the controlling reigns that started this nightly pillow fight.