The deeper i seek,
I find it harder to connect
with anyone around me.
Is there anyone that resonates
with my frequency?
Anyone that truly sees
The girl underneath
the more i speak,
The more i feel i need their
acceptance, approval of she.

Then, Klarity arises from her sleep.
The one that doesn't care who leaves,
She is my peace.  For She knows
Her purpose is not defined by who wants me, It is to set others free.

She finds comfort in the uncomfortable
For no change comes easy,
It comes with pain, maybe a bit of shame
In return, we vibrate at a higher rate.
And get a step closer to integrate.
Start to tap into
The purpose of why we came to this time space.

I am always here, the true essence
If you need to contact
Just drop out of your mind,
Into your body
Bleed out pages of ink
And you will find the alignment you need.

You are free.
Take the chances - you won't regret it.
Trust that flicker
Within your being, its calling,
let it lead
your intuition
Is the key to the ignition
The puzzle piece you've been missin'
Universe sees when you trust
And take a leap.
You will shine.
And the others who are on your vibe,
Will recognize
They see more to what than meets the eye.

Programs run deep
Where did your thoughts orignate from?
Are you the one thinking?
Societys brainwash embedded deeply in the psyche.
This construct
Was Built to destruct,
To profit off low self esteem

With every bell ding
another deposit to the pharmacy
They dont want you thinking.
They dont want you to be free.
You might question authority,
They thrive off your self limiting beliefs
They want you in doubt,
full of anxiety and not taking the lead.
So they keep sinking in their teeth to polite society

You are not your identities,
You are everything in between
A word thats not even defined.
You cant be.
For You are otherworldly.
They can't touch your vibe.
Know it. Feel your essence
WIthin your whole being.
You are divine.
You are bigger than time

I will shine.
I will focus on me,
On what feels aligned,
And one day,
When i let someone inside,
I won’t be so torn if they leave.
For i know,
I will always have me, myself and I.
And they will know me better than any other guy.

Learn the lessons,
And get to manifesting.
Life isnt found in over thinking, wishing and daydreaming.

Its found in living.

Kc

Accepted
Rejected
I'm loved,
I'm neglected

You are not defined by the lens others see you through.
Do not abandon you
to get some acception. to be chosen,
by someone who does not see you.
Your value, your worth,
All you overcame,
tied together with a pretty face and lace.
Do not mistake.

My soul always breaks,
in the same way.
Questioning fate,
But I do not spread hate.
Each time rejected,
i it as confirmation,
my daily affirmation

Another dash
added toe the line
and each time
it hits a litte deeper inside.
Will i find love in this life?

Your truth, pushes them to go too deep.
We can' t help how others percieve,
make sure you don't shrink.
and you will be seen.
Ctril
Alt
Delete

All i see
Uncovering in front of me
Tearing at the seam
Colors colliding
All around
Feel the sound
Frequency released

Turn around
Its you,
Staring into
The mirror reflecting
Hi, hello.
Finally facing she.
klarity
the ones that sees beneath

shadows, coming to rise
Inner child, always resides
within the frame,
& she hides,she silently cries
she hates the way she thinks
I feel her pain, i want to comfort her
Must keep her safe.

Yet, her patience grows thin
I can't keep playing pretend.
can only run from myself
For so long
Until there's no more distractions
to save me from my own self.
Sure,
Try to put the reflection on the shelf.
Did the old you fade away?
Or are you just lying to yourself
Rejecting & silencing the parts of you
that still need help.
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Keep running
Keep wishing
Keep waiting
The clock
Still ticking
Keep dancing
Until your sweet ever afters
you must see your shadows,
And not run astray
Time to integrate.
A healthy array
Of truth and acceptance

Instead of judging
Seek to understand
Is what i always say,
How about i apply it to
The one who's typing this
The who cant sleep
The one who feels the emptiness
And the bliss
Yet feeling irate.
Shes a paradox wrapped in skin
She loves herself yet she hates
& she's trapped in her brain.

What causes her to act in ways.
That she will probably rregret
Tomorrows yetserday..

And then, she woke up.
She decided,
This isnt what she wants.

She then calmly packed her things
Silently dwelled in leaving another home
Uh oh
Time to begin again
And said goodbye to the stagnance,
And with each step forward she gained a little bit of  valiance?
strength,
Confidence
In each step.
She remembers who she is.
Pain is there,
Tears at the waterfront,

But still,
Shes empowered in stepping back into her power.
On to the path of self discovery,
Self love,
And connection.

Strength is never easy.
She drives her tiny car jampacked in silence,
And silently starts to cry
The whimpers turn to gasps
No one there to stop them

Bawling so hard she cant see the road,
She doesn't know where shes going,
She doesn't know where home is,
But still,
She continues.
To go.

She has to do it for herself,
If she doesn't, no one will.

Dont judge yourself for getting lost in the tides
We all get lost in the waves
But there was too many crashes
For how short the waves were.
Doesnt matter about fair.

And today,
I realized what is, is.
And it isnt what i want.
With that, i say thankyou
But the new me is ready to sprout.
No time to shout
This ***** is out

Dont worry too much about right now,
And the future.
You will make the decision you were meant to make with the precision

Each step,
For yourself
Filled with love
Strength
And pride.

Her feet dragged,
Her hair messy, puffy eyes,
Unsure of what is next
But still,
She walks.

She continues,
No matter what.

For herself,

And that my dear, is love.

The love you deserve.

Nobody can leave for you,
Nobody knows truly how you feel,
Except you.

Love yourself like you want to be loved.

It isnt easy,
But neither is life.

You are love.
In your pain,
In your joy,
In your madness.

Is when your most beautiful.
Show up for anyone?
Show up for you

Show you what love really is.

The rest can undo.
Make your dreams come true.

Why is it
We write about what we need
What we’re missing

Instead of what we have
And what we have found

Always yearning
Always Craving
For something more
Than what’s given
Than what has been found.

Is there more to life out there
Or am i a hopeless dreamer
Making wishes on every shooting star
And every 11:11

Is there a point
Where we stop wanting
And start accepting
Life, for what it is
What our experience has become

I’m not sure which one
Is worse.

Maybe instead of counting how many tears
I’ve shed
I’ll start counting how many sun rises
I've seen

There is something to learn,
From nature itself
Like how the sun always falls..

But

She rises.
Over and over

Again,
And
Again

Til she burns out.
Day after day,
Until she  takes her last breath.

She will shine so bright
Her whole life
Maybe never knowing
Her true worth.

We clearly see her light.
We figure she knows how valuable she is
How much we need her,

She has no clue.
Yet She continues to rise and fall,
Breathing life unto us all.
While maybe she..
Is falling apart;
herself

Keep going
Keep burning
Even when you dont feel like it.
Someone out there needs you

-kc

If i write a poem
Every night
Will i feel alright
When each day
Restarts

Each time,
It gets a little easier
To deal with the pain
To smile it away

Buried and buried away
In treasures and chests,
Lays a pool of each and every tear
I’ve shed.

Kept in jars, Each tear
With a story,
A name,
And a face
That I've forced myself to forget.

They are kept away
with a padlock at the door
That says never let anyone in again.

Long walks into the night,
Writing my heart out
And reading for hours on end

I’ve transformed my pain,
Into something good.
In hopes of it going away

Building a new me
With each new step i take.

It hurts too much to remember,
So i choose to forget.

But the old me still resides,
She sleeps in the hole in my chest.
That's been patched up with bandages
Over and over again.

Her pain doesn’t subside,
She's made herself a bed.
I can still feel her cries,
When i lay to rest.

How she yearns to be loved,
And she’s only ten.

I will be her guardian,
Comfort her pain,
Fight her demons away

Finding reason to make her smile,
Day, by day.
Until I am called, at my fate.

The end.

-k.c  4/6/19

As I lay
And I think
Of all the wonderful possibilities
That could be coming my way

My talents and ambitions
But do I have what it takes?

The feeling of dissatisfaction
And dissapointment
In who I am
Creeps my way

My thought is always split in two
Love and hate
Mistakes or was it fate

But as they say,
It's the contrast
That makes life great

Without feeling bad,
You wouldn't know what it is
To feel glad.
To embody that warmth,
The feeling all of us adore.

So when I get those bad feelings
Just let them pass
The scarcity of the wound won't last

If you can hold onto something
Let it be this

There is always
A greater day
Soon on its way.

And remember,

You have what it takes.

You must believe this.

K.c

Choose Love over Fear.
Choose Love over Fear.

How do I know which one is which?
Can I choose fear and love actively together?

My daunting question is,
Can I lose myself due to love?

Well, my dear.
Do not listen to your fear.

The Universe notices bravery
when you take a leap
in love,
and trust yourself.

That is, what she awaits for you.
For what ever decision you make,
to trust yourself.

The Universe hears you,
but she is waiting for you to listen.

To stop asking everyone around,
for the answers you seek within.

Listen to your inner knowing.

To trust.
To choose love.
To Be brave,
and you will not be disappointed
in what awaits.

When you trust yourself,
and act in love,
Love only expands from here,
my darling.

The trees,

They whisper to me.

Of the things they want me to believe.

The trees, say

You are strong.

You are tall.

You will rise,

Like me.

The wind,

Whisper’s to me,

Be like me.

Be wild, be free.

Forgive. Let in.

The waves,

Speak to me.

With their resilience,

Their everlasting crash.

Forward and back, Forward and back.

The waves tell me,

Keep going.

The world will still go on without you,
The waves will still crash
The wind will still soar
The trees will still stand tall.
Seasons will change,

So keep going.
Stay strong. Be resilient. Let go, Let in.

Just,
Be.

Do you feel it
Its the feeling
That you get
When there's nothing left

No distractions
No messages to check
No cigarettes
Real self is glaring back

Hi hey its me
Do you like what you see
If not change direction
Find what you need
The path can get rocky and dark
But every breath
Can be a fresh start
To begin again
Ego deleting
Humans, misleading,
Is there a way out of
Escaping
Waiting
Playing
Im Breaking
The soul is aching
Knowing i cant keep replacing

Delaying
ancestral healing
Generation after generation
Running from the University of
feeling.
But dna remembers
The embers
burned from those cold
Novembers


Flown away
from ash to dust
What's done is done
But do everything with love,
And dont forget the ones up abovee
As we are one

Blessed be the
Music makers
The creators
The soul achers
Shedding their layers,

bleed in
Bleed out
Returning the energy to origin
No doubt
Breathe in
Breathe out
No time to scream and shout

The Stagnant air can get left there,
On the page that i wrote,
Bc of the way that you spoke.
Its not the first bad note,
Here comes another ****.

the ones that can let go of their pain
The ones that can cry out their rain
Transmuting,
Not always soothing
It stings, its saddening
But beautifully shedding
From All that's been
embedded
And kept in my head

Bleed it out
Work it out

Soul healing
Will set you free from the shackles
Of your lineages chain.
Cycles
Will not repeat again.
The wise one,
Puts the stop here.
If not you,
Then who?
If not now,
When?
Waiting isnt wise,
Youll get left behind

A step essential to take,
To not have trauma stored in the skin
Embedded in the dna
Let go of the heartbreak
The envy, and the i wish it could bes.
Break the cycle of holding
You must heal all thats been shoved down
And replaced with a drug you found.

Choose you
Choose now
Write it
Yell it
Paint it
Feel it
And let it go.

Step into the clear air
You did it
You repaired

Breathe in the fresh air
Remember how you got here
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My old friend, Ive missed you.
You always provide such a release,
Somehow when I write,
I provide exactly
What I need.

Underneath,
My teeth.
Underneath all these layers
Of clothes,
Fake smiles,
Make up,
And tiny voices.

There’s a hand,
That says; it’s okay
To start again.

I am your friend.
No one can take writing from you.
Write from your heart,
And let it flow down the river
Let it pour out of your fragile hands
Onto the blank paper.

It’s your truth,
And it’s all beautiful.

You can always pick up a pen
And start where you left off.

You know you're a writer.
You will always come back.