Perplexed in the days that fly,
In time, washing the cuts of the past clean.
Staring into the cracks of unopened doors waiting for my senses to explore.
Turning the lights to a dim and forgetting what you’ve ever learned.
Dissolved into your mind, your own world takes fight.
Sense of yourself, gone, past those cracked weathered doors.
Bathed in diamonds reality only dirt compared to what is real, it never really matters masked in your own world.
You sneak past what you’ve known to enter what the heart truly desires.
What your life is and where you are going, disappear and are forgotten when you explore the unknown world of your lost flowing mind.
Dotted with reality your enclosed barred thoughts prevent anyone to ****** your lost soul back safe on the other side of those sacred doors.
Flirting with desires you are stuck with imagination til your senses return to what is real.
The hardness of departure from what you want could be rewarding with those whom love you.

When will you ever see?
What the world means to me
My mind grows deep
Pondering wildly
Awake in the midst of all the tragedies
Scared but won’t come forth
Hurt but won’t heal
My mind can twist and turn in many directions
When will you ever see?

Panting
Long soft sighs
Breathing in sync with heart beats
Shampoo
Sweet mossy scent
Soaked
Wet velvet fur
Shake, shake, shake
Now everyone’s wet
Running and screaming
Spraying with the hose
Loose fur and water in my mouth
Spit
Sick
All ***** again

Wishing the world would just pause and let her catch up,
Time is all she needs and no one will grant it to her,
Her emotions mixed and twirled,
Heart aching and tired from the beatings
The tears wont flow as easily as the once did
All the knifes just keep on stabbing
Making her falter to her knees,
Wanting the car to stop and let her breathe
Her world spinning around and around, there is no way out
The sickness takes over
Her body tenses and falls to the earth her steps use to feel so easily
Feet still but can’t hold the weight of the humanity much longer
How come they ignore her, push her out of the way?
Help her, all she ever sought after was your consent, your love…
The whispers will never stop all the voices and pain won’t stop…
Her life so fragile,
Getting crushed with blocks of life that so harshly pushes her farther
Farther across the line, farther off the cliff…
She wants to be able to live

Serenely sitting on the end of my dock
I watch the sunset rippled in the lake
I shut my eyes and breathe the air
And slowly drift away

Now I’m in an affectionate and bright sandy land
And all I sense is love and bliss
Feeling swept away by waves of remarkable blue water
I am alive! I shout when the next wave hits
The man of my dreams comes and joins me,
Takes me away, away into the sunset
Suddenly we are dancing, dress and radiating hair flowing and flowing
Sugary sticky scent of the bright pink blossom in my hair
In sync our bodies collide, side by side
Spinning into your arms moving all about
Your are mine we walk into the night my eyes open and all is lost,
I’m back in my world thinking of you

I see you there…
By the lake skipping stones on the smoothed crisp water

It is a cool summer evening
The sunset mirrors upon the water

I see your depths of care
As each movement you make is made with deep perspective

The details of your precious face fade away into a silhouette as the sun calls it a night

I see your smile
As you take my hand and we walk the horizon

Your sky is of amber glow
Beaming to warm my life

I am the breeze
That caresses your soft expression

I see you there…
By the lake skipping stones on the smoothed crisp water

My sky is deep purple
Aching for you to always be here

Green eyed beauty
Love to dance,
Have 5 dogs but I want one more.
Music is my life
Nothing held back!
You wanna go?
Then bring it,
I’ll bring it right back.
Love to live
High school rocks!!
Rock hard with friends,
Wish we could stay out all night.
Poetry flows through me,
My thoughts on paper
My mind could get scary
So don’t try to pry
I don’t mind to cry
Why should I be scared to die?
Boyfriend? Who needs one?
Just stick to being friends
Picture perfect
Model to be,
Head in the clouds
Wants to sleep!
Bright future will be me!
Don’t have a car
But yes the license I do!
I’m fragile
Please don’t break me!
***!! I’M ALMOST A SENIOR!!
Why not leave for the heck of it?
Sounds good to me!
I hate
Raisins
Olives
AND JELLO!! Eww!!
Love to shop! SHOP SHOP SHOP!
Clothes and shoes!!
But don’t forget the purses!! Hehehe
Now you know,
Just the gist of me!

I walk down the snow covered way
Only hearing the snow screech under each stride
I close my eyes and think of what it used to be like….

The flames of the sizzling fire crackling to each kindle thrown on,
I was happy then
Cocoa & cookies always warmed me up
Life was so easy no worry no cares
I can feel the sun blind me while I sled down the hill
Life’s little pleasures were always so sweet….

I open my eyes to reality again
My world now that is masked with a dull light
I sit down and cry for a while,
I take a deep breath
Walking back home my breath puffed before me
Tears steaming off my face as I wipe them away with my mitten
I get inside & retire for the evening
I look out the window my face wet from weeping
Sigh one last time and close the curtain to call it a night

Bye sweet world you are still quite a sight

My mind is a maze
Confused and dazed
I turn one way and end up in another direction
Walls so tall enclosing all
Never to show the world
Dark and dreary
Vines capturing my words
Running inside twirling around
Unorganized and lost
My mind is a maze
Confused and dazed

All I ever said was no, no, no, you would say you got to choose!
But what I just couldn’t really reveal
Was that I want you...

Now it’s just too late
And I wonder if you hide your heart

All my tears are falling
Wishing I had it my way
You were my reason to live once upon a time
And I feel I was made for loving you and you alone
I’m a million to one when the people you know around me stay silent

I’ll fight hell to hold you
And forever love it loud
Maybe just maybe some day you’ll ask me
Do you love me?
Then I’ll know I stole your love again

But when your walls come down for me
If they ever do…
Just make sure that’s where you heart is
Cause if and when you do, I may not want you…

As I lay in my bed
I feel you curled in the arch of my knees
Sighing softly
Waiting for me to awake
Once I make the slightest move you’re up and ready
Ready to start the day

I still hear the click clicking of paws on the kitchen tiles
Running to make sure you didn’t miss anything
I still feel the dewy kisses you used to leave on my face

I imagine and remember your fur intertwining my fingers,
The weight of you in my arms

It’s hard to get the others to sing without your whining to start the chain

I can’t look at the stone with your name on it without picturing you becoming the earth
I miss you to the coming of my voice
“Cookies” and “let’s go bye bye”
It’s not the same without you here
“Go get him, Elie” I hope you are watching down on me

I stand there...

See you.

These times are not like time before these now broken nights.

I reach out...

You're close...

So close,

But you are too far away.



Forbidden to stare, Can't even care,

No touch...

I can taste how hell is like.



One tear, Shatters my cracked heart.

Your eyes meet mine...

Finally.

& I can see your soul.



Your eyes hold me ransom to myself,

& freeze me where I stand.



Guarded emotions bring me down to my knees as I take you in.

Timeless kiss... Ends to soon.

You leave me wanting more.

But you are gone.



I'm left empty.

Confused.



Feeling in need of something...

Of you...

You hold the key to my pain,

My love...



You keep my sane.

But I'm left hurt and nothing to gain.



This is me without you.

What I feel like when thoughts I have of you wander through mind.
Day by day the sensation that lurks through the ever so deep and long cold halls.
The deep consciousness that strikes the failing heart going to rest

The aroma of trickling juice running down a peachy child’s chin.
The thick humid air you smell on a raw day when the rain just stopped

The fuzzy velvet impressions between your fingers as you hold your lover close.
Flavor of soft lips flushed and longing, waiting for that special someone to touch.

The creeping behind you making you look around,
The sound of the piano being hardly played,
The wishing you could get away,
The surprise waiting around the corner…

Deep and purple…

Hiding away from the world behind a mask
Masking her untouched porcelain face
Face of pain face of hurt
Hurt by the scars and secrets of the past
Past stabbings of her fragile heart
Heart aches at her sacred fate
Fate that kisses her sweet skin and brushes her glossed eyes
Eyes dulled with lost love so beautiful yet disguised
Disguised with her compromise
Compromising her feelings under a blanket of fear
Fear of love fear of hate
Hating you
You in your disgrace

In one whisper you say it all, with words yet unspoken
With one whisper you make my skin crawl.
The warmth of your lips that lightly touch me,
Make me fall irresistibly in love,
With you,
Again and again.
The tenderness of your touch sweetly embraces me
Into a deep serenity.
You are my heart that thrives,
You are the whispers I hear at night,
Whispers striving to stay alive,
I want you and no one else,
Though there are trials that come and go,
You always will have a piece of my heart.
I can’t say we will always be together,
But I can say this…
You are my everything…
You are the whisper that speaks in the night,
You are the love that strives to keep me alive…
I can’t wait to hold you in my arms one more time…
You are…

The knife she pushed into her flesh could never cut deep enough to make the overwhelming pain diminish…
She overdosed to force her leave the decrepit earth behind…
She drowns herself in that song since he’s the influence behind it.
Now her life is in the dark… with way to much pain behind her eyes…
Her smile will always stay plastered,
But you put the knife of stabbing words behind it… are forever scarred…
Her life will never be the same…
Ending it seems the only way…
Can’t she just runaway?
No… her love weighs her down…
She just takes the knife to her face, mixing blood with tears, with her emotions and her fears…
Can’t explain the loss… but its all her you say…
Please cut her more she says please…
Just end her pain…

I do not understand
Why hearts can be broken
Why it hurts so much when it is
Why I can’t take the feeling

But most of all
I do not understand,
Why I get blamed for all the problems
Why I can’t love anyone else
I try so hard to keep it together
But I fail so terribly I almost don’t make it
Because I can’t ever take you back

What I understand the most is time
If you don’t get enough
Things will never be solved
You can never have your love back
I wish you were mine
All I wanted was time
I do not understand

My dream is quietly sleeping on the white beach dreaming of you
I’ve seen you there a thousand times
I’ve hoped you’d approach by me, sweeping me away into the distance
I’ve tried to run to you but you get farther and farther away
I’ve wished things were different as the sun makes my surrounding unclear
I’d like to be that girl you adore in your arms
Because you seem to love more than the others
I’ve waited in this dream forever, but the love is washed with the waves
I’ve lived this more than words can say, but my feelings never change
I’d be happy if I could only touch your face, but you are always so far away
I’d help you in your bashful ways to open to the world a whole other way
My dream is quietly sleeping on the white beach dreaming of you

I was the amber sun that lit your world so deeply
I wonder if the life we live can ever be the same
I hear your cry in the distance
I see your hurt as you falter to the foundation that crumbles so fragilely beneath you
I want to cement the pieces of your heart together again
I was the amber sun that lit your world so deeply

I pretend this ******* up world was pure and peaceful
I feel hurt by words of stone you threw, but I still know you were hurt too
I touch the faint glass of your picture
I worry I will never get through this…
I cry until I fall asleep at night
I was the amber sun that lit your world so deeply

I understand you say this can and will never be
I say maybe some day
I dream that love is still real
I try to let you go but my heart is still attached
I hope you can still see me in that beautiful light because…
I was the amber sun that lit you world so deeply

Dear Heart.
Please take your time to love fall in love again, don’t bail.
Your time will come.
There are those who would **** to see you fail.

Dear Heart.
You are so frail,
Let it go to Jesus.
And he’ll provide you your wings to sail.

Dear Heart.
You are too swift to fall for lies.
Relax assured in the rested truth.
I know you are incredibly wise.

Dear Heart.
I can only do so much for you.
Be strong.
I’m sorry for what I put you through.

Dear Heart.
I can’t promise you won’t hurt anymore,
But one thing I can guarantee
I’ll give you what you need to soar.

Don’t give up on me yet.