I tried retracing the steps
We took until
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your lips taste of nicotine
from all my late night cigarettes
when I can't sleep

Ayoko nang mag-isip
Dahil baka aking ma-isip
Na kahit hanggang ngayon
Ay wala ako sa'yong isip, giliw

Ayoko nang pumikit
At ayoko nang mangarap sa bituin
Dahil sinta ko,
Ikaw ang aking panaginip

Ikaw ang nasa talukab ng aking mga mata
Na nawawalang parang bula
'Pag dating ng umaga

Pero aking mahal,
Hindi ka nawawala pag-umaga,
Dati

Kaya sa dati na lang ako kakapit
At sa dati na lang ako titingin
At sa dati na lang ako mananatili
At hindi sa aking mga panaginip na mapagsinungaling.

tell me you did not just dream of me, my love
because this is the poison rushing through my veins
that our dreams have always been the same

and still they're haunting me awake.

leave me under the illusion
that the stars are burning
in place of our desires

You asked me
To stop smoking
So much

Thinking that I am
Inhaling too much of
What seems to be my death

I thought about how
I breathed you in
Once upon a time

And there wasn't much difference.

When you bared your fears
As we dreamed through the night


I thought I knew you, my dear.

Kung dito ba ay ako'y maniniwala

At kapag ipinakita
Ipinaramdam
Ipadala ko sa aking mga panaginip

Na, oo, mahal kita.

Babalik din kaya?

****-sabi na aking mahal
Upang sa pag-dilat ng aking mata sa umaga
Ay alam kong hindi na ako aasa

Ngayong gabi
Titingin ako sa langit
Para itanong sa mga bituin
Ang mga salitang hindi mo maririnig

Dahil. Punyeta.

Ayaw-- takot na takot--
Akong ika'y mahalin.

Ashes fall, ashes fall
Tell me if this gray dust is beautiful enough
To take away your life by breaths

Ashes fall, ashes fall
Tell me if they land on the small of your back
And if it hurts
And if you want it to hurt you again.

Ashes fall, ashes fall
Tell me if the back of your mind
Screams at night
That you have to light another stick again
And let the ashes fall.

Tell me if you want my ashes to fall.

Kiss me slowly
Hold me tightly

Love me.
Deeply.
Roughly.
Passionately.

Color me fall
'Cause you are the leaves
That is full of brilliance
And sadness

Yet I will still be
Choosing your colors
Over spring

Another sleepless night
With my last cigarette
Coming to an end
And darling
Believe me
I was thinking about you

After a thousand times
I told myself not to

I inhale my last drag of the night
And pray to God
That the sunrise will be kinder
To me that always hide
In the shadows of my feelings

Walk with me, my love
Under the skyline of the lights
In this city we will claim to be our own.

Walk with me, my dear
And let the rain drops fall
Into our uncaring arms

Walk with me, my love
As we waltz into the innocence
And take every bit of it with you

Walk with me for a while
Before you waltz back into the rain
Without me.

And my love,
Maybe all our maybes
Is the only doubtless sign, that
Maybe we should stop trying.

Is it really my fault?

That words are the only ones
Holding me at night

When you said
You always would?

And darling,
Just like the rain

I knew that
It was too good
For you to

Stay.

You are the nicotine
That lingered only
On my lips

Killing me with shivers
That light up
My soul, in return

But tell me, dear
Do you always leave
All too quickly?