a storm rages in me

a storm no one has ever seen

it begs to get out

i've been standing here
every cold morning
waiting for the leaves
to turn brown
until my breaths
are making clouds in the air
and misty daybreaks transpire

autumn, my love

i know how much you love
the stars when they shine
and we could just lay down here
and watch them all night
while i stare at the sky
i’m wondering why
how could I ever question
love all this time?
searched its way through a maze
never left many signs
came through foreign lands
walked in disguise
i was stuck on a mountain
met you when you climbed

you're not that easy
but neither am i
but i'm glad that we tried

all i feel is peace
when i look up at the moon
she knows my secrets

Don’t touch my heart
With your bare hands
You will burn you fingers
Because all my love
Has been bottled up
Since the day I was born
So my heart turned from yellow
To red
To blue
The warmest bit

I’m a lily blooming
Still thriving
While still exploring the earth
And all her surroundings
Absorbing all of her beauty and body
I can’t even scribe everything down
That comes to my mind
To represent all that she beholds
In all directions of the winds
It is something even poetry can't describe
How she brings people together
She reminds me
That we're not that different
You and I

I’m the pain in your back
I’m the soreness in your throat
I’m the cramp in your feet
I’m the ache in your teeth

I’m the grass on your lawn
I’m the water in your pool
I’m the ice in your drink
I’m the water when you sink

Sometimes I’m laughing at my own loneliness

But in my head I’m fierce like a lioness

All my life I have been feeling this crippling loneliness
Somehow it gives me a sense of comfort
Just the idea of someone walking on this very earth
Who is meant to be with me
Is lovely but also terrifying

I’m wondering if he’s thinking about me too
When he’s drinking a beer with the guys
Or when he steps into his car
Questioning when the seat next to him will be filled
Wondering what my favorite songs are
And if I like to dance
Also knowing there is someone on this planet
Who is meant for him

I wish the wind would whisper his name to me
Or the pigeon outside my window
The tram that rushes by me
Or the employee at the coffee shop
Just to know he’s not dead
That I don’t wait for nothing
Or my body will dig itself
into the earth