I'm dragging myself down
Energy on low
Sleep becoming my enemy
As my dreams tire me so

We range from mindful decision to mindless diffusion
Marching in step to others' lives
Stray from the path and follow a new storyline
Write your book creating your own demise

I watch and turn and feel what's real inside
its nothing but gray
no black or white
only numb thoughts as I fade away
while the laughter surrounds me

We grew up in an era changing
with technology and opportunities full
of growing suicidal thoughts and new perspectives
The struggle for independence
as self thought fills our minds
we ask how can we be ourselves
when everyone expects us to be
someone else

Change a lines width and it's still a line
The same is with life
Changes will occur
Life will still be life
And
You will still be you

Do I let myself go?
Jump in the sea?
Dive to the floor?
And see where this will lead?

Disconnected
Fading
I'm watching from a world away
Trapped inside the prison that is myself

My breath gets caught
hands shake
Everything feels as if it's collapsing
and in realizing it was only me
The world still
as it was
I feel *small

Your heart gets heavy and you say lets do it again
Unable to raise a white flag to your good friend
your mind continues its destruction from within

Excessive thoughts and troublesome plights the enemy continues its rampage through the night
Strength unbearable impossible to fight
Incarcerating you to the prison that is your mind

Trapped inside my head
I find no reason to breathe
until I see something that reminds me of what
I could be

Isolation in the barren wasteland
Breathing dust
Exhaling oxygen
Running low
Exhaustion setting in