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Oct 2018 F

Who Am I?

Oct 2018 F

She Writes

I lost myself trying to become
Everything you wanted me to be
Now you are gone
and I am finally free

But who am I?
I don’t know
I’ve lost your directions
Unsure of where to go

The future is uncertain
I fear the unknown
How will I fare
In the world all alone?

I will slowly transform
Become the real me
The one that I
Was always meant to be

#transform #lost #confused #unsure #scared #future

Oct 2018 F

Fly

Oct 2018 F

She Writes

Fly

You were not forged with wings
To spend your life perched upon a branch
Watching the world pass you by

#fly #wings #life #dreams #hope #live #free

Oct 2018 F

Mom

Oct 2018 F

She Writes

Mom

I loathe myself for loving you
Despise the way I care
I continue to throw myself at your feet
Lay my heart out bare

You are self-centered and thoughtless
Living your life without regard
For a child you left behind
Is saying “I love you” really that hard?

Why do you distance yourself?
Is it because I remind you of my dad?
All the pain you caused
And the life you could have had?

Though I walk a fine line
Of replicating your mistake
I know I won’t
The thought makes my chest ache

I want to repair our relationship
I long to let my heart mend
Make up for lost time
Before we reach the end

#mom #relationship #family #mistakes #sad

Oct 2018 F

Pedestal

Oct 2018 F

She Writes

Pedestal

I placed her upon a pedestal so high
She grew wings and flew away

Oct 2018 F

Spring Rain

Oct 2018 F

She Writes

Spring Rain

I am a gentle rain
On a cool spring day

I will provide you sustenance
Help you grow

Gone as quick
And softly as I came

#rain #grow #life #sad #disappear #gentle #soft

Oct 2018 F

Raindrop Kisses

Oct 2018 F

She Writes

Raindrop Kisses

I let my fingertips
Dance in the rain
Washing away my troubles
Bit by bit
As each drop
Kisses my hand

#rain #raindrops #kiss #kisses #hand #dance #fingers #troubles

Oct 2018 F

Your Light/My Dark

Oct 2018 F

She Writes

Your Light/My Dark

To you I will turn
Like a flower to the sun
Soaking up your light
Until my darkness is none

#light #dark #flower #love #sun #darkness #depression #happiness

Sep 2018 F

Blind Faith

Sep 2018 F

She Writes

Blind Faith

Should I believe in a higher power
That I can not touch, see, or feel?
That lets innocent people be broken
Then worship him to heal

Should I trust that he is the reason
That I live every day
If I need a miracle
Drop down on my knees and pray

I don’t know how I feel
Or what I should believe
My god had forsaken me
Left me feeling naive

I want to trust
That he has purpose for me
From this indecision
I long to be free

Is blind faith a sign
Of strength or weakness
This indecision
Leaves me sleepless

#god #religion #faith #love #hurt #sad #confused #pray

Aug 2018 F

Formless

Aug 2018 F

Ciel Noir

Formless

.      The shape oƒ what we love and fear
                                 Hides s∅meplace we may never go
                      And all the t☈uths we hold most dear
                 Are things that we ₥ay never know
                  But in the midd↳e of your mind
                    A darkness brightεr than the Sun
                      If you shall ⑀eek then you shall find
                            The ⑀hadows of the Formless One

Aug 2018 F

Daydreams

Aug 2018 F

She Writes

Daydreams

I am scared to let my mind wander
To get tangled and twisted
In daydreams

To paint pretty pictures
Of you and me and us
Happily ever after

I’ve been fooled
By empty promises
Too many times

But the way you say tomorrow
Makes me want let go
And trust that the future is nothing to fear

#dream #daydream #love #promises #relationship #scared #wander #future