I always say
That I’m OK
It really isn’t true today
I am not coping very well
I wish I had someone to tell

It’s so hard being on my own
I feel so hopeless and alone
Who could I tell what I just said
So I said it to you instead

look in my eyes
you think you see through
mirrors not windows
you only see you

smooth as a well
I smile and I nod
but I am a maelstrom
beneath this façade

I wonder at this underworld
the demons and the ******
how long before I wake up
and remember who I am

but as I think of all I've done
the darkness in between
I wonder if this other one
is who I've always been

the face of god
stares through the ruins
souls so dark
the stars shine through them

sparkling
and bringing joy
and light to sugar o'er the void

still chasing dragons
far and wide
so I can say
at least I tried

but still I cry
it's not enough
I do not know
how to be loved

they fall for me
I run away
or just run out
of things to say

and so I'll stay
till something breaks
not sure how much more
I can take

I know it hurts me
and it's strange
but I do not know
how to change

of all the things
to be scared of
why am I so
afraid of love?

you fly too high              
    on borrowed wings
                      so far above
                         the shining sea
          and I can see you
               spiraling                                        
            the­ darkness leads you                                
down to me                                                
I ride the waves                                  
and all around                
                    the sky is light
                                 with falling feathers
                                           if I catch you
                          we both will drown
     your molten wings
hold us together

in the Sun
I do not know who I am
who I have become

in the dark
I can feel its tangled roots
deep within my heart