There's a faint sound of wind against my ear
and the laughter of children playing around
As I lay down on the field resting without a care
I feel a gentle gander above me
As closed as my eyes could be
I felt a slight press against my arm
I felt a familiar warmth as time flew by
It was her that rested beside me
by each other's side we rested til dusk
and woke up next to each other's gaze
We yawned then laughed at each other's hair
But boy, was she still beautiful after that
She stood up and said goodbye
and that was the last time I heard her say "good night"

I've always wondered for whom do you smile for
The very smile that I can't simply resist
The one smile that brightens me to my very core
One of the million reasons why I still persist
I feel blessed to see that smile of yours
The one that brightens my day like non-before
The one that keeps me far from insane
The one that keeps me far from a cane
I've wondered why you're always so close
and yet you're always been so far
It's like you're so near, just as near to my nose
and yet so distant just like a small star

I've done everything in my power
and here, I put my hands up high
surrendering to to you all that I can offer
for my head can't be held up tight

Your love for him, I cannot bother
for this is what you want
My words, my actions cannot reach you
and blood, tears and sweat seem not enough

Here I confess that my lungs have been damaged
my heart has palpitated all that it could
Just so that I could put a smile on your face
and not bother you as I should

I've done everything in my power
and yet.. I cannot be "The One"
I ask, do you see nothing in me?
do you see a tombstone for me?

I have been there in the times
that you have suffered
that you wept and grieved in lost love
in the times that you lost hope

I have been there in the times
that you have smiled
that you smirked and laughed in gained memory
in the times that you gained hope

Here, I realize that.. I will never be enough
my words, my actions, my soul
they will never reach you
they will never meet you

Here I am once again
looking at love with my bare eyes
Here I am once again
for all that is left of me

A piece of my mind, my heart
my love and broken soul
whatever was left that
you haven't taken from me
and what I have not given you

I put up my hands up high
knees on the floor
eyes drenched with tears
and I tell all the stars my wish for you
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I wish you sunshine after the rain
All the rest after the pain
I wish you a comfy bed and tea
that tastes beyond your wildest dreams

I wish you health and strength
a good morning and beautiful sunrise
a safe journey home and warm cloudy skies
that makes funny shapes as the light enters your eyes

I wish you all the happiness that the world could offer
or at least, a wonderful taste
of the happiness you have given me
because I wasn't enough to make you feel that

Haha, my wish for you
All I wish for you is love

There's fine line between the
"Oh, he's so nice.. and sweet, and caring"
and the
"Oh, he's just a really nice guy"
...
Nice Guys
I was referring to the latter one
The ones that are generally nice
They'd help anyone, anything
Not necessarily smart, but usually comes with it
They're the "friend that you trust a lot" kind of people
They're usually remembered by the "nice" things that they do
Sadly, they're really underrated when they're not attractive to people
It's the sad truth

When they're in love with you..
They try their best to make you happy
Whether it's a simple gift, or gesture
Know that they have your happiness in mind with the best intentions
They're not nice for nothing
They'll be there when you cry or.. have asthma attacks
They'll try their best to make you smile
and make you feel better about yourself
and they do their best to make you believe that you are beautiful,
even if you don't believe them
They'll try to convince you
on how much they love you,
not just with words but with actions as well
You know, they might not even tell you they love you just yet
Cause they're too preoccupied thinking about you and how you are
(the state of your well being)
They'd think about you more than you'd think about yourself

When you'd ask for space, they'll give you space
just because you asked them to
Know that when you do have that space
They'll still think about you and your wellbeing
They understand
and if they don't, they want to understand you, and they'll try their best to.

When you find one, please do your best
your very-to-the-utmost-extent best
to keep him nice
even if you don't like him
cause itches are the reason why
nice guys turn to the dark side

Cause I've heard that nice guys are in
demand.. and yet so hard to produce

I felt a hug so warm
then on my cheek, a kiss
I felt no harm
cause it's from a person I'll miss
I look back and see
her most beautiful smile
Oh, how lucky of me
to see it for a while
She whispered unto my ear
The four words I'm dying to hear
She said "I love you, dear"
In a voice so clear
and then
...
*I woke up

Today, I pray for an angel's decent
     to guide you with it's all great consent
Today I pray for a happier day
     to make you fullfilled, happy and gay
I pray to God to give you my happiness
     to make you feel better and forget your sadness
Do not be sad if you see my frowned face
     I prayed for you, that is the case

I was like every other scientist
for love to me was just
a neural reaction to a certain
stimulus presented to an individual,
just a hormonal response of a person
to a certain situation laid out to them
Like a configuration of ****** muscle
tissue of one results to an increase
of serotonin, dopamine, and for some,
oxytocin of another
At times, one would affiliate this
****** muscle configuration
to that of pentahydroxyhexanal (sugar)
and that was discombobulating

I could not understand how
a smile becomes sweet

and yet at that moment
when I saw you smile
I immediately understood
that science
science cannot explain this

This feeling I have when I see you

Perish the thought of guilt
for I love you and
I expect nothing

My dear, I love you not
for what you have done
not for what you will be
but for who you are

Perish the thought of guilt*
for I do not regret a single day
that I am in love with you

I used to believe that we couldn't get any closer
than a doctor - patient relationship
Cause everytime you'd come to me
you'd always ask for a diagnosis

I'd ask for your symptoms, check your pulse
your temperature, even your recent meals
then you'd tell me about your recent pains
your heartaches, cramps, and muscle strains

Little did you know than I wanted more
than stories about sicknesses that deters you
Like your favorite color, favorite fruit
favorite band... stories you never told me

I hoped to be more than just your doctor
a person that just cares for your well being
I care more than the sicknesses that bother you

I wish you could trust me more

For 10 months, I've been holding up
a pitcher of affections and feelings that
you never knew it had your name on it.
It kept filling and filling, and no matter
how much I fill it, I couldn't give you taste
because it might disappoint you.

At some point, I gave you a sample
and you seemed to enjoy the sweetness
but I was wondering if it was too sweet
so I couldn't give you everything

There was a time it turned out bitter
maybe, because you sought other pitchers
but it still had a sweet after taste

I try to make it a sweet - sour taste
so that it gives you "kilig" affixes
Still, I couldn't reach for that taste
so I still couldn't give you that pitcher

But as unprepared as I could be
you demanded my pitcher
and I poured everything in your cup..

I wasn't sure if I didn't have enough
to fill your cup, or that your cup wasn't ready
to take in all that it contains....
Maybe, your cup was too small or
There was too much in my pitcher

Some worry that someday
The one we love will
stop holding our hand
or stop talking to us
stop being lovers or
at the least, friends
maybe a slap on the cheek
a fight here and there
or stuff thrown everywhere
but my most worrying thought
is that I'm afraid that one day
maybe today..
she'll forget my name
forget my existence

I cower at the thought
that one day
maybe today..
she'll never
remember I exist

She says she saw raindrops
She saw them fall today
haha, she always has
a new story to tell.. and today
today was about raindrops

You'd see her eyes light up when
she tells a new story.
It's makes you wish you were a part of it
cause at times, her stories are not enough
words can only go so far
Though, sometimes you'd think if
the stories were for you to listen
It's like you were eavesdropping..
And yet her words were directed to you
Her words, though sweet, sound so distant

She told me that day that she saw raindrops..
and she told me that she made some.
and all I could do was listen

If "love" hurts and "love" gives pain,
wouldn't love have no right to be called love?
Because if love is what we see as something good,
then, love with pain and hurting shouldn't be love!?
unless pain and hurting becomes a good thing?*
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That was once a thought I had as a child, but as I grew
older, I thought... maybe it hurts because the love of others
contradicts our own. We both preach the same kind of love
and yet show it differently, and apparently it shows us
that love is the same, and yet it varies...
From religion to culture, From ideas to perspective
From physical to spiritual to emotional
The scary thing now is... when does love become love?
For religion and culture varies
For ideas and perspective varies
When does love become love when love contradicts?
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Love is.. a beautiful and scary thing

Seeing you today was like
the weather at this moment.
The sun was shining, but
rained poured lightly from
the sky above.. and I never
expected the rain to fall
while the sun was bright*

- G.f.S.

I walked through airport halls
walked through the smokey streets
Talked to unfamiliar people
with an unfamiliar language
and never have seen such wonder
all around. You should have
seen how the world is.
At this edge of the world, where city
lights shine brighter than the stars and
buildings rise higher than mountains,
you'd wonder at the foundations of
humanity. For their world revolved on
clocks and trains and life without slumber.

You'd wonder at them for their unfamiliar
language, and they laugh with you for
the mutual misunderstanding. They bring
excitement and mystery, for you
both are tested for your communicational prowess. If you are lucky enough to not look like one of them, they may try to speak a common language.

So when you travel to the land of HK, don't forget to have fun.. and let them
surprise you.

I have made many mistakes
From the moment I was born
I have made many mistakes.
For my soul has taken a body
with a weak heart and terrible
lungs, and yet yearns to live and
fight for life.
I have definitely made a mistake*

I have made many mistakes
From the moment my mind formed,
I have made a mistake. For my
heart has loved science and medicine
And yet my ears have attuned to music
and hands to play on strings. I
become torn between two beautiful
things.
i have definitely made a mistake

I have made a mistake
From the moment I started learning,
I made a mistake. For every moment
I existed in the hallways, I was broken.
For the other children ridiculed and laughed at me for being a strange and odd
being. From 4'5 to 5'11, I regretted living
I have made a mistake

But you..
You saw my mistakes as a blessing when
I was too blind to see what they should
be to me. You made my mistakes a good
part of me. You made my mistakes a blessing.

I have made a mistake
For I have seen them as mistake
*that was my biggest mistake

Tachycardia*
that was the first thought
I had when I first felt your
heartbeat. Your heart seemed
weak and yet your eyes
gleamed. I admire that.

You smiled at the face of
death and anger, and yet your
heartbeat sounded weak.
You're a strong one, I thought
for not many can smile at
the dark moments in their
life. I admire that.

You should see yourself
for what you really are,
and not some persona
closed in a facet of lies.
You are not just a star that
shines in the dark.
You are the sun that gives
life with light.

You say I'm strong?
You should see yourself.

Every moment was like a dream, a memory.
Memories of odes, ballads with allegory
Every random smile, Every warm touch
Every single tear that was felt too much
Moments that we were happy, sad, and crazy
Were more than just consuetudinary.
To others, these days, these moments may seem ordinary
But to me, I held them sentimentally
These memories, I held tightly
Made me feel more uneasy
It'd remind me that we are to separate
And it'd bring me to a more depressing state
But these memories where I see you smiling
Make me want to stop crying
With each memory that flashes in my head
Make me smile more and more instead
So I hope you'd be happy wherever you are
It's not like you'd be gone and be so far
I'lll be there whenever you need me
Let's see each other sometime, maybe for tea?

She once told me
"Your hugs are nice,
I like your hugs"
She probably doesn't
Know why...
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She's a strange one
cause she holds me.
She acts around on her
own, a klutzy one she is.
She sometimes
acts on impulse, and
can be hard headed at
times. You may say that
I've fallen strangely, but
you probably don't
know her story.

Sometimes, her smile never
seemed real to me. All I ever
saw was a mask. She smiles
with her lips, but her eyes have
seen pain. And maybe, if I have
never been this way, maybe I've
never fallen.

Her smile, I wish
I could see it genuinely.
At that one moment where she
Is truly and completely happy.
I wish I could be there to see it
I wish I could be there to be it

I honestly don't know what I could
do for her, so I make the best of what
I got... So I make my hugs the best
she'll ever get, cause that's what I could offer.

It all started with a nickname really, a pet name that only you called me. It's amazing how it was three words long, and yet you opt to say it completely. Others called me different, but strangely you called me special. The name ticked and clicked with ease. Maybe, it's because it's you.

If you think about it,
Everyone you love
Is just a person brought
To you by the wind
A certain person brought
To you by circumstance
a single "random" happenstance
The world has so much to offer
That every person around
the earth could be greater
Than the one you love today
You love the person just because
he or she was just there
at that moment
at that happenstance
but wouldn't that mean that
By some strange occurrence,
By some strange force,
We were brought together
Like out of all the stars in the universe
It was the sun that gave life to earth
It might be random
Or maybe it's not
Sometimes, it's serendipity
sometimes, it's propinquity

At times, I wonder
If you still think about me
Since that night when
I told you everything..
everything that you
needed to know
and you told me that
It was once mutual
Do you remember?
Maybe, it didn't mean
anything or something
maybe, you didn't believe
me when I said what I said
Believe me when I say that
those words were
meant for you
words only for you
stories that only you know
believe me when I say that
I did not say a single lie
believe in what I said
And I hope you'd
remember it in time
but in case if you've forgotten
Or maybe it wasn't made clear
So here, I'll say it once again...
*I'm in love with you, dear.

I've roamed to the corners of the world.
And never have I seen a sunset more
compelling than the sunset back home.
Maybe, from where I'm standing now
None compares to the sunsets at Manila
Maybe, you'd know what I'm talking about
When I would someday show you why

Instead of where I stand, I wish I was there
With you by my side, watching our special
sunsets. Like the world was meant just for the two of us. As much as each sunset gleams, it shines with much fervor every moment we see it. Maybe, it's just an illusion, or maybe it's real. But the most wonderful sunsets are at home with you.

Everything was going according to plan
Highschool. Pre-Med. Med. Specialization.
Never in my wildest dreams did I think
That you would add up to this equation
Never did I think that things would end up
Like how it is at this moment.
You never were meant for this equation
And yet, you fit in so perfectly
I was expecting nothing, and yet.. You
Never did I think that you, once a variable, would become a constant. That you would succeed euler's number or the symbol for radians, pi, as important constants in my life, you're as important but as confusing as i.

I mean, at times you're really confusing me
like rationalizing the negative square root of 3, but it's simply, really how I thought it would be to make sense of irrationality. Things like this would make sense mathematically, but not in reality. In reality, you're more simple, yet oh-so filled with insanity. But it still boggles my mind, on how a lovely variable like you becomes a constant in my life.

I got some things I want to confess
From an awkward nerd to a beautiful countess
You're more confusing than the Higg's Boson
I understand more the positrons and electrons
You're more complex than a polysaccharide
"Understanding You" is no book my archive
Why can't our relationship be a mutualism
Rather than the one sided commensalism
Could we be close like the tibia and fibula?
So close like the aorta and vena cavas?
To be close, I could only hope
Like uranium 237 and uranium 238, inseparable isotopes
Whenever I see you, I get the "kilig" affixes
Like the sour taste of citru sinensis
I can't get enough of your wonderful smile
It's like the taste of pentahydroxyhexanal
You might think I'm in delirium
But my thoughts are in equilibrium
You're the only girl inside my cranium
And this love for you is more precious than *titanium

They walked under the stars, and constellations
And under galaxies, they danced
without a care
without restraint
As if they were the center of the universe

On the soil, they made memories
and the wind be their witness
of the feelings they shared
of the feelings they cherished

As each little finite moment occurs
each of their infinities come to light
despite the one second turned to minutes
then hours
relativity kept their time from moving

Their hearts come closer and closer
until the two entities become one
and at that very moment
they made the universe one

Every moment away from her, I have this frustration
Whenever she's away, I lose concentration
Whether she's off with her friends, or with another guy
I'm always scared when time would fly
Whenevery I see her, I would feel happy
But why would I suddenly be feeling ******?
Well, we were once always by each other's side
Whenever we had fun, we would take each other's ride
Why do I have such frustration?
Didn't we have some kind of connection?
I thought that we would be forever
But, oh... That's right. **We were never together

He* sees her today, anxious but with excitement
With a heart so ready, he waits for the right moment
He comes to her with a happy greeting
For it has been long since their last meeting
She seems him, and greets with a "Hi"
He was so happy, he literally could fly
He was so happy, but could not express
For his love was never confessed
A friend, she calls him. A close one at that
A best friend, a brother he was to her
He has been there for her, every moment before that
But with no knowledge of the love he offers
For years, he was trying for the right moment
But could not, because *another guy loves her
In fairness, the other guy was better, intelligent and street smart
Though, it bothers him why she doesn't like the guy as much
Why does she treat the guy as such?
As he loves her so
He can't, because the other guy loves her
He knew the other guy loves her
So, he let him go first, and he confessed
So now they're together, leaving him in the ice
Just because he was too nice.

Today, I entered an everyday hell
The Nightmares and noise were more than I could tell
Peace and silence were never there
And every war was never fair
I saw nothing right,
and everything was just blight.
I could not see any blessed light
for peace was never there to fight
But amidst the angry mobs
and everyone that sobs
Beyond the corruption
And every destruction,
An angel appears before me
And takes my breathe completely
As I continued on with the difficult trials
She comforted me with single smile
The angel then lifted my soul
From this hell full of rotten coal
She brought my heart in the right place
Where everything was going in a  comfortable pace.
But the angel disappears and hell begins again
It seems that I still have things to amend.
Today, I entered an everyday hell*
But I won't worry, everything's swell
Cause I'll hold my head up high
For again, I'll be able to see her smile.

How in love with you am I?
Really, I sometimes question why.
Well, I'm not sure on how much I do
But I sorta have some kind of clue
For starters, I can't stop thinking about you
A thought of you is never overdue
When I hear music, I remember you
Cause I sometimes think it's your kind of tune
When I see flowers on the streetside
I have this urge to have you by my side
When our hands would simply touch
It made me want to hold your hand so much
Every word you say I can still remember
Like me and the lyrics of the song "September"
Oh how much I want to give you a hug
But I'm afraid that you might give me a smug
You're one of the only people I can trust
It's like having you around is a big must
So.. I'm not so sure these feelings kept in a cluster
Are more that what a normal man can muster
So If you ask me how in love am I with you
I might probably say.. "I don't know. I just do"

I'm sorry if things would come out so wrong
It's just that I've loved you for oh so very long
I don't know how I should interact
Or how I should come to react
I'd stutter like I'm a big dork
I make worse conversations than that of a fork
But it's because I'm just charmed by your smile
I guess it's my way to stay with you for a while
I keep my distance, not because I want a good bye
But it's just that.. Well.. I'm way to shy
I get all shaky when our shoulders would touch
It's probably because I've longed for that so much
You must know what you do to me when our hands would simply touch
If happiness were a grading system, I'd be at the top notch
So please don't be weirded out by how I am
I'm trying to be normal with the best that I can
I'm awkward, shy but oh so very kind
and *you're the only girl who's in my mind

the stars aren't enough to count the number of times
I've lost my mind thinking about you

Love
looked like
a short girl
She has
pale white skin
With
Dark almond eyes
and soft wavy hair
And every time
she'd smile
You'd see her
face shine
Like the sun
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Love
looks like
a girl that
Often stares
out the
Window or
the blank space
Seeing only
her thoughts
come to life
Watching the
World become
her *playground
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Love
looked lost
on the streets
While immersed
in that world
Trying to find
her every step
Without tripping,
without falling
,she waltzes
through rugged
streets finding
Safety and security
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Love
looked like
an angel
Asleep or awake
She'd smile like it
But never
claimed to
be one
and no matter
how much you
Try to convince
Her, she'll never
ever
Believe you
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Love
is the one
that cares
Hugs and pats
you on the head
Comforts and cheers
you up with
the best that
she can
and with even
her mere presence
and soft "hello"
you'd feel ecstatic
and would
burst with joy
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Love
is what I see
in that girl
even when she
doesn't see it
herself
She'll make you
believe that
you don't
But all the more
you will see
love
in her
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Love never really
sunk in your
Beautiful skull and
I never made
It clear to
You
I love you
And I will
Make sure that
You will feel
What love is

Love is never
Meant to make
Us only happy
Love meant to
Allow us to
Feel
All the feelings
We were meant
To feel and
To show what
Good really was

Love, I only
Meant to show
You how much
I love you
And only you
You
Attribute to my
Smile and I'll
batter your beautiful
Skull til you
Understand that I

I love you

I cannot fathom
Or dare to
Understand what makes
Me in love
With you but
Love
I will fathom
And dare to
Make you understand
That here in
The great now

I love you

We are all stars with people's names
Stars that bring life to a single earth
We fail to realize that we have a light
That could both heal and burn
But in one arbitrary moment
In a single random happenstance
We see that in being a light
Is what makes earth have *life

It was on the grass that I made the most
fond memories with you. Times that we'd sit and talk, play, and enjoy each other's company. It's a marvel on how each memory was embedded in each blade of grass. Maybe, that's why there are fields and fields of them. Because for every blade of grass, was a fond memory of you.

Out of all the living things that are alive on this planet, I believe that the true witnesses of love were the trees that root the earth. In the history of the world, you will always see one growing tall and strong. And if you don't see one growing, then you'd find yourself unwitnessed of your love. For in the trees were carvings of every movement of the wind, sun and rain. Markings of wars that fought for love, and names of people who fought with love. The trees were there to witness love through the air, for every moment the air becomes wind was a moment that love was being felt. Maybe, when we cut a tree, maybe we should first think of the love it witnessed. For every tree that's cut, believe that it once saw and felt love. Whether it was plant or animal, human or God. It was there to witness love.

I could only tell you
What makes me love
makes my love
have an end
but I could never
Tell when
Or how
It will end.
Maybe it will
Maybe it won't
But one thing
Is definite
And truly certain
I love you now
And in the now
I love you