I bloom like a mallow in the morning

I bloom dripping blood like dew

I bloom in the dark of the night

I bloom catching prey like a trap

I bloom waiting for the next

I bloom salivating for more

I bloom with gnashing teeth

I bloom waiting and waiting

I bloom with a grin

I bloom when prey comes near

A constant tug of war
War raging on in my head
My wings clipped
So I may lie on the ground
Worthless and abandoned
I carve my skin ease the pain
The pain of being alive
But every day the pain gets worse
I want to end it all
My suffering and toil
But I am a coward
Too afraid to do it
But I cannot continue
With a war raging on in my head
The voices telling me to die
The blood pouring from my wrists
The pain ebbing away
Warm black wings carry me away
To a new horizon
Away from this life I hate

She comes to me in my dreams
Looking into the darkest corners of my mind
Weaving madness into me
Whispering sweet lies in the darkness
She leaves at the dawn
And begins her ungodly rituals
Deep in the ebony black of the woods
Waiting for the dusk to return
So she can capture the young
To use their blood to summon horrors
May God save us all
For we are falling deeper into her web

Her love is intense
Like a raging inferno
Her whispers leave smoke in my mind
I am hers, entangled in a web
She is perfect
Everything I could want
It's too late
For I realize
I am caught in the Jurogumo's web
to be feasted upon

In this world
Without a light
I spiral continuously
Forever in the depths of despair
Until the day I die
The shadow over my mind
Never to be lifted
Forever in agony
Just want to end it all
To not be in this hollow shell I call a body
Devoid of emotions
I spiral continuously
Forever in the depths of my hell

Thirsting for flesh
It comes at night
Insatiable hunger
It comes at night
Unstoppable rage
It comes at night
Burning hatred
It comes at night
Waiting for you
It comes at night
Running you down
It comes at night
Feasting on your carcass
It comes at night
Crunching on your bones
It comes at night
Drinking your blood
It comes at night
Driven by unending pain
It comes at night

Don't move
Don't breathe
Don't move
Don't breathe
It will see me
It will hear me
It will end me
It will feast on me
In these untamed wilds
Alone and afraid
No saving grace
I should accept my fate
And run

As the new year comes
Maybe today I'll end the pain
Maybe today I'll fade away
Maybe today I won't wake up
Maybe today I won't be unhappy
Maybe today I'll allow my sun to set
Maybe today I'll become nothing
Maybe today I'll disappear
Like the stars in the dawn

Felling rusty  crusty spoons
And nettles upon my *******
I speak to my cohort
Hubert cumberdale
It's almost ******* I say

New surroundings
New people
New life
New home
Spinning world
Holding onto hope
That I can cope
Not to fall into old habits
And not to despair

I pray for release
For blackened wings to carry me away
Envelope me and make me fade
So the pain will stop
So I can rest
The sun is getting low
Shining its final beautiful rays
Orange, purple, yellow, and red
Day gives way to the night
Blue to orange
and orange to black
And as I fade
The black envelopes me
And takes me away from this world

Shhhhhhhh
Here I come
In through the front door
I came to see you
Through the halls, I creep just to be near you
Into the kitchen, I go
To see if you're there
Next to the bathroom
But you're not there
Then to the bedroom, I come
And here you are
resting so peacefully
and guess what
I brought a knife
with your name on it
Shhhhhhhhh
I'll be done before the morn

The world is full of broken people
They wear masks that stay on
Permanently glued to their faces
They crack and wear
Showing the true monster under
This true beast is to be feared
For it is the dark side of man
It rips the mask off
And shows the true colors of man
Every person has this beast
And every beast wants out

Into the water, I go
Bone-chilling and empty
Deep and dark showing no end
Here I float alone
Forever alone
the light of the surface dies before it reaches to me
In this water, I freeze
and here I stay

Muffled
Silent
Quiet as a funeral
But there is a beauty in the silence
To drift away with the cold winter air
I could stay out here forever
To join the silence of the snow
The peace is new
And sadly never permanent

Here I stand
Upon the precipice of something
In a dream I see it
the cold and unending
the void
gray and bleak
A voice tells me
No man should be here
That there are no stars
For there is no sky
I find solace in this place
There is no life
No death
only being
as time has no meaning here
I close my eyes
and the silence envelopes me
Like when snow blankets the ground
And muffles the sound of life
Here I'll stay
Till I fade away

Bored, bored, bored
Wanting to sleep
But I'm not actually tired
Done with classes
But not done with homework
I wanna go home
But I can't

I am passed by
Looked through
Ignored
I am invisible
I am a ghost in this world
My wish is to be seen
To have someone notice me
To not be alone in this world
But alas I am unseen
and will be until the end of my days

You put whispers in my heart
Empty promises
I am eaten up by them
Consumed
Until there is nothing left of me

My wings ripped off
Bound to the ground
Crying out to the dark for help
Only echoes of my voice answer
You removed your wings
And gave them to me
Allowing me to fly
While you stay on the ground
And waste away to ash