There is something brilliant hidden under the words you say when you're mad.

When you say "I"... You say it was such conviction! Such passion is in that one letter making it know that YOU are serious.
When you say "don't" you start to lose that edge and I can hear you shaking under your breath... Not as convincing here.
When you say "love"... I hear pain. Nothing but sad, unnerving pain. I almost can't handle it.
When you say "you"... I can't tell if you are talking to me or yourself. You have at this point lost me on whether you're serious or not..
When you say "anymore"... This is when I have officially stopping believing anything you say. You've at this point started looking at your shoes as though they know the answer.

And when you say "I don't love you anymore"... Then I would have to assume you probably don't love me anymore.

If I could tell you one thing I Would tell you to live young, wild and free.
You're going to make mistakes.
You're going to get in trouble and feel awful when you get caught.
You're probably going to lie even if you don't really want to.
There are days you're going to want to just give up on life and that's okay.

If I could tell you one thing, I would tell you to love the way the moon loves the sun.
Find someone who loves you unconditionally.
Someone who will never change you.
Learn to let things go.
Learn to be forgiving even when you want to punish someone so bad it's all you think about.
Because there are days you're going to want to fight just to feel alive!

If I could tell you one thing, I would tell you to always be yourself.
It's unique.
It's truthful.
Because there really is only one you & some days you might not like you anymore.
And someday you might love yourself more than anyone else!

If I could tell you one thing, I would tell you to be honest.
Be honest with people who care for you.
Be honest with yourself.
Be honest to the person who will break your heart.
Because honesty always win in the end.

If I could tell you one thing, I would tell you to dance.
Dance like you're floating along the Milky Way.
Dance like it's the last time you're going to be alive.
Dance to music no one but you can hear.
Because sometimes, making a fool of yourself is the only way to laugh the bad stuff away.

And if this is the last thing you ever hear from me... I would tell you that I love you.
I love who you are even if you don't.
I love the smile on your face and how you light up.
I love the look in your eyes when no ones looking.
And even though only you can make yourself happy, just know,
I love you.

There wasn't much left to do but drink the night away; just me and this bottle of ***.

I seemed to have blurred the lines from being 18 and happy to 22 and ready to drink myself to death.

I am not sure how I got here, maybe years of hiding sadness, who knows really?

I raced to the bottle looking for a familiar face, a familiar place, but I found just liquid courage.
I can't remember the last time my pants fit the right way, always too big, sometimes too small.
They said I look different. My eyes a little more red, my hair a little less clean.
I raced to the edge of the hilltop looking for a familiar face, a familiar place, but found only suicidal memories.
I can't remember the last time I cried this hard. Always thinking about the past and how many mistakes I've made instead of how far I've come.
They said I act different. A little more sad, a little less happy.
I raced to the bottle looking for a familiar face, a familiar place, and found the emptiness I felt inside.

When all is said and done you'll be nothing more than a shorting star-
Your memory will be faint with the recognition that I once knew you-
Your light will have faded and you'll be one with the darkness that fills you-
When all is said and done you may be able to call me names and fill my soul with sadness but you'll never break my spirit-
I am one with the distant sunsets and the way the clouds look different in another state-
I am one with the way your eyes open wide with fear of love as you say my name-
You are the downfall to my kingdom to come and you were my cottage past-
You are the negative energy keeping me halted along the path to happiness-
But when all is said and done you'll be nothing more than a shooting star-