Tell me that it's love that i'm feeling.
if it's not I fear my heart can't take much more.
I can't take my eyes off you,
yet i know the reason I won't leave is in your eyes.

I know it's love that I'm feeling,
even though we haven't been together in so long.
Your eyes still sparkle the same,
like watching a meteor shower

I'm caught in awe.

I swear you've never looked so good
so much better than anyone should,
after they tore away my heart.
I can't take my eyes away from you still.

If I survive another night,
I know that I can get over you.
I once had that lovin' feeling from you,
but now I'm gone still dreaming...

still dreaming of those meteor showers.

With every breath my heart hurts
i'm the queen of disappointment.
people build me to bring me down
only to be disappointed again.

I let people into my heart,
one that feels love for another.
When they walk away the hurt is numb
and i'm left cold and empty in pain.

they say its not you its me,
that's always what they say.
paranoia builds more each lie,
but what's wrong with me anyway?

Nobody stays to tell me.

Days went by where electricity flies,
he makes my heart grow weak.
ping. ping. Constant response.
How bad could he be?

Date 1, my nerves are chilling.
How am I going to trust him?
Been hurt so deeply times before,
guard's kept up real high.

He's awkward and cute,
a little bit shy.
but he's got that charm.
Makes me swoon real deep.

Lunch was had, bowling after
competitive nature rose.
he hugged from behind and there it was.
Butterflies.

Date 2, at his home.
pizza, movies and cuddling.
This boy is sweet, kind, tender.
But i'm still on the fence to trust him.

I go to leave at the end of the night,
he stops me in my tracks.
His lips to mine, full of desire
I think i'm in trouble now.

He introduces me to his friends,
he's told them so much about me.
i heard his feelings were strong and true
I could barely hold my excitement.

That just maybe.

A month goes by, abnormal for me,
spent the night at his place.
passion, emotions, high not dry
I gave myself over. Hesitantly.

the next day i make my way home
there's a message on my phone
"i'm sorry i'm just not ready for this,
But you're great just know that"

My heart now crushed and on the floor,
I knew i shouldn't have trusted.
I feel so empty and dead inside,
He played and broke my emotions.

And once again i'm alone.

Let Love be gone, wave goodbye
it's not what you wanted.
with solemn regret you made your bed,
and prepare to lie in the bushes.

A thorn stabbed your precious heart.
I can see it bleed.
tormented feelings once stored away,
they're forced a verbal debut.
Tears are cried about things you would change
but you knew it'd be the same.

Let Love pass you by complete surprise
it's not how it's supposed to happen.
open up and bleed me dry,
That's how you're making them feel.

closed up walls cemented with angst,
your heart feels so numb.
so impervious to loving breath,
you're a beautiful disaster.
They trusted you, believed in you still.
and you choked, you threw it away.

Let love become hate, it's the only way,
It's something you never wanted.
But it's probably best they stay away,
You're no good to anybody.

Building walls to break them down
but sometimes they're forced.
find a penny, pick it up
and all day long you'll have good luck
unless you won't..

3 is the number of shatters i hear
all within different times.
if only pieces i picked were like that penny,
I could really use some luck.

Rivers bound around the pores,
slopes below the cheek.
waterfalls placed at the chin
where it pools onto my skin.

Kindness I have too much of
It's slowly becoming fault
advantage taken where feelings are broken
my walls come crumbling down.

I should have learned my lesson now
it's only happened twice before
I guess I'll know better now
and keep my feelings to myself.

Pain thumps loud and hard.
i can barely breathe.
Instead of lucky pennies,
i've only got shattered glass instead.

Death is too common,
it floats around me.
with family and friends,
so many near misses too.
It haunts me.

People with strokes
wrapped my car to a tree
Cancer
Pnuemonia
Pleurisy too.

Attempted suicide
make that times 2.

Ketoacidosis
overdose
some of old age
someone nearly lost a hand
oh, and my dog died too.

Yet somehow i'm selfish,
because I ran from you.

My heart bleeds with every thought,
for every person i've ever lost
including you.
but i won't play a villain,
i'm protecting myself

so yes i ran.

Because death haunts me.
And i won't have you in that vision of death too.

Two bears lie on my arm.
They show my mother and me.
The love for her is permanent,
It's tattooed on my skin.

A whale sits on my foot.
It has no loving feeling.
It's a funny little story,
Impulse control got the best of me.
so now that sad whale,
is tattooed to my skin.

Little croc, he rides my shoulder
He's holding a balloon.
First piece in colour, but i need more
tattoo 3 is a permaddition to my skin.

My next piece will ride my side.
the story is a little sadder,
Traditional style in blacks and blues,
An iceberg to show my secrets.
An iceberg to show pain and sorrow,
Hidden deep below.
That tattoo inspires,
to make me wanna be better.
So I think it's a fine addition,
A new tattoo to add to my skin.