I have never stayed happy this long
I have never loved myself this long

And I thought you were gone
But you were waiting for my peak

You knew me so well
And that i'd question myself

Do i deserve all these good times?

Why is this boy acting like I'm interested?
Persistent like I'm playing hard to get
I'm happily in love, I'm committed
Does this boy thinks he is actually a threat?
He has someone and still wants another
She's a keeper, when its over, he'll regret
No thank you, not a chance, goodbye lover
Bid you adieu, cant take this girl into your bed

Cataracts.
What blinds you?

What blinds me?
Society.

Chipped and chiseled
By judgement
By opinion
By jealousy
By hate

Who am I?
I am broken
I am lost
I was stolen
I am gone

What is left?
A shell
Empty and loud
Filled with confusion
depression now

Think positive
Don't listen
Ignore

No.

Become society
Change it
Stop it
Enough
Love

It's a hot summers day
Sweat drips down our necks
We fall on the bed
And quickly our eyes connect

We see each others love
It's so pure and so real
We don't need words
To describe how we feel

.

How do you stop tears from falling
When you know it's enough

How do you stop all the sobbing
When it explodes in a loud cough

How do you keep pretending
When your whole world comes to a stop

How am I still living
When my heart's in a knot

Its a consuming pain
At the chest

It comes in slowly
Establishing its arrival

Then it radiates in jolt

Up the neck and rattles the teeth
Down the arm
Tickling it's skin

No where near funny
It's like falling into am abyss

Every call, every message
I'd wish it was you

Every tap, every blur
I'd wish it was you

Every warmth, every touch
I'd wish it was you

Every voice, every shadow
I'd wish it was you

Every call of my name
I still wish it was you.

I crave for an understanding
Of what I'm about do

It doesn't seem to go away
It's a sadness that sticks
around

You think it's gone
It's just at bay
It crawls back up
without a sound

I caught your eyes
Set on me
I saw them twinkle
I saw what you could see

I began to feel
What you could see
I felt so beautiful
I could do anything

I felt so precious
The most treasured gem
Had mighty importance
every hair strand

Oh that twinkle in your eyes
It gave me so much
I felt I was your life.

I like my potatoes
Any way they are cooked
Hashbrowns or French fries
Plain boiled and salted
Mash potatoes
Potato salad
With golden butter on top
Spicy wedges or chips
I'd even eat it without dip
Too much isn't good
But I give in to pleasure
The possibilities to have potatoes
Are just an endless measure

We are born
Put into school
Subjected to follow particular norms
Educated to get employment
Work to earn an income
Spend for our wants
Work to earn an income
Spend for our needs and wants
Marry and start a family
Bear children and begin their cycle
Work to earn an income
Spend for our needs and their wants
Work to earn an income
Save for their future
Spend for our needs and their wants
Grow old and alone with the spouse
Retire
Rest in peace
Reincarnation
We are born

Next month will mark 3 years
Of my long and wasted love
I fight my tears
of joy, prayers answered from above

I am not completely invisible
to you, as i thought
And yet you are still unaware
Of the heart you have caught

I remember my first sight
of you, sitting in my form
And your ****** expression  
When your uniform got torn

I remember your introduction
Your shy lowered eyes
And the quiver of your voice
Getting words out after so many tries

Now I smile out of the blue
Over our shy meetings
But you still have no clue
About me or my true feelings

When will you understand
I'll do all that I can
For my long and wasted love
I'll be content with just a friend

I sit here and I ponder
Over what the future will bring
The little time left with you
Before I'll only see you in a dream

My heart and my mind
Continue to be unsettled
I feel so restless and haggard
Like I'm fighting a battle

You have flooded my thoughts
Everyday, every night
You've turn into my light
You've brighten up my life

I have nothing to offer
No beauty or skill
All I have is my heart
What I think, what I feel

Afraid of your rejection
Afraid of your "okay"
Afraid that you will hate me
Afraid you'll turn away

Afraid that you would read this
And then you would say
"why would you write this poem?
It's embarrassing, okay?"

This is me extending a hand
Reaching out
And these words on this paper
Is me screaming out

Oh long and wasted love
I've like you a long time
It's been a secret all this while
Until my bestfriend  read my mind

I've already accepted
That nothing will happen
A thing with me and you
Is too good to imagine

Tell you this, tell you once
Make it my crime
You'll have a place in my heart
Till the end of time

Oh shy boy
If only you knew
How madly and deeply
I've fallen for you.