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Dec 2015 · 2.0k
Just Pleaseeeeee
Paramount Pawn Dec 2015
Mondays should never be used for exams.
You get distracted
By the so many things in life that makes you want to jump out of your seat and ***** studying.
Dec 2015 · 345
Love & Loss
Paramount Pawn Dec 2015
Sadness is present
But tears won't come out
I stay cooped on my bed
But doing so won't fix anything
It's over

I've been warned
That love always ends painfully
Even if you grow old together
One of you leaves first
Or the loss you gained after the death of a loved one
It's all losing something

A part of your heart would tear any moment
This vacant space
It feels so weird without anyone in it
Why did you go
Why did we even make promises
Dec 2015 · 252
Untitled
Paramount Pawn Dec 2015
I am lost in the dark
Nowhere to be found
My heart is beating
But my breathing shallow
When can I be taken away
When light does not exist in here
What should I do
I am through
Nov 2015 · 242
❤❤
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
Even if we love each other
We say goodbye
Love is a lie
We can't stay happy forever
We've been brought into this painful journey together
But one of us is left behind
Love is a joke
It's full of nonsense
Nov 2015 · 232
It's love...
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
Do whatever you want.
It's my heart anyway.
Nov 2015 · 629
Happily Ever After
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
I have a prince
She has a prince
My prince was captured by her charms
My tower stood low compared to hers
It shaded over mine
I'm left alone inside this tower
I don't even care about such fairy-tale anymore
But will I ever find my happily ever after?
Nov 2015 · 1.4k
Royalty With Him
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
"You are my princess."
, he said to me.
"But one day, there'll be another princess because you'll be the queen."
Nov 2015 · 698
Can I trust you?
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
You disappeared so soon.
I knew you were going but I wasn't prepared.
I cried on my knees.
Memories of us flashed in my mind.
You left me a voicemail.
That would've been the last time I heard your voice.
But, now you're here.
You're back with that silly smile.
I run to you and hold you tight.
And I say it now.
I love you.
Don't leave me again.
Can I trust you with that?
Nov 2015 · 302
Smile
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
I smile when I'm happy.
  Most people would.
But,
I also smile when I'm sad.
"Why of all silly things did this happen?"
When I'm embarrassed.
"Oh God, everybody's laughing. Okay, just laugh with them. Haha."
When I'm angry.
"You don't know what's gonna happen to you, *****."
When I feel lonely.
"Where are people when I actually need them?"
When I just don't know what to do in life.
I smile a lot.
So I don't think people could tell.
I'm not one to express something in the right way.
i dont really know   :/

but i frown when im not feeling anything tho...
Nov 2015 · 362
why indeed?
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
[What do you mean?
I hardly say a word.
Jesus Christ, stop bothering me.
I know!
I know.
I know I'm such a gloomy chum.
I know I hardly look like I'm enjoying.
I know that I'm forcing myself to blend in with people. But,
when I do that, nothing comes out of it.
I'm still the gloomy one you know. Everyone knows.
I never asked my self to be lonely.
I never chose to be.
I wonder too why I'm so quiet.
Like, what the ****, I'm loud in my mind.
Why is the question frequently asked.
So why can't I answer myself?]**

These are the words I want to say, but forget the second they ask "why".
(。・・。)(´・_・`)(;´@へ@`)
Nov 2015 · 436
What are we supposed to do
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
You *******. I never really understood you. You have to make an argument every single time we talk. I hate it. Stop pushing things that aren't even related. Like, why do I have to go through with your crap? I never really done anything to make you mad. If I did, tell me what it is. 'Cause that will be our way to clear everything. I want to understand. You. You are someone I want to figure out. You don't have a formula or maybe a  riddle I need to solve. But you're just a mystery. A mystery I can be proud of solving. Just get on with it. Let's go our separate ways. What are we supposed to do? We do this all the time, right? Let's both forgive and forget each other. This will all be part of our hidden past. Forget the times we actually smiled at each other. Forget the times we confronted each other. Forget the times we held hands. Forget the times we ignored each other. Forget the times we were in love. "Forget","Each other", that's all I'm saying now. Maybe we weren't in love. We must have thought we're just comfortable with each other. We could've stayed strangers if it weren't for our lonely hearts. I love you, ******* it. No need to wish on a star. I got you. But a star could've helped if I wished  we both knew how to actually love. We just thought of it as a concept.Now we know how it feels. And how much pain we gain through it. Now, what's this? You say you love me too.
Then, we go back square one again.
(*´罒`*)
Nov 2015 · 307
Psychotic
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
Never mind the world
Never mind my life
I've lost it
I've completely lost my self now
Oh I'll live without a care
I'll live seeing the dark skies
There is no sun dawning tomorrow for me
Welcome to my own misery
Nov 2015 · 228
Untitled
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
To receive love
  it has no cost
But, sadly,
  it can be lost.
The pain of losing someone,
  can even be something,
  has that bitter feeling hanging on.
Hearts come spilling over.
Emptiness is what's left of that spot.
But later, it will get filled.
Because love comes to you
  when you least expect it to.
Nov 2015 · 3.1k
self-loathing
Paramount Pawn Nov 2015
That day I realized something obvious.
Something obvious but something I have neglected.
****
I use distractions as ways to feel fine.
But reality hits you,
   it hits you hard.
You think you could get by easily
  but getting to the point of people asking why.
Why are you like this.
Why are you like that.

God, shut up.
I don't want to hear anymore.
I also ask myself why.
I didn't want to be like this. I never asked for gray clouds to cover the skies above me.
But, well, **** that. My mind's ****** up.
Heavens didn't like this either.
I'm not a failure but neither am I a success.
I lost my self in this loathing zone. Such a pity but ******* ******. Sigh.
God, I hate myself.
dem curse words...  (๑•́ㅿ•̀๑) ᔆᵒʳʳᵞ
Oct 2015 · 767
Masquerade
Paramount Pawn Oct 2015
Let us dance in this ball
Keep moving like dolls
Playing false confidence
Masks in dominance
No one sees the truth
Sincerity can not be found by sleuths
This dance is for plastics
Not what you'd call fantastic
Oct 2015 · 284
Bitterly Loved
Paramount Pawn Oct 2015
The time we finally got closer,
But how come our distance only came further?
The bitterness I feel about you,
  Why must you push me far?
I thought we finally had a bond that ties us by fate.
But misunderstandings and problems just get in our way.
I loved you for who you are.
But I guess knowing you wasn't enough.
Take me out of this void you created.
You're the reason for the pain I feel when I can't even explain it.
Oct 2015 · 235
Tell me about Love
Paramount Pawn Oct 2015
Feelings I kept locked.
Knowing they'll only hurt others,
But being oblivious to what love really is.
I hope to find whatever it is,
And that would be true love indeed.
Like a gentle touch of hands, the warmth of embraces,
Or the feeling of soft lips brought together.
I beg to know what my heart is beating for,
And why I feel so high without even doing anything.
Teach me ways to catch your heart
So that I can finally feel that hundred percent of your love.
Oct 2015 · 207
Untitled
Paramount Pawn Oct 2015
My love has gone too far, too far.
His back can not be seen no more
And my eyes look beyond and see nothing.
The heart, it longs for this love.
Oh, love, my love, what have you done?
Sep 2015 · 258
Spelling
Paramount Pawn Sep 2015
There are easy words.
There are difficult words.
But then again,
It's easy to spell love.

Love, L-O-V-E.
It's a simple four letter word.
But how come the definition isn't all that easy.
You know it's a feeling.
But we don't know how to explain that feeling.
Because it all depends on those who feel it.
Sep 2015 · 1.2k
Plugged Earphones
Paramount Pawn Sep 2015
The sound of music coming through
And all the thoughts that seems to be
I listen to every word
Happiness. Sadness. Anger.
All these emotions coming through

But sometimes there is no sound
No thoughts coming in
No anything at all
Just silence
Maybe that silence resembles loneliness
Or maybe sadness
Because hearing no sound just is another way of not bothering
'Cause everything already feels like a bother to you
Sep 2015 · 328
Bookworms
Paramount Pawn Sep 2015
Do you like books?
  Well, I do, too.
I don't really get it when people say they love the smell.
And, most of the time, I just get ones with good covers.
Like,
  Books are hella expensive.
And I got both pockets out with no cash.
But I still decide to buy it later.
Because reading is fun.
Makes me feel so comfy.
And keeps me in my calm state.
Whenever im reading thats the only time i probably look sane
Sep 2015 · 733
Live
Paramount Pawn Sep 2015
Enjoy the beautiful moments of your life
Leave all your regrets
And face reality with a smile
You're not alone
There are people to lean on
They'll be the cure for your heart
*You need to survive
im wondering if there are others who knows where i got this idea....
Sep 2015 · 358
Untitled
Paramount Pawn Sep 2015
A heartbreaker
You hate her
I'll face you
Like a wild wild beast so true

You *******
Blood plastered
No way you'll make another girl fall for you
There's no one in this world who'll do

Be gone
You're done
You're *******
Keep crawling like you should
Sep 2015 · 187
Here
Paramount Pawn Sep 2015
You've come your way to find me
You've come your way to love me
You came ten thousand miles just to search for me
I've missed you
I love you
Please just stay by my side
I'll try to be the reason of your smiles
Sep 2015 · 405
Sense of Needing You
Paramount Pawn Sep 2015
The feeling of longing for
But knowing that just reasons
Aren't enough to admit
These feelings of mine
Cannot come clear
Your touch
Your gaze
Your smile
Your love
Your everything
I want to keep it
I need to have it
But you're just one step too far
Aug 2015 · 628
Dear Future Lover
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
So,
  I'm a girl who hates shopping.
I despise it. I get bored.
I'd rather look for food than for clothes.

I'm a girl who's really undecided.
So don't expect me to tell you what I want for my birthday
For Christmas
And for every other occasion like dates.

I'm a really weird person.
And I could say so many random things.
If you're that weird too,
I hope we're compatible.

I'm a really shy girl.
So please bear with me
That I can't take the approach always.

I'm one fragile person.
Tell me everything's all right
And that I should be fine.
Let me know you're  by my side.

Tell me if you love me.
Tell me if you hate me.
Make me yours only,
  and I would be in my happiest days.
Aug 2015 · 318
Psssshhh...
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
There are pretty people in this world
But why do we say we are ugly
We are ugly, fat losers
We're useless beings
But that's where we are wrong
Everybody's got potential at some part of this world
Maybe yourself being weird
  is a talent.
Everybody's just got pessimistic these days
That's why we can think of our dark futures
Rather than our bright ones
And everything's about being so down
Like,
  why start thinking 'bout being depressed?
You're the one who's up to making feelings like that
Aug 2015 · 875
Paranoid Little Sh*t I Am
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
Crime scene near the house
Police rushing to that place
Me locking every single door
Oh what else could I do
Grabbed every single thing that could be a weapon
Even things that aren't effective
Scared that these evil doers will come at my door
Countless thoughts keep coming at me
I'm seriously praying the rapture would come instead
Aug 2015 · 1.1k
Deciding
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
I'm always left undecided
But decisions are just too much for me to bear
I always feel like choosing the other
Will make me feel like regretting the other choice
Now people choose for me
But who am I to say I don't like it
Because with so much time passing
No one would want to waste it
Aug 2015 · 463
'Till death comes upon.
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
Death**

I wonder what it would feel like
I wonder how the dead felt before they died

"I want to die."
What foolishness am I to bear to say that

I love living
But in fact we're only living to die one day
And that one day should be a righteous end
Aug 2015 · 264
Untitled
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
There's a hole in my heart
Waiting to be filled
Just please don't fill it
With something like poison
Cause oh how I wish
You knew what this heart of stone really is
Aug 2015 · 2.3k
Rich kid...
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
I may be rich
But I'm not a *****
Stop pushing me in
To those like trash bins
Don't want to be judged
Or hold any grudge
Please hear me out
Before I pout
Aug 2015 · 425
A Love Poem
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
Why is it easy to make
But so hard to feel

Love is oh so powerful
That I have been warned
Of what may happen to this fragile heart of mine
And whatever my mind would do

I write upon a blank space
A rhyming composition
And give out all these feelings
The love that flows within me
And keeps me engaging to new things
But why do I feel so pained thinking about it
That the love that'll happen to me would be changing me to a different person
It may be because I think of a certain someone
Or I am just pessimistic about everything as usual
But at all times I know that

*Love is what moves the heart the most.
Aug 2015 · 420
Let's just stop.
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
He noticed me.**

And later we talk.
End up becoming comfortable,
And then comes my assumptions.
Not telling him,
These feelings of mine
   end up unrequited.
I thought there would be
But I'll just be lying to myself.
I keep up my usual act
And hide away the frown there should be.
Aug 2015 · 300
It's fine
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
It's true I am your friend
And I know that is just the end
Of what we should be
Instead of what we would be
There is no "would be" in us
'Cause in the end,
   there would be broken trust.
Aug 2015 · 375
Three Words
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
The words, "I love you,"
Only come when it's too late
Or at least
We choose to put it at the second
Instead of being true
To our hearts
Aug 2015 · 657
If only...
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
If only I was a bit thinner
If only I got a bit taller
If only I didn't have to wear glasses
If only I got nice clothes
If only I could put a bright smile on my face everyday

If only I have enough confidence in myself
To show you how much I can be
In front of you
Aug 2015 · 843
Incognito Moments
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
I always go incognito
But I still get scared though
That someone would creep behind
And then they would suddenly find
The things I wouldn't dare
It's too much for them to bear
The reality of this internet-freak
She wouldn't dare speak
As she is ashamed
For the lewd stuff that can be named
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
I like it when
We just turn up the music
And sing along
Even if we are tone deaf

I like it when
We just say the random-est of things
And just laugh about it

I like it when
We always had each other
And try to keep everyone put a smile on their face

I like it when
We just took the crap
Everybody's been talking about us
Because we really don't care

I liked those times
But now
What happened?
Aug 2015 · 348
Just a tease
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
It's not my fault
You looked at me
I never had anything to hide
And I don't have anything to share
But you seem to be tempted
And I can say
I want you too
But I think I'll tease you
And let you wait a bit longer
Rather than rushing time
Aug 2015 · 718
Ehem...
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
Don't be too obvious
Even your whisper could be heard
Don't be too obvious
Your glances could be caught
Don't be too obvious
You failed
And now he's looking into your eyes
And melting you inside
Aug 2015 · 364
Request
Paramount Pawn Aug 2015
I don't care about you anymore

More like I shouldn't care about you anymore
Because no mater how much I try to bear
It never brings me peace anyway

But my heart keeps beating too fast
And I can't control my emotions
I'd just like you to
Think about me every once in a while
Would you?
Jul 2015 · 727
Deadlines...
Paramount Pawn Jul 2015
I thought it was okay
For me to make it to the last minute
And there you were waiting for me
I took slow breaths before approaching you
But I felt too afraid to come
I backed out
The next day you were gone
I had no idea where you went
Maybe I do
And it's somewhere away from me
I smiled sadly at the decision I made
I should've come yesterday
I shouldn't have been afraid
I should've told you how I felt
You told me to go by then
And yet I failed to
I'll never be able for this again
I'm just a coward waiting for the consequences
Jul 2015 · 380
Was It
Paramount Pawn Jul 2015
Was it necessary
For me to be harsh to you?
Was it too much
When I already know you're hurting?
Was it painful
When I left that mark on your cheek?

Is it okay
For me to be sorry?
Because I know the way I treated you
Can never heal the wounds that surfaced onto you.
Jul 2015 · 1.9k
Crush
Paramount Pawn Jul 2015
Whenever I think of a crush
My mind makes an image of you
I don't even talk to you that much
And I hardly even bother to interact with you
But
Why is it you are the one I think about
Whenever I tell myself
I don't like anyone
Jul 2015 · 622
On the verge
Paramount Pawn Jul 2015
Run run run
Run fast fast fast
There's no one to hold you down
Run run run
Run fast fast fast
But time
Oh time can slow you down
Run run run
Run fast fast fast
It's too late
There's nothing you can do
Stop stop stop
There's no point in running now
For what you're living for
Has been crushed
Shatter shatter shatter
You can hear the pieces of your life breaking
No more time
No more life
And now
Bye bye bye
Jul 2015 · 352
To my:
Paramount Pawn Jul 2015
You were one of my best friends
Someone I cared for
Seeing you die today
Was a tragedy for me
I cried for hours
I can't hide the tears now
Even if you were the annoying one
You were the cutest
And the youngest
It struck me too hard
When I heard the news
I love you
Please rest in peace
。゚(*´□`)゚。
Jul 2015 · 376
Chance Encounter
Paramount Pawn Jul 2015
We met each other for the first time
We both fell at first sight
But that was it
Because that was where we  met our beginning
And our end
Jul 2015 · 558
The Last Piece
Paramount Pawn Jul 2015
It's there
We looked at each other
We both know what's gonna happen


THE LAST PIECE OF CHICKEN IN THE BUCKET

Our hands swiftly moved
Each reaching out like it's gonna disappear
Both of us dying to get it first
We even fought for it
Slapping the other hand

Alas
You got it
Mocking me even
I simply sighed and laughed
Telling you
"You clean up this mess."
You making that face
And me sticking out my tongue
i mean.... chicken.
Jul 2015 · 730
You
Paramount Pawn Jul 2015
You
You
And your squinty eyes
You
And your pretty smile
You
And your tall height
You
And your skin whiter than mine

All these things
Are what I physically like
About you
But you're more than that
That adds more thing about you
Do know that
I love you
Because you're
**YOU
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