She used to have so much Life is her eyes
but I guess it died, it left with her cries.

She used to fly light as a feather,
but now stormy is her only weather.

She used to play music and dance in the rain,
now she's stiff and numb with pain.

I remember that sweet little face,
please remember her name.

May she rest in peace.
Depression is to blame.

If poetry was a man

Id admit, im in love!

How at night I wish it was day
at day I wish to fade away
sleep forever at the beach
body floating alongside the bay

I wish to be unavailable
when my demons ask me to come out and play
people will claim to miss me
but that's what they are expected to say

tired of feeling this much
tired of life's burning touch
I crave numbness, I need that rush
so let me escape and don't cry mama----just hush

I think
we are all
God's
test dummies,
here for his testimonies only.

a scent of repent
regret
angry with myself,
upset.

They put money on me,
I lost their bet.

Now I'm in need,
alone with my black hat.

And life has become a dangerous place.

she looks in the mirror
in pitch darkness
no light upon her face.

And life has become a disguisting place.

American sin we chase
no unity, no purity, no love,
filth from every race.

And life has become a desperate place.

Death will forever be man's case
born into sin was our crime
the punishment is much more severe this time.

Sometimes I escape to a magical place.
A mirror of myself, a beautiful face
A high like a drug that has been laced
sensation out of this world,
into deeper space.
My eyes water as my heart pace.
A sigh of relief,
as my mind tells my body
"you're okay ...
I laugh and admit,
*I am a great lay!

she was innocent
and pure as snow.

as long as her true self was hidden
real intentention didn't show.

deep depths of secrecy
she would go.

miles to freedom
flying slow.

Lord,
Do you hear me cry
If so, can you tell me why?
why do these tears swim In my soul
Tell me father, tell me you know.

Jesus,
Do you feel my pain?
Do you remember my name?
haven't heard from you in so long,
beginning to think this life thing is a game....

A game I'm losing,
yet it's you I'm choosing
still I suffer the worse
this is all too confusing!

If I ever see you in the sky
Don’t be a stranger
And fly right by
If I ever see you on earth
Embrace me like a new born
To its mother after birth
If I ever see you in dreams...
I’ll scream with joy!
...For you my love...
I’ll sing!

love decieve me not
not me be decieved
I close my eyes
and feel the passion
but i do not see
i waited, wished
to look upon beauty
but atlas I saw lust
it fooled me
I cried, it kissed my tears
and told me to hush
I swore not to tell this story
but I lied and you blushed

I sing along to sad songs
Because another lover have left me alone.
I cry in silence
Because I lack the balance ----
Between  love | hate
The scales always tip, when the Heartbreaker heart breaks.

I think I have my answer*

This feeling has spread from
my head to my bed
like cancer.

I keep lying to myself
and breaking more hearts
creating makeshift sparks.

When all alone
you were the only light I ever needed
in the dark.

he told me to relax
and he spread my legs
and caressed my back.

he said chill
as he tasted my *******
and copped a feel.

with time it was over,
only then was relaxation real.

when I'm here or there
I wish to go home
but at home, I'm alone.

when I'm with you,
I wish you were gone
but when you are gone, I feel so alone.

songs play on the radio for so long
sweet melodies excite my lonesome bones,
but even enjoying music I am still alone.

My heart has broken
a million times before
life has used me up
as it's little *****.

Life has kidnapped my mind
and robbed me of my time
it has silenced my screams
and made me witness ungodly things.

Mother nature has turned me against my neighbor
the father of lies forced me to work, unpaid labor
I laugh now, cry later
my tears and my smile...

*is my offering to my Savoir

be careful what you allow your eyes to see,

you may not never be the same.

be careful what your actions do,

your behavoir becomes your name.

be careful of the path you take,

to attain riches and fame.

And don't get too caught up in winning,

because we all lose at this LIFE game!

I've danced with the devil for far too long.
ive learned the lyrics to all his songs.
meanwhile my desire for good has gone.
and my debt to Jesus has grown.
How could I be so foolish?
Why must I be so wrong?

I am a  ******* child
make the men say ooh,
and the women wow.

I could even make the devil smile.

I was once God's child
but I've ran away,
lost my way.

I was a better person yesterday.

My emotions are mild
my feelings are wild,
I say nothing, but my presence is loud.

I too, can make the devil smile.

In a moment of weakness,

I flashed my true colors

it *****, because it really hurt my mother.

With every clumsy person who accidentally looked into my eyes.

Roses the color of your kisses
Lipstick I wiped from my face

Now I check to see,
If they are still tattooed
In that very place

I simply miss them
Because they came from
you

The only person,
Whose love was ever
true

Loving you is wrong
So I won't tell you I do
But I will sing
You this love song.

Loving you
Would make my life better
But I can't do it,
So I'll cry you this wet letter.

Loving you
Is not right,
So I will love you through each poem
I desperately write.

I run I run I run away
I may stop if I make it to Heaven one day
I hope heavens gates have no escape...
because I'll run some more
until I feel safe.

I told myself you were out of my lead
a favorite book I could not read
this was no want, but a serious need
forbidden fruit I wanted to nibble to the last seed.

You came over and took a seat
then you seduced me, you **** freak
we became a secret I could not keep
but I didn't say a word, not one peep.

I told you I loved you
you knew then I was weak
so you ignored me for an entire week
I gave you pleasure and you made me weep.

She waited for love her entire life

and then one day she died

never becoming a man's wife.

I kissed a girl.
and it was something I did not enjoy.
It felt off,
like playing with my brothers toy....
because I was a girl,
and she was no boy.

Love told me,
"I never did like you"

Embarrassed and heartbroken,

I yelled,
"Well, I'm starting to
hate your *** too!"

I am love.
I am wealth.
I hold purity and grace in my belt.

I am strength.
I know pain.
I carry secrets and dreams in my name.

I am she.
She is black.
I hold no titles,
Just a monkey on my back.

I use to be his baby
now he has a baby.

I use to be his lady
now he has a lady.

He use to call me baby,
when I was his lady.

now he has a new set
and I'm just a single ex.

he didn't treat me the best
it's hard not be bitter, when he's blessed.

they claim to want me,
but loneliness is all I see.

the last kitten in the box,
sad and afraid of getting picked last.

they admire me from the store glass,
still not chosen as tears fill in my eyes.

hate to say
I've lost my way.

I knew this would happen,
just wasn't sure what day.

a good tear
is never wasted

it runs like a river
into a beaches ocean
where salty flavor is tasted.

a good tear
is never wasted

it drops to the ground
into a puddle of rain
brave reflections face it.

a good tear
is never wasted

it simply matures and moves on
making room for the other emotions
which have yet beautifully grown.
though they disappear
may their memories
forever be known!

let me love you before you say no
let me please you before you go
let me kiss your mouth before you talk
wrap those legs around me before you walk.

touch me before you leave
make me beg make me plead
grant my wish, fulfill my need
follow me to my bedroom, as I lead.

please stay!
come back my way...
sorry is all I have to say
for breaking your heart yesterday.

2 much

or

2 little

could cost your soul

*love

Life is confusing,

want to know why?

people only love when you die!

A child resides
Inside my soul
Lies told, truth known
Insides my eyes
A child cries
Truth be told
The woman lies
As the child dies

I’ve died too many times
And life has no rewind...

I died at birth
I died at church
Died as a girl
Died in the world

I’ve died far too much
Reality is no longer in touch...

At night I'm filled with dread
morning comes and I refuse to leave my bed.
The world is crazy
but danger lives in my head.
I'm afraid of life,
but terrified of the thought of being dead.
This cycle of no peace
is really getting to me.
If my savoir can't help,
neither can this **** poetry.

I listen to sad songs
on replay.

my insides are dead
but I play life during the day.

I smile to stop words
that I anticipate people might say...

like how are you doing?
**fine i say, but lies I am chewing