"viv" poems
The troubadour planted his last name between
a she-vegan's legs in San Marcos;
rambled north to that country of love, Oklahoma City,
where he took hits of windowsill acid every three hours
for a week straight.
To escape, to begin.
He spent his nights in the St. Cloud Hotel, trying to
sleep on a carpeted floor. He saw a color between
lavender and orange, nameless and impossible to
recreate. He knew all, including he'd forget all.
He shared a room with two high fashion,
burgundy-lipped lesbians, Viv and Jean, and
one night, the last night the troubadour, our troubadour,
was allowed to stay, Jean went out for some fresh air,
code for a cigarette.
"She never smokes just one," Viv said, little Oprahs reflected in her eyes from the plasma screen. She lay on her stomach on the bed,
atop a jungle green comforter. For your discretion and for the discretion of those before you.
Viv brought him between her legs.
"Gentle. Gentle," she said.
The troubadour thought of those Pepsi Challenge commercials as he tongued her **** A lesbian has an edge when it comes to oral pleasure. Across the nation more people prefer Pepsi. She's got the same parts, sure, but as the troubadour wordlessly recited the alphabet with his tongue to her, he felt confident Jean hadn't put in this kind of effort, not lately anyways. And so what if he's Coke? The troubadour preferred Coke. Viv snagged a handful of his hair, "Don't stop," she said. "Don't stop."
And it all ended, as drug-addled, hetero-on-homo escapades always do: abruptly and with an "I think you should leave before she comes back," a "But sweetheart, this, us, I think this means something," an "I like girls," a "But," an "I just needed an edge," and later that night as he marveled at the brilliance of the common streetlight, tripping his *** off on his last hit of LSD, he empathized.
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 7:36 PM UTC
Day 1: Blithe
(bl-I-the); happy or joyous
"I'm sorry but I'm rather blithe right now. It was nice to meet you."
Day 7: Convivial
(kon-viv-ve-ul); friendly, lively, or enjoyable
"The room spikes from dull to absolutely convivial just from your precence, darling."
Day 15: Pulchritudinous
(puhl-kri-tood-n-uhs); extreme physical beauty
"You look absolutely pulchritudinous tonight."
Day 16: Love
(luhv); an intense feeling of deep affection
"I love you."
Day 30: Veridical
(vuh-rid-i-kuhl); truthful; veracious
"This isn't how it used to be, if i'm being completely veridical"
Day 45: Simulacrum
(sim-yuh-ley-crum); a slight, unreal, or superficial likeness
"You were just a simulacrum for real love!"
Day 49: Lugubrious
(luh-goo-bre-us); full of sorrow or sadness
"Will the lugubrious feelings ever stop?"
Day 50: goodbye
(good-bi); used to express good wishes when parting
"Goodbye..."
May 9, 2015
May 9, 2015 at 4:07 PM UTC
i am so hopeful
yest so unhopeful
all at the same time
it's like that light
that you see
that tells you everything
will be okay
is like the sun on
a cloudy day;
it fades in an out
dimming and brightening
like a lightbulb
hanging on a thread -
hanging on to life
like a car
racing down
the free way
at two in the morning
the moments of darkness
after the faint moment
of brightness
as we drive under
street lamps.
i am so hopeful
and so hopeless
and i sway
like a pendulum
unable to find
a healthy balance
Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 4:17 PM UTC
The watcher, the fast learner
I’m the hook and she’s the eye
Keeping each other grounded
When we feel like sinking
She’s a pretty cool guy
She wanted me to add that she’s ‘fly’
Hanging with her is like a high
But It doesn’t go away
She’s German too
She taught me a bit
Du bist ein Arsch
Hope you let that one pass..
my German is pretty trash.
Dec 6, 2021
Dec 6, 2021 at 3:48 PM UTC
She was the heartbeat of desire,
while I was a dry upper crust of a writer.
She was the Flamingo, fluid with grace.
I was just a stiff member with a bank teller’s face.
I lay with the lady as a matter of course
We woke up the next morning with all innocence lost.
I married Viv then and in London remained
where J. Alfred Prufrock cemented my fame.
It was between the two wars, when poets still mattered
Though the world of our birth was bruised beaten and tattered.
Viv had many needs that I couldn’t fulfill
Her one infidelity rankles me still.
The silence between us grew as loud as the Bourse.
Though our pairing proved barren, we never divorced.
My footsteps were haunted by this girl with my name.
I resolved we should part. My friends thought her insane.
Maurice, her brother, signed to have her committed.
I saw her just once, a perfunctory visit.
She was young when she died, just turned Fifty Eight.
My fate would be different, I had longer to wait.
Of the man that I might have been, little remained
She made me a poet, my dry soul she claimed
Nov 6, 2014
Nov 6, 2014 at 10:16 PM UTC
Now It’s CLEAR That I Am ... " GIFTED " ...
When It Comes To Writing Lyrics ... !!!
Articulated Scriptures ...
That Paint Descriptive Pictures ...
of How It Is We’re Living ...
Ism After ... ISM ...
Corruption and Division ...
That’s Bred By Politicians ...
EVEN ON A Day Like THIS ...
December ... 25th ...
I’m STILL Presenting Gifts ...
Through Written Scripts Like THIS ... !!!
That QUICKLY FLIP ...
DIFFERENT Subjects ... !!!
From Politics To Those Whose Gifts ...
Gave Out Some ... SERIOUS LIKS’ ... !!!!!!
Just Like The GREAT ... “ King Viv “ ... !!!
A Cricketer ... SO GIFTED ... !!!
When It Came To Playing Cricket ...
And PROTECTING ... His Wicket ...
That Bowlers RARELY Hit It ... !!!!!!!!
While Others Like ... USAIN ...
Had Gifts That Made Them Train ...
In Ways That Gained ... " Olympic Fame " ... !!!
TOO Many IN FACT ... For This Poem To Name ... !!!
So Let’s Move On ...
To Gifts That Belong ...
In ... OTHER Realms ...
Like ****** Gifts ...
YES ... BIG OL’ Well ...
You Know What It Is ... Or ... Do You ... ?!?
Do You Know What It Is To Be The One Who GIVES ...
MULTIPLE ... ******** Rides ... !!!?!!!
Well I’m ... One of THOSE GUYS ... !!!!!
My Ex and I ... ENJOYED Those Nights ....
Where She Would Be Riding Just Like ...
Those Guys With Gifts To Ride Motorbikes ...
In Ways That THRILLED When She Got FILLED ...
With MUCH MORE Than The ... AVERAGE Man ...
And YES That’s FACT So ... DON’T Doubt That ... !!!!!!!
Such Gifts Are COOL But Now I’m Fuelled ...
To Use My Gifts To ... EXPLAIN Things ...
As I Said At The Start I Now Use My ARM ...
To ARTICULATE Visions of How We’re Now Living ...
So Gifts of THIS TYPE ...
Tend To CHALLENGE The Minds ...
of Those Who Are ...................................................... “ Sly “ ...
Because of The Gift That ... REALITY Brings ... !!!
A Bite That DEFIES The Spreading of LIES ... !!!
But One That Bears Witness ...
To TRUTH And LESS Sinning ... !!!
So ... As I Now End ...
I’m Back To The Beginning ... !!!
I Articulate Scriptures ...
That Paint Descriptive Pictures ...
of How It Is ... " We’re Living " ...
Because It’s ... CLEAR ...
When It Comes To Writing Lyrics ...
That I Am One ... Who’s ...
.......... “ GIFTED “ ..........
Dec 25, 2019
Dec 25, 2019 at 7:32 PM UTC
She's our woman who does
so she is
here once a week
her name is Viv
she sweeps the floor
washes the tiles
arranges the papers in neat little piles
flicks a duster across a few things
breaks a saucer
and gently places it into the bin
May 11, 2016
May 11, 2016 at 1:17 PM UTC
you've always been
"rough around the edges,"
seeing lines in coloring books as
suggestions and
scribbling wherever you **** pleased
(your handiwork adorns
countless bibles in two churches,
innumerable physics worksheets,
and the walls of
one bathroom stall in your high school,
which has probably been
repainted
by now)
I'm sorry I couldn't smooth your edges,
but I'm glad I did not.
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 9:42 PM UTC
I seen them come and watched them go
and I know
not one of those spoke of Michelangelo,
it was all about the latest date,
the tricks of men and fate
the risky business, foreplay for the
afternoon,
Spotify,
don't come too soon, but never
Michelangelo.
When and what brings me to
this junction of people,
this queue of
lonely,
this hunger monger looks into space and
he looks at himself and his face doesn't fit,
mirror
mirror
on the wall
**** you,
****
but that's childish and so I edit childishly with lipstick from My Auntie V, which was short for Vivian and Viv died back in '74, not sure why I kept her lipstick but I also kept lots more.
(sore points make for scabby wounds)
And if I cough again I'll wet myself,
jeez,
you'd think the body could hold itself intact.
I only lack the know how and I know that now
and I know that no one talks of
Michelangelo,
just Bieber and Dicaprio,
time to go?
I guess it is and somewhat so
touching on
Michelangelo
because no one else does.
Mar 10, 2016
Mar 10, 2016 at 12:48 AM UTC
I listened to role models by J. Cole for the hundredth time and I finally heard it. It was a message to our women, No Role Models To Speak Of. He spoke of women who knew he had a girl but encouraged him to act like a dog they cry about. He spoke of "I don't want no ***** from reality shows", he spoke of meaningless *** women has allowed of him and "Kick em to the door, that just how it goes". He made a song and that's all most women of today will hear from No Role Models by J. Cole, another tune. It's not another tune, it's a message. I know because I was one of those women who never heard the message in 2014, today I here it loud in clear some years later. He looks back at his past and No Role Models To Speak Of. It all starts with women and I'm sure he wish women demanded more of what they deserve. Men like complexity, a challenge and as men they deserve that too. He claimed the women didn't even show him worthy of wearing his shirt home. "Lame ****** Cant Tell A Difference, One Time For A ***** Who Knows". He wants an Ant Viv love, he said he was too young for Lisa Bonet, Nia Long... all he's left with is ******* from reality shows who can't even read a script. Can't get mad at him that his only regret is not being able to take Aaliyah home.
Jul 29, 2017
Jul 29, 2017 at 3:15 AM UTC
I.
You made me happy
when skies were grey,
when skies were blue,
when skies were purple
and orange and pink
and looked like a promise,
when skies were dark
and were shining with wishes—
You made me happy.
II.
When I couldn't sleep
I replayed the way
you said my name
over and over and over.
It rang in my head
like a police car's siren.
III.
In between being asleep
and awake my mind
would flash back to the night
where in a drunken haze,
time stopped.
Do you remember
the way you looked at me?
Could you tell that I
couldn't breathe?
The air was thick
with everything we weren't
saying and I wonder—do you
remember?
When your mind is
most vulnerable,
do you think of me?
IV.
You smiled at me
like you loved me
and stared at me like
I was a mystery you wanted to spend
your whole life figuring out
and said my name like
it was sacred
and these things should've
made more sense.
These things
should have meant
more.
V.
In one night
we went from
almost something
to absolutely nothing.
In two sentences
you let me
let you go.
You were supposed
to come
back.
VI.
Everything hurts me.
The way you
wouldn't look at me.
The way you
spat words at me,
like every syllable
burned your lips
on the way out of
your mouth.
The way you
let me walk out
the door without
a second glance.
We weren't meant to hurt each other like this.
VII.
I cried for months.
In bed,
on a park bench,
sitting on a patio at night,
perched on the sink of a public restroom,
with my feet floating in a fountain,
over the phone to a voice, hundreds of miles away.
I cried for months.
VIII.
I want you to know,
it mattered to me.
Even if I meant nothing to you,
you mattered.
VIV.
I've never been very good at letting go.
God knows how hard I try.
I'm sorry it is taking me so long.
I'm sorry I can't look at you still
I'm sorry I have to ignore you but
it easier this way.
Some nights I don't sleep because
what if I can't let you go,
what if time goes on
and I meet someone new
and regardless of moons
and suns and other men's mouths,
I still want you?
I told you,
I am not good at letting go.
My mind is not one to allow it.
X.
I could have loved you.
I'm sorry.
Jul 30, 2014
Jul 30, 2014 at 6:40 PM UTC
*supermarket conversation:
tarah: matt, you feeling o.k.?
matt (me): i've been fasting, low blood sugar level.
tarah: why?
matt (me): i don't know... i could blame it on easter.*
what are these addicts doing here?
am i selling ******* am i selling ******
what are these people doing here?
is my writing as addictive as to attract 20 or more
so people like it might be expecting a harry potter
instalment?
is that code for: also dr. seuess?
is my writing a bit like selling drugs?
dunno... ever heard the kresy accent
from sami swoi (1967)?
- or that note that greeks have about
the turks having "constantinople"...
i don't hear a lot of ******** about
lwów / l'viv: lion: lew (lev).
i could listen to a greek gay provocator
nagging about this sentiment ringing true
toward the passing of the next two centuries...
but this is an anglophone world
after all... who the **** gives a **** about
Lviv ever belonging to poland?
next time you hear an advert to
become a tourist in cuba... or costa rica...
so **** you! eat yer bananas!
get yer suntan... and shove your cultural darwinism
where the sun doth shine...
and then choke...
on edgy popcorn where 3 ***** croaked for a
forlorn sun
to exhibit the morn...
such suns are only worth the set,
or known egyptian ugly σεθ...
and nothing else...
but then again: working out and
the cult of the gym is as ugly as any other that
might provide us with arguments against
the gluttons;
where's the cue prompt at which i start laughing?
małgorzata kożuchowska, maybe, someday,
but obviously never. what? you were expecting
a daydream involving paris hilton?! eh?!
Mar 31, 2017
Mar 31, 2017 at 7:49 PM UTC
Vivienne wriggled restless draped in a veil of veneer,
She could never pass the stage of sleep same as her street number three.
“Our cycles are synchronized”, so the moon she did fear.
Their marriage froze frigid until deliquescing at month three,
Her lunacy at low tide leaked on her ****** red bed sheet,
Like the snow that would thaw, end of winter in ’33.
As a muse Viv was perfect, but the man suffered defeat,
With her parent’s heirs to riches, resentment followed suit.
Could it have been Dr. Huntington she inherited? Viv was swiftly swept off her feet.
The white walls met her head like a drum beating mute,
As in the fourth circle, Pluto, dressed in a white coat shocked her brain.
Across town Tom was receiving an award, celebrating with the astute.
“*Viv ruined him as a man, though quite the poet he became”,
For if it weren’t for Vivienne, Tom would have acquired far inferior fame.
_TRF
Dec 11, 2016
Dec 11, 2016 at 10:06 PM UTC
So... Which One Are You... ???
When It Comes To What You Do...
Are You One of The CALLED... ?
Or... One Who’s Part...
of The CHOSEN Few... ?!?
It’s A Really Good Question...
On Which To... CHEW... !!!
Because We Now Seem...
To Have MANY Who BELIEVE...
That They’re The GREATEST Thing...
Since We Had... MARVIN... !?!
A Man Who Was CHOSEN...
To Perform And SING... !!!
Just Like KING VIV...
When It Came To Batting... !!!
Because His Cricketing Gifts...
Were BEYOND Amazing... !!!
As Were... ALI’s...
When He BUCKLED Knees...
With Punching Speed...
That Was BEYOND Belief... !!!
You See...
The Chosen Have Potions...
Like... Poets In Motion...
While Most Are Just CALLED...
To Cause A COMMOTION... !!!
Because They Run MORE Talk...
Than... Walkers WALK... !!!
But The Talk That They Feed...
Is CHEAPER Than Cheap... !!!
So The Called Tend To Be...
A Breed That’s WEAK... !!!!!!!!!
Who Are MORE Like Sheep...
Than Humans Steeped In...
..... GREAT Qualities..... !!!
When You REALLY See...
How These People Be... !!!!!!!!
... UNABLE To Lead... !!!
So They Tend To FOLLOW...
And Do What They’re Told...
Because They’re HOLLOW...
When It Comes To Their Souls...
LOST... I Guess So... ?!?
When You Hear Their Quotes...
About... “ Who They Know “...
And The Places They Go...
Because They Are KNOWN... !!!
And The Number of Ho’s...
And Nowadays Blokes...
Who Give Up Their Holes... !!!
So That They Can Get CLOSE...
To Those CLAIMING To Be...
... CHOSEN To SUCCEED... !!!
When It Comes To Money...
... Raising Families...
And Of Course Being DEEMED...
As People Who...
Have Been CHOSEN To Do...
What It Is That They Do...
That Proves That They...
DESERVE To Be Named...
In... " Halls of FAME "... !!!
But Heres Some TRUTH...
That They WON’T Tell You... !!!
That The Called Are MANY...
But The CHOSEN FEW...
AREN’T Those On Your Telly...
Or Those In BOARDROOMS...
Because The CALLED Are...
... Quite SMELLY... !!!
Because They Get USED...
Just Like TAMPONS Do... !!!
While The CHOSEN Refuse...
To Link Up With Crews...
Who Get Things Confused...
When It Comes To The TRUTH...
About... Who Gets BROKEN...
Because They’re NOT Chosen... !!!
They’re Just CALLED To Be SEEN...
Until The Company They Keep...
Call Time On Them...
If They Choose To LET...
Things Get To Their Head... !!!
While The CHOSEN Present...
HIGH Levels of SENSE...
That Present GREATNESS... !!!
Whether Through Poems...
Or The Passing of Tests...
That Try To OFFEND...
And Make Them CALL...
For The Type of NONSENSE...
That The CALLED DEFEND... ?
Because They Choose To REJECT...
... BASIC Common Sense... ?!?
That’s Right Women And Men...
Who Like To... PRETEND...
That They Are The BEST...
At EVERYTHING From ***
To Cashing BIG Cheques...
And Having Knowledge...
Which When You CHECK...
Is Cos’ The Called IGNORE...
Higher Levels of Thought...
Because They’re CALLED...
And CHOSEN To FALL... !!!
Like NIAGRA Fa’ Sure... !!!
I Don’t Know Anymore... ?!?
If The Price of The Stalls...
Is Worth Paying For...
Just To See The... CALLED...
When They Run SO MUCH TALK...
That... CLEARLY Falls Short... !!!
of Them Being A FORCE...
That PROVES WITHOUT DOUBT...
That They’re One of The CHOSEN... !!!
And NOT ONE Who’s Just... “ Called “... !!!
Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 3:14 AM UTC
( We )
VIVA LA RASA
( We )
VIV LA CAUSA
,;;
We are one
We are
One
~~|||||||~~
hey hey
What're ya doing ?
Say boy
Are ya done with yer
***** loving ???
?
( he's ***** - whipped ! )
( he's pussy-whipped ! )
( he's ***** - whipped ! )
HE 'S JUST A ***** !
••
just like da little girls want him to be !
""
for their
**** AND TELL ALL ABOUT IT
So - called poetry !!!!!!
••
Say boy
What're ya sayin ?
Hey boy
What're ya gonna do ?
))((
are YE gonna live in love ?
Are YE ready to die for the truth !
Sep 26, 2015
Sep 26, 2015 at 8:51 PM UTC
*if you can't be bothered to learn a second language? i, can't be bothered to relinquish my mother (tongue); that's just how it works; and no, mono-lingualism doesn't give birth to monotheism, given the example of moses, monotheism can only exist in a realm of bilingualism - just like the quantum effect of electrons; which is why islam is so, ******* arrogant, being the child among the father of judaism, and the mother of christianity... it wants to convert, but it doesn't bother to teach you arabic, which is a necessary precursor to practice the religion (apparently). yet i still think that, for monotheism to exist, it can only exist in a bilingual environment; you need to be fractioned, to encompass a whole, a oneness that's mono-, a god standing on one foot joking about having to dance, when instead imitating the jitters of a sparrow hopping, rather than gloomily, proud, and executioner fathomable parade of the crow.*
**well, isn't islam a spoilt brat?
isn't it?! is islam not a sploit brat?
oh right... no dubai, no oil...
hasn't islam become a sploit brat?
isn't it screaming and shouting
and stomping its feet all around the place?
to me? islam is a sploit brat...
with papa judaism and mama christianity
wondering how to deal with this insolent
critter; the little ******* needs a good beating
so he can shut the **** up; and what's with
the orthodoxy of banning music?
well... if you're going to ban music...
stop singing the ******* adhan!
do what the catholics do... murmur it!**
zamilkł (he became silenced)
zamilkła (she became silenced)
in english: with england's
in polish:
z polską
(with poland)
and how the possessive article changes.
we all have our grievences,
to reclaim what we once had,
the greeks have istambul...
the germans have marienburg...
the poles have l'viv...
we all have our grievances...
in the 19th century a few people stressed
a nostalgia for ancient greece...
in the 21st century?
the greeks are hardly nostalgic
about their ancient pillars...
they're more into their byzantine heritage...
i guess the name is what's
nostalgia per se,
rather than the fact that...
well... they're no remembered for much...
other than trying to keep islam at bay...
nostalgia in name only (i.e. byzantine) -
belzebub belzebub... helen?
hellenic?
belzebub byzantine belzebub...
well, perhaps there are a few cantos sung
by byzantine monks...
and when you hear it?
god, you can almost hear turkish
being spoken,
and this is sung by greeks!
let's face it, turks have the same ι (iota)
as the greeks;
the matter? settled in cyprus.
Jun 13, 2017
Jun 13, 2017 at 12:06 PM UTC
Today
but you
I left
will
a rose
never
for you
see it.
Feb 15, 2018
Feb 15, 2018 at 1:43 AM UTC