"fazing" poems
Dear bully,
I did what you wanted me to do
And i did it just for you.
My wrists are bleeding and the life in front of me is hazing.
I have no thought of turning back now and this is not me fazing.
This is you and what you have made me become.
Inside is a contagious, heartless, careless, & selfish soul that just so happens was passed on to me.
You being put away forever is exactly what I want to see.
It's not as hard for me to be here looking down on you in a locked down facility,
because it wasn't hard for you to be looking at me and labeling me in a suicide committee.
Maybe just maybe, if you weren't such a ****
We both would've had something to live for and we both would not be hurt.
Feb 19, 2015
Feb 19, 2015 at 11:13 AM UTC
I can't look at glossy things
The Sun is the purest star
Triste
Twisted
The Sun is blazing
Dazing and Gazing upon the lack of man
Oh, how I love the lack of man
I am a kaleidoscope, ever-changing
My mood goes from blue to red, blue to red
I flicker constantly among the only constant
Triste
Dazing and Fazing upon the lack of man,
Oh, how I miss the abundance of man
Music pours across the room,
Vibrating off the walls
I have a caged body, I long for something great, to make my life
a poetry book across wild and mild pages
Will this ever be?
When my kaleidoscope changes and flickers with each drop of rain
The black dog running after me,
I am half happiness, half a slope
Triste
Don't let it break your heart/Let it break your heart.
Giving up is the hardest part.
Jul 1, 2017
Jul 1, 2017 at 11:07 PM UTC
I got another problem, another chance to solve em
But I'd rather lay under the sky and let my mind dissolve and
Sink into the ground, feel the breath leave my chest
In puffy dragon smoke that trails off into the sunset...
Yeah its a little cold, so what
I can run away into my mind and happily be lost
The spiralling air, that greys out with the frost
Can keep me fixated, dilated pupils gloss
With the wind in my hair as I lay without a care
See the clouds in the skies, only go where eagles dare
But I see myself riding one, a cotton ball so light
I'm feeling so relaxed that if I imagine it just might
Happen and I'm feeling good, feeling pretty fly
I could drift across the air without even having to try
My clothes become the parachute to stop my every fall
Pick myself up, dust off, answer the call
Life picks me up like a wave deep into space
Drifting with the asteroids, spinning like a dinner plate
Caught inside, warm and cosy like a microwave
Open up the door, and I'm as baked as a cake
Grab a slice, I know I'm nice, don't bite me hard be gentle
Tasty just erase me sliding down, I'm feeling mental
Dancing to the sound, the humming through the ground
That makes me see my ears hum, drumming feeling loud
Yet quiet as a butterfly, a fragile autumn leaf
Falling on a windy May, from the branch its been set free
Peaceful like "what's evil", is it live re-arranged?
Watching every play from the back row, but standing centre stage
Every film and every cut where the recording isn't right,
But they keep on anyway to a deadline without a time
Set, and so upset and so depressed i see the fall
Before they get the chance to bow, it's become a curtain call
It's a shame to see such pain when the peace is but a leaf
Independence like the ones that fall, floating down a creek
In the eye of the beholder is the beauty first viewed
Tell me; for good or worse, that's all up to you
Everything that you pursue, do it for the better
And when you are successful be sure to capture every letter
And never let go, always hold the memory close
As though it is the cure to pain you could never do before
Apr 3, 2018
Apr 3, 2018 at 10:02 AM UTC
i can see what these lads are doing
they're after a ********
i look a state
but
atleast i'm in this with my best mate
"excuse me"
i overhear
from the girl with the can of beer
"can i pinch some gear"
my peers are fazing
their eyes are gazing
i've lost my bank card
but
atleast i didn't get bared
"don't smack me in the ear"
i overhear
from the guy fighting with his peer
"let's not start fighting here"
gyspy flicking lighters
we were the all nighters
chanting on the nightclub flighters
Aug 18, 2017
Aug 18, 2017 at 3:27 PM UTC
Al Petroleum.
Fazing in n out.
The flicker.
The whisper.
She's here.
You took too much man.
You took too much.
Who said that.
Garrett Johnson.
Aug 3, 2019
Aug 3, 2019 at 5:28 PM UTC
Swirling
Spiraling
Circling
Down the drain
Weeping
Crying
Disappearing
Tears in rain
Swaying
Swinging
Creaking
End of rope
Gasping
Coughing
Clawing
Strangled choke
Fading
Fazing
Dispersing
Cellophane ghost
Silence
Dead air
Hush
Deaf as a post
Hands up
White flag
Relinquish
Signal surrender
Body
Mind
Soul
Legal tender
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 1:43 PM UTC
Love you but it hurts like Hell
To see what I do to you
Since the moment we met it seems
Your life has crumbled, fallen through.
Can tell you don't want to blame me
For problems that have risen
What other explanation is there
How we ended up in this position?
Not sure where I led you astray
But amidst dazed conversations
We got lost, wandered off the path
Into a forest of fazing situations.
One catastrophe after the next
Round in circles we run
Lightning strikes, vengeance proud
Each time we think we are done.
Don't know what I did to cause
Pause in progress to your goals
You are falling in booby-traps
Don't remember digging any holes.
Careless steps have consequences
Put fences in your tracks
Unwittingly tackled defenses
Attacks leaving dents on your back.
My smile is weapon of choice
Clearly broken but bear arms
Friends don't think I possess enough strength
My blows do not cause you harm.
Once upon a time we had magic
Holding onto lovestruck days
Holding something quickly fading
Chilled fingertips can hardly graze.
Doubt haunts my every move
Cools the fire which burned so strong
Instinct telling me to run
The picture before me is wrong.
Misguided, confused, questioning everything
More hopeless each troubling day
Broken, insecure, misery loves company
Will I stop painting your skies grey?
I failed in so many inconsiderate ways
A destroyer of all things good
In this prison I know as my life
Regretting decisions I should.
See you stumble on my flaws
Don't know why you stay with me
Think of how much I've worsened your world
Our future black with all we can't be.
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 2:35 PM UTC
Gazing dazing fazing
Such an amazing thing
We went, we saw, we concur
Did you get a t-shirt or just a ticket
The hall was full but we were fuller
Lets talk about your eyes that were facinated by that scene
All the secrets that came out to play
You tried to hide but my lips made fair game
Your touch was soothing yet exciting
Your breath was revealing and pursuing
You have painted dreams in my nightmares
Does your pallet ever end
Bring more of your rainbows to my storm
This heart could just mend
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 1:39 PM UTC
i'm feeling it
the drift
a wedge
i'm draining
no one hears it,
an empty void
pure desolate silence
i don't want to stay
“nobody cares”
so why should i?
the idiosyncratic facade
fazing everyone
compressing everything within
yet i feel so hollow
Mar 17, 2021
Mar 17, 2021 at 1:07 AM UTC