"buildin" poems
Worry a'creapin
Confusion sets
Nerves are startled
Fear Upsets
Minds a racin'
Thoughts implode
Face is flushed
Fear Explodes
Hearts a'flutter
Chest tightens up
Voices stutter
Fear Erupts
Hearts a'poundin
Sweat then rolls
Panic resounding
Fear unfolds
Deaths a'loomin
Dreads attack
All consuming
Fear is back
Peace a'buildin
Calm ensues
If Gods willing
Fear defused
Oct 21, 2020
Oct 21, 2020 at 5:35 PM UTC
I'm Somehow Seein' Your Face,
when I close my eyes...
I'm Somehow Seein' Your Face,
as I'm starin' into
the brightness of a new day...
I'm Somehow Seein' Your Face,
as I'm gazin' into
the darkness of a new night...
I've been askin' myself why-
still I'm not sure if
I'm gettin' any answers!
We've only met once-
face to face, several months ago.
But, since then, we've spent
many hours a night;
talkin' into the early mornin';
buildin' our friendship!
As I'm listenin' to your voice
while we are talkin'
or you are singin' to me-
I'm realizin' its effectin' me
in different ways-
it soothes and calms me;
yet, energizes and awakens me!
When we can't talk-
I feel this loneliness
that I can't explain-
and there's so much I'm wantin' to say!
Then knowin' when we can again-
I feel this anxiousness,
almost over-takin' me!
And an odd-sense of happiness
practically consumes me!
Which is confusin' me...
Cause I'm not sure of what I'm feelin'
or if I'm feelin' more than what
I'm admittin' to myself...
But I'm seekin' answers-
I'm wonderin' over and over again,
if I'm tryin' to deny somethin'
that I shouldn't be...
And if you are maybe doin' the same...
I think I'm feelin' more here happenin'
than just friendship;
as if we've got this connection,
somewhere along the way!
Is there somethin' more
than what we yet to admit or know...
All I know, as of yet-
I'm Somehow Seein' Your Face,
when I close my eyes...
2008
COPYRIGHT; Sabrina Denise Healey,
~Angelmom~
Jan 9, 2015
Jan 9, 2015 at 10:34 PM UTC
[Hook: Ester Dean]
Voices in the air
I hear them loud and clear
Telling me to listen
Whispers in my ear
Nothing can compare
I just wanna listen
[Verse 1: MGK]
As my, world turns
The heart beats
Not only in my chest
But the heart in these streets
So when they feel this, they feel me
But I can't feel nothin', outside these dre beats
I am from the city of evil, came from the bottom
Standing on top of what was supposed to be my coffin, whats up?
Inception shows me as a dead man walkin', but reflections shows this kid's still got it
Let it be known I got the throne like I don't know that there's a king
Never grew up around a family because I'm not a human being
And anyone under my level that’s coming at my spot for the top
Let them have it, cause when I leave, the whole world drops
Lace up Kells
[Hook]
I hear voices in the air
I hear em’ loud and clear
Telling me to listen
Whispers in my ear
Nothing can compare
I just want to listen
Telling me I am Invincible (3x) - oh oh
Telling me I am Invincible (3x) - oh oh I am
[Verse 2]
Waking up sweatin from the stress of being caged down
Everything I write is played out like what is this ?
Tear the whole page out
Man I come from holes in the wall but they don’t know the path
Even if I told them it all, they wouldn't know the half
So maybe I fill up my luggage with all of these dreams and put on my black coat and my black chucks and nothing in my jeans
And just run, till the day comes like Rocky’s movie scene
And I’m on top of the world, look up and scream like this is me, this is Kells
Crucified by the public without the nails
Do or die in my city but clearly I never failed
Lost myself in the game when I found myself in a cell
Then I found myself in the fame when I lost myself in the pills
And you cannot mess with me still , seen them boys and they winnin
Underdogs of the year Cleveland boys in the buildin'
What the **** is a ceiling I’m taking this to the top, and when I leave the whole world drops Lace Up Kells
[Hook]
I hear voices in the air
I hear em’ loud and clear
Telling me to listen
Whispers in my ear nothing can compare
I just want to listen
Telling me I am Invincible (3x) - oh oh
Telling me I am Invincible (3x) - oh oh I am…..
Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 2:59 PM UTC
u emerge from the smoke
and merge within again
i ask myself
if you're the same person
inside & outside the smoke
are you?
the haze turns purple
findin yu, gets harder
my rovin eyes..get
not a moment of rest
findin yu &
buildin stories..
distance shortens
between me to yu..
m 'ere
yet i feel
your warm breath
on my cheek..
there are moments
when i want to go
actively insane
this is one such
i can't help myself
can you?
Feb 12, 2011
Feb 12, 2011 at 9:56 AM UTC
Oh Baby, was I ever wrong,
to think I was over you...
I thought I had you
out of my system...
I thought it wouldn't
make my heart skip a beat,
to see you once again...
I thought I had let you go...
Oh Baby, was I ever wrong...
I should have had a clue
I wasn't over you...
I thought I would be just fine,
not havin' you as mine...
I didn't realize all I had missed...
I thought I wouldn't
want to hold you anymore...
I thought I wouldn't
want to kiss you again...
I couldn't stop listenin' to you...
I thought I could go back to
bein' just friends...
Oh Baby, was I ever wrong...
I should have had a clue
I wasn't over you...
I thought I would be just fine,
not havin' you as mine...
I didn't realize all I had missed...
I thought I was over you-
but then, I seen you...
Oh Baby, you don't know what it did to my heart...
I couldn't keep my eyes off you...
I couldn't stop rememberin' how
it felt to be in your arms...
I couldn't stop thinkin' of
wantin' to taste your kiss...
You looked so good
just standin' there...
As I walked up to you,
I almost lost my nerve-
with everyone bein' there...
All of a sudden,
it didn't matter to me
what they thought or what they'd say...
All that mattered, then and there,
in that moment-
was seein' you up close...
Oh, the willpower it took, to not want to
pull you in my arms...
Oh, the strength it took, to not want to
kiss you hard on the lips...
Oh Baby, the desire- I felt buildin' in me...
Oh Baby, the passion- I felt consumin' me...
Oh Baby, the urgency- I felt over-takin' me...
And I had thought,
I was over you...
Oh Baby, was I ever wrong...
I should have had a clue
I wasn't over you...
I thought I would be just fine,
not havin' you as mine...
I didn't realize all I had missed...
Oh Baby, I didn't realize all I had missed...
2008
COPYRIGHT; Sabrina Denise Healey,
~Angelmom~
Jan 16, 2015
Jan 16, 2015 at 7:35 PM UTC
Fatty fatty
standin' in the yard,
Put down that leaf blower
and start burnin' some lard.
pick up that rake!
clean that grass!
don’t be growin' yourself
no big fat ***
skinny skinny
standin' on the lawn,
Put down that leaf blower
and start buildin' some brawn.
pick up that rake!
clean that grass!
get to workin’ your
skinny little ***
Sep 16, 2015
Sep 16, 2015 at 6:10 PM UTC
*
when there shall be no more lights to be seen
nor paths nor roads leadin' way to the unseen
chaos be overtakin' as forever bedazzled keen
for we shall never know what truth may mean
tho we're not supposed to enjoy them hymns
we shall be taunted, haunted by those whims
the demons scratchin' holdin' on to our limbs
when darkness prevails alas brightness dims
that very day when knowledge be gone away
when people be makin' their own way astray
that's when their inner fire will make its way
buildin' a play of hell be what they shall slay
be it ours, be it theirs, actions should be made
for by then the price will be too hot to be paid
*..love always...
عرفان بن يوسف © AH 29/03/1437
**
Jan 9, 2016
Jan 9, 2016 at 4:09 PM UTC
Find me elementary and I will show
That I'm a child at heart but there's alot I know
I could start to grow on you and change those reds into blue
And before you know that inner glow will show how my love is true
Find me ignorant and I will say
There are just some things that I avoid to save the day
But with the sun shining down so slim upon the needy ground
Could you blame me if there are parts of yellow I long to save
Call me bewildering and you will see
There's so much beyond your fence's patch of green
I'm part of technicolor folks who clear away this blinding smoke
And leave you with a simple harmony
Call me elementary.
Life for me's like a Crayola box
A simple structure made out of those buildin' blox
And I bind and take these new shadings of the world that I am coloring
Placing them on the structure of a solid rock
I can play with you amongst the sand
Don't you dare be afraid to take my hand
Those there's no ocean anywhere we can swim upon the air
Stop me please to tell me if you understand
My elementary.
Imagination paint the scenery
Use the finger paint that we supply freely
I will paint in and out the lines to make sure that you're forvever mine
And we will find that we can forever be
Dec 18, 2012
Dec 18, 2012 at 10:38 PM UTC
*It's the moment where she has to hold back tears.
Bam, bam, the sound of her heart against her ribs as they confirm her fears.
Phone in hand, soft words whispered so easily destroying her heart.
She knew this was comin from the start.
She wasn't ready, not yet!
She dropped the phone, and she knew it was fake, a joke; bet!
"I'm sorry, but grandpa is dead..."
Her heart was beating so loud she wasn't sure she heard what she said.
She started to breathe faster, pulling on clothes to go see for herself.
She was so shocked she left all the memories on a shelf.
There he was..lying perfectly still in the bed of his choice.
She was in to much pain to open her mouth and use her voice.
They dressed him, and she stood frozen in fear.
She didn't even shed a tear.
Frozen in fear, the 12 year old girl walked back outside in the cold night.
She stood there not sure if she could handle this fight.
She stayed silent for days.
Then it was time for the funeral, and her heart and mind a maze.
She got there and he was in his casket, not moving, she knew it was real.
Sharp pains of sadness were all she could feel.
She stood there unable to breathe, unable to move, only able to cry.
She longed to feel someone hold her, but all the did was tell her he had to die.
Why though, why did she have to watch as he lay in pain..
She wondered if it was driving him insane...
What was your last thought daddy, was it of me?
Was it of God, who you were goin to see?
Were you in pain when I left you there to die?
I'm sorry, i didn't know it was time to say goodbye.
She writes these lines and the tears are ready to fall..
She has no one to go to, no one to call..
After the funeral, she watched him get lowered into the ground.
She was feeling as though she had drowned..
The tears were falling fast and free.
No one knew the pain growing inside from those little words, just three.
Tears still fall from her eyes.
It has been almost four years and she can't accept everyone dies.
She grew up buildin walls to save herself from feeling the same kind of pain.
She, no one knows, but she is me, and the pain is driving me insane.
I left him all alone on his last night here.
He was all alone cause i was frozen in fear.
I'm sorry for what happened that night..
It was the beginning of a losing fight.*
Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 7:55 PM UTC
*Waking up hurts, why?
All she wants do is cry, why?
She cuts her wrist to feel alive, why?
She smiles and fakes happiness for all of you, why?
She longs to fly with the angels in the sky, why?
Lonely in a sea of people, why?
It hurts because the monster lives in her brain.
She cries, because it's the only way she feels sane.
She cuts to hide a war, to hide the pain from you.
She fakes being happy, because she knows there is nothing you can do.
She longs to fly with the angels to see the daddy she never had..
She is lonely in a sea of people, cause no one can see how sad..
She fights a losing battle in her mind, why?
She tries so hard to please everyone, why?
She loves with all her heart, why?
She smiles despite the pain buildin inside, why?
She loves the one who hates her most, why?
She is scared to let him in, why?
She fights, in hopes one day she may win.
She tries to please them, so they never get close enough to want in.
She loves because to love means to feel.
She smiles, because one day the pain won't be real.
She loves her, because one day it will all be worthwhile.
She doesn't want him to see what lurks behind that beautiful smile.
She hides the past and hides the pain with a smile, why?
She covers her battle scars, why?
She lives with the monster, why?
She isn't innocent and pure, why?
She builds walls, why?
She hides behind the facade of happiness, why?
She can't let you see, you won't understand the pain she buries.
She is ashamed of the battles she lost, and the scars she carries.
She can't ask for help, so he has taken over her mind.
He took her innocence while everyone else was blind.
She hides from the pain of getting close.
She can't take any more, not another dose.
She is a girl who lives in fear of her own mind.
She is afraid of what she may find.
She is a girl who screams silently for you to see.
She is a girl just like you and me.
She is a girl who cuts to feel, not to die.
Because if she really wanted to die, she wouldn't even have to try..*
Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 7:31 PM UTC
They buildin’ roads out of concrete, cover up the grass
Buildin’ roads out of concrete, cover up the grass
Roads ain’t goin’ nowhere, and concrete never lasts.
They buildin’ tall apartments, reachin’ to the sky
Buildin’ tall apartments, reachin’ to the sky
Don’t need no apartment, if I want to get up high.
They stringin’ words together, tryin’ to build a song
Stringin’ words together, tryin’ to build a song
Not sure what they’re saying, but I think that they are wrong.
They say the rain is comin’, better hide inside
Cold hard rain is comin’, better hide inside
Think I’ll just wait for sunshine, cuz I ain’t gonna hide.
They say there’s global warming, world’s gonna melt away
Say we got global warming, world’s gonna melt away
Oh but I ain’t gonna worry, meltin’ takes a couple days.
Yeah, They stringin’ words together, tryin’ to build a song
Stringin’ words together, tryin’ to build a song
Not sure what they’re saying, but I think that they are wrong.
They say that I need money, in order to survive
Say that I need some money, in order to survive
I don’t have no money, and I think I’m still alive.
And they say you gotta find a woman, if you want a happy life
Yeah you gotta find a woman, if you want a happy life
Well I think I’m pretty happy, and I don’t have no wife.
Yeah, They stringin’ words together, tryin’ to build a song
Stringin’ words together, tryin’ to build a song
Not sure what they’re saying, but I think that they are wrong.
They buildin’ roads out of concrete, cover up the grass
Buildin’ roads out of concrete, cover up the grass
Roads ain’t goin’ nowhere, and concrete never lasts.
Phil Lindsey, April 15, 2015
May 16, 2015
May 16, 2015 at 4:36 PM UTC
Writing is all I got it brings out the best in me
They are just written words that shouldn't hurt
Explaining the vision or saying how I truly feel
I've explored aspects of my life I coped late
Never made time to feel but did have so much buildin up in my mind. It's like a wall blocking others out but realized I was blocking myself in
Many times I think what I could've done different
What's done is done it's too late focus on now
The past is behind you the moment has passed
Never too late to tie those lose ends or finish projects that needed to be touched up long ago
Tired of feeling numb and ignoring my emotions no more living in denial been going on for way too long
Mar 16, 2013
Mar 16, 2013 at 5:55 AM UTC
"REST IN PEACE JEREMY"
gettin to this money in a jiffy like how when i got a ****** not on no gay **** thats my **** a ***** an blunt for drinkin the next case away...
sittin in a unrealed owners name lamborgini makin money 10 babies 1k horse power between my legs an a job to do...
5 milly in a day vp money across this nation top 100 business in the world i fly in jets not legal yet they says its a payed to me test...
now im speaking a language i ain spoke in a minute because anywhere i go standing on top the biggest buildin everything i see is mine...
they always been on my **** since birth i dont know why on ****** on my life seen death shed a tear moved on never looked back since...
i know im the best because of what ive written when an why an what happend right after that in 100 years you might find out...
jiffy widda sticky blicky on the dome keep my name out ya mouth im from the north east an south the real west central...
my boi terror spittin out a new whip his speech a precident makin you ****** competit an go extinct...
i dont give a **** what color you are the money around me turn you to a jew an im the ferror out chea...
z-pac
Mar 13, 2019
Mar 13, 2019 at 6:22 PM UTC