it's been around ten months since:

1. our last moments of conversation.
2. the last time I'd wait, eager for love clarification.
3. one last glance at the love of my life.
4. I'm sorry I haven't gotten you out of my head.
5. you smelled like cigarettes & lust.
6. true love is something I can't forget.
7. nothing compares to your eyes.
8. I certainly wish you'd take me back.
9. hoping the memories rock your bed.
10. months since I left your heart, I cry.

I'm alive as much as the next person,
although talk is cheap to explain this.

thick & thin, my caramel skin is the same,
cold easily, sometimes warm,
lately it's been a mix of both.

maybe I'm out of my mind or you're lacking one,
perhaps we're both caught in the moment,
insanity brings the worst out of both of us,
let's just admit defeat & lay it to bed,
before I mess with the bullet.

I'm confident we're both lost for words.

blank kisses of no expression,
wicked thrills & lacking translation,
a smoke full of glory and passionate mist,
a half-hearted I love you with a hint of disgust.

I beg of you, shallow man, vain girl,
since when is attraction only seen?

can't you see the passion of someone's heart,
or the lack of selfishness in his gentle eyes?

a beautiful face, in time it will fade,
but a heart of gold, will stand the test of life,
more than cashmere words & silky lies.

I beg of you, love of mine, oh sweet divine,
since when do I not shine like stars in your eyes?

can't you see the kindness within my heart,
or the willingness to love you unconditionally,
whether in sight or blind?

a beautiful appearance can soon be faded,
but a love deep like the ocean cannot be seen,
yet it can be felt in the depths of your heart.

think of this before you break my heart,
and before you think of loving someone else.

erasing you from my head is the hardest task.
I could wash my skin with rubbing alcohol,
and burn my eyes with chemical bleach,
you'd still be in my bluntly put dreams.

wash out my mouth with soap, cut my silk
wounds to bits, I will always love you,
even in death and holy eternity.

true love is exactly this; devotion until broke.

I took a deep breath as you walked on by,
my emotions continued to collide like the street signs.
I'll get lost and find comfort in broken zones,
these echoes of lonely I'll call my home.
can't forgive a touch so cold & mean,
can't touch a soul of empty words,
I seek comfort in truth until I perish to dust.

you consumed my brain, took a bullet for me,
I slipped into a coma of bliss & now I paid the price,
ticking times are pulling me close,
intoxicate me with your building lust,
let me be your departed, non broken-hearted,
you're the poison on my lips,
the alcohol in my glass,
got your name up in lights,
the one who sets me off.

there's no greater feeling than love
if only it wasn't so unrequited.

Desire runs in constellation for you,
like the stars explore the galaxy.

wrapped in temptation's trap, I hear myself step,
I seem to fall heavy under your kiss.
imagine us, sheet covers & coffee at 4AM plus.
intoxicated madness, I'm in love with your crazy,
take me into your fortress of seductive dusk.
one woman lust for another of my kind,
I want you to be mine, take my hand.

comfort and tangle me into your web of histories,
cover me in the sheets of truth's lies & insanity.

I haven't touched a drop in months,
alcohol was the least of my problems though.

bullet-cut habits and finely made shoes,
those were the days of youth.

lies are so pretty, I fall each time as hard,
your words are cheap but I appreciate each one,
simply because I adore your wicked smile.

either you're Satan in disguise or the mighty God of love,
because I'm falling under way too fast.