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Jul 2018 Japanesekid

Hunger ~

Jul 2018 Japanesekid

The Vault

Hunger ~

Pain
That is all I can feel
I want to eat
But how can I when my mind tells me not too
That that food will make me fat.
So I look at it
Say I deserve the pain
I talk to people
But I keep thinking they are lying
That they are just trying to make me feel better

Pain
and I know it can **** me
I know the effects
I know what I am doing
And my brain says
That this will make me happy

Pain
and that is all there is
I want to stop it.
But who said I didn't deserve it.

#hunger #pain #anorexia #mental #abuse #dying #lose

Jul 2018 Japanesekid

Birthday List

Jul 2018 Japanesekid

Lily

Birthday List

When kids write their birthday lists,
They want the newest Iphone,
A certain brand of jeans,
Or the best Jordans.
Is this what growing up is,
The moment you realize those
Things don’t matter?
Because if I made a true
Birthday list now, I would want
World peace
An end to world hunger
A way to make college more affordable
Better patience with those I love
A way to deal with my insomnia
A man to hold and cherish for life
And for the world to have more compassion
And destroy all traces of hatred.
I wish I could stop all my worrying;
I wish I could write birthday lists like I used to.

#birthday #list #growingup #change #grow #compassion #worry #anxiety #hatred #love

Mar 2018 Japanesekid

Why?

Mar 2018 Japanesekid

Connor

Why?

I stayed in bed today
Because I was scared
of how other people
would see me.

I fear how the
world sees me.

I want to be seen
For who I am
And who I want to be,
Not who I am told to be.

That is no life
Worth living.

Our parents are
There to guide us
Not dictate us
And neglect our needs.

So why do they act like
we're dangerous to ourselves?

We may not always know
Exactly who we are, but
They don't always know either.
What does age have to do with it?

Refuse to be
Someone you're not.

Stand up to false reality!
Stand up for your beliefs!
Be who you are and step into the
shoes you were meant to fill!

Explanation: I'm trans, but my mom just thinks its the infamous teenage hormones.

#fucksociety #riseup #myshot #pride

Mar 2018 Japanesekid

Noose

Mar 2018 Japanesekid

Duzy

Noose

No one can know your pain
Not nearly as well as yourself
But the rope won't take it away
It just gives it to someone else

#rope #pain #suicide #death #misery #noose #blah

Mar 2018 Japanesekid

The dark

Mar 2018 Japanesekid

Storm Raven

The dark

Many people fear the dark,

But there is nothing out there

Nothing to be afraid of

The darkness is safe

For as in the darkness you don't have to hide

You don't have to lie

For there are no judging eyes

#afraid #dark #darkness #hiding #safe #fears

Mar 2018 Japanesekid

Steps

Mar 2018 Japanesekid

Grand Piano

Steps

Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling

You know how when you’re not ok but you try so hard to pretend you’re ok that it becomes a ritual

#pain #depression #smile #breathe

Jan 2018 Japanesekid

Starting a new day

Jan 2018 Japanesekid

Ella

Starting a new day

You know that feeling when you can smile again and mean it?
It takes you over like a wave in motion
You get this feeling that everything is going to be alright

You feel that you can do anything now and that you're not limited by anyone

It's the best feeling of all, to finally feel a new
Like nothing has ever happened
And you're just about to start everything
You have complete control and nothing will stop you from completely starting a-new

#hope #light #day #death #sad #sadness #happy #perfect #amazing

Jan 2018 Japanesekid

I promise

Jan 2018 Japanesekid

Harry Velez

I promise

I promise to love you,
I promise to care,
I promise to hold you when no one is there,
Promise to respect you and put you first ,
I promise to kiss were ever it hurts,
I promise I’m yours so promise your mine,
And I promise to love you till the end of time

Jan 2018 Japanesekid

Falling for you

Jan 2018 Japanesekid

Andy Cave

Falling for you

Your smile takes my breath away
your eyes they glisten like the suns rays.
You are so beautiful, so perfect it's true
and now I slowly am falling for you.
I can't hide these things I feel,
no I cannot keep my heart conceiled,
it beats so fast when you come near
my haze is lifted and I see clear.
I now feel happy without sorrow,
and now look forward towards tomorrow.

Jan 2018 Japanesekid

I Wish You Wanted To Come Back

Jan 2018 Japanesekid

Justin Case

I Wish You Wanted To Come Back

Everyday I think of ways to get you back.
Ways that would make you smile,
Ways that would make you sad,
Ways that would make you regret, and
Ways that would make you feel guilty.

Everyday I think that maybe if you just saw me, everything would go back to normal.
Maybe if I just showed up to your house one night and knocked on your window,
Then you would see how much I still love you.
I could hold you in my arms again to show you what it feels like to be held by someone who loves you more than themself.

But I know that wouldn't help.
It would just make things worse.
Because I don't want you back if you're only here because you feel bad for me.
I want you back because you love me and can't live without me.

But now I know that you can live happily without me.
Too bad I can't live without you.