You needed a boat for self discovery
guided me to a cherished recovery
yes, I healed but you broke me again
Left me how you found me, in pain...
My pulse is raising.
Sweat appears in my palms.
My fingertips are turning ice cold.
And so, follows the rest of my body.
I keep asking myself why?
But I can never seem to settle on a proper answer.
It´s an unlike pain,
that doesn´t physically hurt.
An immense trembling
that touches every nerve,
of my wrecked system.
It´s something that I can never understand.
I cannot quite grasp,
what my body is trying to tell me.
I´m forcing myself to insanity.
The sight of you makes me happy.
When you call me by my nickname,
It makes my heart flutter.
When you tease me,
I seek for more.
Am I completely wrecked by you?
It is sad that I don't have chances for you too.
The sight of you with kids,
Makes me fall more.
Is this a chance to forget my bunny?
Wrote this long time ago though. Kinda sequel for the previous one.
All beyond reaches of our own
Stretch of sea, land of the deep
In deathly still waves
Carried the weight of prophecy
Wrecked ship, so as I
Syphoned by the time
Pitch black in heart of sea
In this river of abyss, wake of sorrow
Darkness shrouds our being
Colors of my soul stolen
Fading, further and farther
From my spirit
Drowning into your darkness
As I gaze into abyss
And gaze upon mine
See no reflection
But drowned to your eyes
It's a wrecked persona who let himself find his love in the midst of sea with his shipwreck, so is he. It's about facing the truth that love cannot be found, it finds you.
How do you still not understand?
Could never forget the life we enjoyed
You are a storm wreaking continuous havoc
With a single breath I am left destroyed
Every petal you touch gets wrecked
Hurts too bad to endure another round
Fingers feel like lightning burning my skin
Even removed tingled where your hand wrapped around
Do you ever get that electric feeling whenever someone you love takes their hand away? Almost like a phantom hand is still there?
I once was found
But now I am lost
Took a wrong turn
Got my signals crossed
Used to know who I was
Now I don't have a clue
My world's been flipped
Since I first met you
My life was planned out
I had a grand vision
Now it's been wrecked
By our reckless collision
But I'd rather be lost
On this wild ride
Than find all I desire
Without you by my side
PAD Poem-A-Day Challenge November 2018
Write a lost poem. Or…
Write a found poem. Or...
currently in a battle with a dream
I have not expected to be this hard,
to be this complicated & mind-wrecking
until I realized, I'm trapped
trapped inside a prison cell
fighting for glory without strength, without drive
I'm beginning to feel my flesh, my soul
gradually turning black, burning down
this is not what I wanted, what I wished for
maybe this is not for me
i'm failing, falling too many times,
too tired to get up again and again
years passed, this is the last
I wonder if I am to escape atlast
before the time ticks too fast,
that I'll perish into bones and pass
I’m sorry I never seemed to care enough
You gave me nothing but love
Maybe I was scared,
Scared of what it was.
I know I wasn’t just a complete wreck,
You always showed me through your smile
If only we could just go back in time
I might just have you for a while.
Thank you so much for all the precious moments,
For those I could never pay you back.
And for never giving up on me
It was I who changed all that.
I’m sorry you wrecked your car that night
You made sure I was safe and sound
I can’t seem to get you off my mind lately
I could only dream to see you around
You treated me like nothing but a queen.
Even tucked me into bed one night,
I just wish you were in my life right now
It hurts to lose you out of sight.
I always try to come off strong and independent
But even you have seen me cry.
I’m so confused with life right now,
So I end up on a plane somehow
Hoping that my scattered thoughts will clear up on their own.
It began so simply.
and talked at work.
You unburdened yourself
in between hours
caring for others.
I was younger then,
less aware how
the world worked,
how feelings can
carry away, how long
a simple day.
We started meeting
outside of work:
you making excuses
to your husband then,
meeting in a park
or some night-time cafe,
far far away.
away in London
or at that seaside town
sitting on the beach,
watching the sea
with simple chat,
watching gulls in flight,
walking the streets
It began so simply:
and in the end,
beyond our scope,
like some leaking vessel,
let in water of reason
and seeing it sinking,
wanted it over,
My tarnished ideals,
Heavy on my heart
And filled to the brim
It sweeps through my veins.
Leaving me wrecked,
Lost in dreams
The kisses of memory
A hazy shimmering world.
I’ll lose myself in the mists.
Emerging, filled with fire.