talking, talking, talking— radio silence the space that nothingness fills is almost violent yelling, yelling, yelling— something's working uncovering ugly truths that have been lurking crying, crying, crying— because it's broken there is just too much that we let go unspoken
hey, hi, hello —this is your life, the view is vaguely familiar out of the passenger seat window, two years of autopilot isn't generally recommended— the mind can time travel or so it thinks unannounced comings and goings, quiet reintroductions occur daily as to alarm no one of your departure
Can be read top down or bottom up
"Most people I know live their lives moving in a constant forward direction, the whole time looking backward" –How to Live Safely in a Science Fictional Universe by Charles Yu
I can’t confess! So why do I try? I swear I am going to die. It’s not a lie. Who can I go to? Parents no theirs not connection there so they won’t just be silent and bear all things I have to share. I have no close friends. My brothers don’t care and no one will hear. So I am here bleeding my hurt to you. My precious note pad. Thanks for listening, and never turning away. You soak up my tears and hide my fears. I compose on you and you never would tell another. But how I wish you were a person. For then the situation wouldn’t worsen. And you could recite to me the boldness of my past. You could tell me my success and hold me though I felt like I was dirt. And indeed I am. Nothing beyond that. Thanks for trying though it’s nice to at least get off me and on to you. You bear so much thanks but I wish for a human touch. My heart is broke but without that I have no crutch. Oh well this is life and I have to wait for it to end so that pain can die.
Don’t plead like Biebs Timbaland was right Too late for "sorry" Can’t erase the blight Your apologies Might seem polite But all your white lies Have been brought to light Selfish transgressions Brought this plight Upon your own life Despite the height Of your own success Now it seems so trite As they kick you out Into the cold, dark night
Mistakes explode Like dynamite As your life ignites Failures burn so bright Crashing down in fury Dead meteorite You feel the pain Your enemies delight Nowhere to hide Your shame in plain sight
Adrenaline surging Now it’s fight or flight So just take a sec Sit down, rewrite Reset your future Set yourself upright Your values and actions Gotta reunite Redemption’s hard No way to expedite It’s gonna hurt But hang in tight