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Nicole Feb 2019
What an ironic place of mind
When something I've wanted for awhile
Finally presents itself
And I'm overwhelmed so intensely
By anxiety and sadness

How long have I hoped to meet up?
How many times had I mentioned coffee?
Yet here I am
Three days before I see you
For the first time in a year and a half
And I feel so sad

It's as though
I am finally mourning the loss
Of someone who was my best friend
Finally letting myself feel about you
All of the things I've repressed

It has been a long time
We both must be so different now
What would that mean for this?
Do we meet up once
Play a game of catch up
Then resume the path of strangers?
Or do we try to be friends again
And run the risk of pain and heartache?

Does our intense shared anxiety
At just the sight of each other
Signal a similar message
A similar desire within us both?
Or am I stuck within a fantasy
Lying to myself that this could work
That you could be in my life again

We were not made to be lovers
And I don't believe in happenstance
I do think we came together for a reason
Just as we've become reconnected now
The city may be small
But this has to be more than coincidence
You were my best friend back then
And I know I hurt you deeply
But part of me hasn't stopped believing
That our lives staying connected
Is something that's meant to be

And I know that
When I'm sitting anxiously in my car
Outside the cafe where we're set to meet
Thoughts racing faster than my heart beats
I'll have to fully prepare myself
To find out that you disagree
Eloisa Feb 2019
Regrets, clouds of doubt
Random mistakes, broken vows
This uncertainty
Worry less my dear, don’t fear
I’d take your hand, please take mine
Lia Feb 2019
the fire burns
flickering in the cold winter's night
and you see the reflection
of someone you had lost
or someone
who had lost you

you could never really be sure
whether the bright flickering flame
held only an illusion
or whether
it was truly burning you up inside
Eloisa Feb 2019
I am already torn
Scared of what is in store
Deep uncertainty was born suddenly
Unexplained feelings in a rush
Shivers swiftly came
Oh please, spare me once
Elizabeth Feb 2019
Can I be honest?
I don’t like sharing a bed with anyone.
I like a clean house.
A clean kitchen.
A clean sink.
My favourite chip is jalapeño cheddar and if given a first choice on a pizza topping I will choose pineapple.
I’m a light sleeper.
Very competitive.
Overly stubborn.
But I like hearing opinions that differ from my own.

Can I be honest?
It’s been a really long time
since I felt like I deserved anything.  
When we start to get close I will sabotage it.
An embarrassment of possibly feeling comfortable.
Undeserving.
Putting ourselves out there to be judged by no one.
They’ve long gone home,
Marriages and diapers.
We’re at that age.
We’re an afterthought.
Our life isn’t their prime time.

Can I be honest?
I want someone to go to concerts with.
Build a campfire and burn ever log with.
Be silly and lose track of time with.
I want to call to tell you nothing new but just to hear your voice.
I don’t think cinema love is real but that brief moments exist.
When everything feels comfortable,
And our love is warm like a sunset.
“I’m looking for someone to share those moments.” She said.

But there’s a demon on her shoulder.
It’s empty eyes gaze intently into his as it’s voices weigh heavy on her spine.
She turns around to see him.
Someone familiar, imperfect.
Unable to move she asks him his name
Breaking the demons gaze he answers and asks for the story of how she got here.
“Can I be honest?” She said.
“Yes.” He said.
Kd Pascual Feb 2019
Busy streets, Noisy sirens
People rushing, dreams dying
A life of passion and perfection,
where did it go?

Fallen into an endless pit,
The world has swallowed
a young man's hope. To survive,
he merely lives  to live.

But in between the anxiety
and weariness, whispered a still
small voice saying, "Rest in Me,"
in the mundane and in the unexpected.

He knew then that it's in these short gasps,
and fleeting seconds of idleness
that he found rest, and that was enough
for him to press on and continue.
Savy Jan 2019
i don't talk about you anymore

i often wonder whether they can tell
that i'm telling but not all
that i'm hiding behind my smiles and time tables
and that you're still on my mind

am i a fool?
am i kidding myself enough for the both of us?
did you not have to do anything in the end
because i lied to myself enough
did i do your work for you?

it doesn't hurt me anymore, you know
I lie
but seeing your face so distorted makes my hands shake
and hearing your voice, destroyed, beaten
makes my heart ache
and feeling my blood run faster makes me angry
and in general something in me feels like it'll break

you can't make me run like this anymore
you can't continue making me feel this way anymore
i'm hurting and i'm yearning, but worst of all
I'm hoping
for you to turn around, for you to clear the fog, for you to finally respond
for you. to come back the way you left

abruptly. unexpectedly. quietly. quickly.
AE Jan 2019
If the world was a stage and I was a play-write:

The wind: It was a musician, the muse of a heartbeat and whistling was its charm.

The leaves: The companions of the wind, they were the strings of the guitar. Dancing towards oblivion.

The flowers: They were the painters. A vision was their purpose. They played with colours and mystery.

The sun: It was the stage light, as it glowed upon the sounds of music in the air, the surface of the leaves, and gave life to all the trees.

The stars: They were the show stoppers, dancing in the sky. Revelling in the attention from the eyes of the observer.

The moon: The shy wonder of the night, sometimes barely visible. As it timidly sets the stage for another afternoon.

And lastly,

You: With a thousand stories to tell you’re in thousands of places at once. Looking for mountains to climb and things to design. You’re curious and too quick, never on the stage but merely an observer, but secretly you’re the whole show.


There are a thousand stories to tell,
So I’ll tell you a secret to this mysterious show
The script is blank, the pages clear white
And every minute new words appear
For I am merely following sentimental alliances
Just an observer watching as the future becomes clear.
Sarah Jan 2019
when things seem too good to be true
life screams, "don't get too comfortable," at me
it echoes
i'm reminded again and again
an endless loop
you can never get too comfortable.
the screams of life get quieter here and there
but they're always there
reminding you when you need to hear it,
"don't get too comfortable."
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