I love you
I will always love you
I will love you until I die
And if there is life after that
I will love you still.

andrew.
i fall to my knees at his feet with a heavy breath.
i almost feel unworthy.
this person, this man-
he's perfection in flesh and blood.
i feel blessed.
this angel, a saint with flaws, perfect flaws.
i nearly worship him.
godlike, i search his face for signs of light, anything celestial or close to it.
i find them faintly, small, unnoticeable to anyone who's wronged him.
he is perfect, and somehow, he is mine.

Love me.
Never have I said such words so explicitly.
For who I am, the mess that I am.
Never have I admitted how weak I am.
As a human being, as your friend.
Never have I been so in touch with my emotions.

Tell me that you'll have my back whenever I mess up.
Never have I been brave enough to trust someone else.
Tell me that you'll always be there for me, when we are happy or sad.
Never have I put down the mask of a smile when I am in company.
Tell me that I am enough, not too bad and not too good.
And never, never have I felt just right.

It was always 'If you do this right, I'll appreciate you.'
It was always 'If you help me, I'll give you a hand.'
It was always 'If you love me, I'll love you back.'
I have nothing else to offer, this is who I am now.
You can take it or leave it, and I won't beg you to stay.
Because in the end, love is a choice, and I can't ask you to love me.

I sit here, four years later, and I know in my heart we will end up together. For now, I must simply endure until I finally inherit the day where I can look into your eyes and see my "reflection" once more.

You have all my "also's"...and you always will.

She has
forest eyes
that you’ll
get lost
and
found in.