I smile* As you yell in my face I laugh After you push me down I skip When you want me to lay down and cry I love myself Even though you've told me for year no one would ever love me I stare in the mirror Despite you trying to make me hate how I look I enjoy life Regardless of the fact you pushed me to the point were I was going to take it away from myself
I smile Though all I've wanted to do some times is cry I laugh When I really just want to just ball up and die I skip Even though I live with a monster's voice in my head telling me I'm not good enough I love myself After all the years that it took me to get to this point I stare in the mirror Even though I can still hear your voice feel you hands I enjoy life Because I don't know when it'll all be over and I want to enjoy it now that I've decided to have it And I refuse to let my past,YOU Take that from me Because you've already taken so much
I was once an innocent girl Until this one man came into my life I fell in love with his charisma And learned how to live a lie. With piercing eyes and a charming smile He introduced himself as loveable Hard not to believe him Even though I could sense trouble. He taught me to deceive And to live in the moment When he put his hands on me The rest of the world became my opponent. Learning his ways were easy There really wasn't much to it Just think of it as temporary Then forget that you went through it.. Half way believe your own lies As you spit them out By telling yourself it's possible, Make it believable without doubt. You must think of everything Every question that may arise Rehearse it all in your head So you are never caught by surprise
today i feel weak and small today small problems become big my brain is so full i can hardly speak today* i’m batteling my mind fighting the pain trying to survive with teary eyes and an aching heart
Off we go to the torture of our souls We twist and turn at the thought of what awaits The dumping of all this knowledge into our bowls And the life you lived is now bundled into dates The darkened nights of despair as you rack your brain for a reason A reason for why you try so hard You will not find out until the end of the your season That all this pain is a good way of being scarred You must navigate your way through this place Find the people you love and hold tight Find a passion that you will chase Only then will you be lead out of this misery, into the light
holding on too tight too weak to hold on any longer finger by finger hope by slipping hope there's nothing left to keep me up slipping away from your grasp and mine nothing left behind falling forever i left nothing behind me there was nothing to leave a carcass dropping floating down the corpse is empty she hasn't survived so why ask? ask if she's alright? can you not see? she never survived the push she never survived the pain she never survived the fall.
I see poets, And read poems, I can't understand, Why I understood, In words I wished to write, Yet never once I truly wrote; But darkness and brightness, Are honestly meaningless, Because I'm surviving, And not living.
