People are laughing all around me,
But not at me.
So why am I struggling to breathe?
Why do my thoughts swirl in a storm
And disappear before I can understand them?
Why do they buzz and scream their static,
If I'm the only one that hears it?
Blackened water laps at my feet,
And I have nowhere else to go.
No one here cares,
No one hears my silent cries.
But if I scream the static gets louder.
Rises so shrill that my brain will shatter
And I will collapse.
The water is rising,
And prying eyes are furrowing their brows.
The looks are shouting,
"What the hell is wrong with you?"
. . .
I don't know.
I take deep breaths.
I count to ten.
But all I can think about is the water.
I'm shivering now.
Freezing water seeping through my skin,
Onto my bones.
Can anyone see me shake?
Do you see the pools of tears,
In the vast ocean of my eyes?
My lungs are compressed,
And I'm suffocating.
Stop looking at me that way!
Stop silently judging me,
Your down turned mouths shout,
"Why are you always like this?"
. . .
I don't know.
The water is at my chin,
But I can't take my final breath,
Can't move my frozen limbs
I am drowning.
Deeper.
D
E
E
P
E
R
Drowned.
Cold.
Dark.
All is still.
. . .
Help me.
I can't swim.
