the soft, hot, crimson blood
runs down her soft hand
it burns like hellfire
but that fire fuels her feelings
and her glittery eyes will tell you
she can’t feel anything anymore

your adrenaline pumps
you feel like you’re dead
but the scars she made
will stay with her
even after death.

     [ l.s. ]

cig by cig
              i am
                     taking
                             my life away

           one cig at a time
one pulse at a time

so long souvenirs
useless memories
/ red /scars and bruises

What if you let go
and fall through

Will you watch me
fall apart?

What consumes me
Makes me bleed

You can see these
feelings,looking
through the glass.

And tell me,How
do you hide the shame
The crowded streets
seem so quiet

You dont have to try
then you won't have to feel
How can you see,Why

I hide behinde these walls
it's all i've got,memories
left broke,scars never disapear

Afraid the days behinde me
will break me,Afraid to fight.
Hide behinde my walls

Maybe nevers,Something more
than mistakes,Tell me who i'm not.

Live life,like it's all you've got!

Too much has
faded
and I can no longer
see.

A warmth tickles my skin
yet
I can't help but
shiver.

Have you noticed?

The thought of piercing my
skin
excites me
and
I'm realizing now.

I'm sick.

Too much has changed
why does so much
feel so
wrong.

I can see it now,
blood,
staining my skin,
ridges,
permanent.

Let me just take a moment
to step out of my mind
and count my lucky stars
That you can't see my eternal scars
That you've left on my sanity
Through the clouded view
Of your own vanity

So as you feel justified
Mixing your "love" with your lies
I'll gladly choke down that cocktail
Just to satisfy your pride
Right before throwing it all up
What I've kept inside

I'd really like to see things from your point of view
Anything really just to make this last
But the only thing I cannot do
Is get my head that far up my ***

He caresses her palms so often
And kisses her on the forehead
The way she likes since her parents
Never gave her the love she wanted;
It's as if he could erase the scars
That has been permanently carved
Inside of her for so long.
As each kiss lands on her skin
She forgets the the wounds are so deep; his touch is strong but it is tender and with each graze
Her pain starts to wash away.

no one wants you when you're dying. i made friends with the moon so that i would never feel that 3 in the morning loneliness again. you are the only thing i love that doesn't hurt me. sometimes i wonder if you laugh when you leave me because you know that if love were a game, you would be winning. i feel like i'm on a plane about to crash, but i don't care because you're holding my hand. once upon a time you held me tight enough to leave bruises and now that you're gone, they're all i have left. i pace the upstairs of my house for 33 minutes like i'm looking for something that i lost, and in a sense i am. when i talk to you, i ask myself "what's the point" and i've been searching for an answer since before i can remember. you paint pictures onto the parts of my walls that are cracked and bruised. you're making it beautiful as you tear it down. i am a forest fire and you are a rainstorm, and i want you to put me out.
you're my home but you keep leaving.