I want to be selfish,
so that I can finally satisfy myself
from the prolonged longing
inside my lonesome heart.

I want to seize you,
so I can finally feel
the happiness i dreamt of
from fourteen years ago.

I want to own you,
so that I will finally know
the magic that your touch can do.

I want you all by myself
because I love you with all my heart.

Yet, at the same time...
all the while,
I thought, I figured
what I really want.

I want to be selfless,
so that I can finally know
what it is like
to sacrifice.

I want to let go of you
so that I can finally
let you out
to breath.

I want to forget you
so I can finally feel free
of the ache from fourteen years ago.

I want you to be free,
because I love you with all that I've got!

I can no longer be the only one,
The only one that loves you
You have to love yourself too

Not Here

came across a thought yesterday
   that said i was not here
saw it    don't believe it    no sir no
   i wonder what is real
  
the nations are a figment
   of thought in mind alone
yet here i live in a country
   imagining it my home
  
called a god to witness
   what i thought was truly true
no answer came but clear clear thought
   it's only me and you
   it's only me and you
  
saw a spirit yesterday
   forty years ago
was he heaven   was he hell
   maybe you will know
  
this time i am a breathin
   was this the only one
remember me from long ago
   mother   daughter   son
  
called a lake a river
   called the darkness light
been to hell and back again
   we are the only ones
   we are the only ones

A different color
Is what I see
No one else
Only me

A different color
Is in my eye
Bright enough
To make me cry

We lay in the bed
My red singlet was all that was between the warmth of our skin
It had white polka dots on it
Do you remember?
The scent of you in the bedding was like heaven to my mind
I was in the place I had dreamt of being time and time again
This was it
This was real
We could finally be
I had began to doubt that love could ever be between two souls so incredibly lost
I felt the roughness of your hand slide over my abdomen
I so badly wanted to take that hand to places I'd never had hands before
We didn't know what love was
Having not been taught by those supposedly near
Confusion
****** anguish
Fear
I knew you were afraid
I could feel the fear you held
It was based around being afraid of hurting me
I only wonder now
Had you hurt someone before?
Or was it you who was hurt?
Within your soul the pain was evident
I didn't sleep a wink that night
I didn't want to miss a moment of your arms around me
Your warmth against me at last
The safety and security I had been without was finally within
It was love
My first love
I miss that
I know what I miss is more than an idea
More than a perception
I wonder if you miss that too.

dah dah dah dah

see you in the morning sunlight
see you naked by the door
saw you last night in the moonlight
you're the one yes i adore

doesn't matter who calls who babe
even if there's such thing more
dreaming of you in the moonlight
only till i see you more

dah dah dah dah
dah dah dah dah

no place else to go my sweet love
now's enough for me and you
call it freedom of the soul love
sweetest love just me and you

doesn't have to last forever
here and now is us happy
whatever's left of our pleasure
a piece of heaven for us seen

dah dah dah dah
dah dah dah dah