You have no sympathy
as rumours flee
Spotlight's on
and facts act accordingly

Simplicity shows less shadow

Is it more just to be
As the price for the free
holds levels of uncertainty
Value your integrity
It is more to be just

Mother I want to go out
You are my true friend
But where the dogs are
They bark and howl
I once strolled the sold out stores
Where no cold fog settled on the windows
I shall come back to stave away rainy splores again
There will be no heat left in summer
To water the clouds in monsoon
To wail in the forked night
Who feels dour now
As we drink to our evanescent escape
Or face the fire on the final hour
Merely existing
Maybe, as deadly whirpools
As the wind rakes in the leaves now
As autumn warmth decomposes
Wasting into an unbridled heat
The azure skies seemed beautiful yet irate
None compare to my favourite
Red dusky light in anticipation
Every evening for a lonely winter
As summer moves in evanescence
The year looks older with seasons

It was a Saturday,
the 16th i guess.
The last time
you held me in your arms
so safe and sound
like you wouldn't let go
Even if the strongest force on earth
Were to try and part us
As you gently stroked
The curls of my freshly washed hair
watching the summer zephyr fly by
As we dawdled around
One last time
Until the next last time
Waiting for the rain to bless us
With all those memories again
that were now etched in
those paths we used to travel upon.
And like all the previous farewells,
You said your bit once again
And i shed a tear or two
as we both said our saccharine goodbyes
And i forgot to gift you your letter away
The one i had handcrafted
to be one of the souvenirs
of our little rendezvous we had from time to time,
unaware, that that may be the last one ever.

It was a Saturday,
The 16th i guess.
A year had passed by
And your name still came out of my mouth
Like the sweetest honey dripping out
While i mindlessly shared conversations about you
To the strangers out there in the wild
as they told me to stop loving you,
that i could only love so much
till it consumes me
In its unfair nature.
But oh darling,
If you only knew
It was your love that kept me going
On the most difficult of my days,
As i stared at that letter i never gave you
Long enough for your ghost
to come by and soothe me
with a voice so tranquil
One so similar to yours.
And oh darling ,
If you only knew
That i looked for your love
in our hackneyed texts
And your one word replies
a love that never existed
But seemed so real to me
That it became a drug
I would devour
every second of every day.

It’s a Saturday.
Saturday the 16th.
It has been 2 years
since i have last thought about
Your pearl like pretty eyes
and a smile so warm-
Just Like those homemade brownies
I used to bake for myself
Every time you left me heartbroken
As i ate away the pain
Till I could eat no more.
And oh darling,
It’s time i finally tell you
That today is the last time
I Ever think about you,
That you no longer remain my idol
The one i looked up to for love
Because i’ve found someone better,
And that better is me.
So now i say my final goodbyes
As i remove you
from my ‘favourites’ list
And block your number
So i'm not constantly reminded
Of what could've been
And write out my future,
Of what it will be,
Without you.

- happy

Give them no ribbons. My dear friend who was following orders in Vietnam
was blown to bits when he tripped a wire. Give him no ribbons. Ribbons and medals will not bring him back to his wife who is now in her mid-70s, whose two sons and one daughter each have families of their own, but have no Grandpa whose knee to sit on and play games with and just have fun and laugh with. Michael Dillinger went to Iraq to fight because W told him to. Unfortunately, his amored truck hit a road mine and killed Michael instantly.
Ribbons? They gave ribbons to Michael's mother before they buried Michael in Arlington? Ribbons, for God's sake! Did those ribbons and medals really help console Michael's mother? Did Cheney ever call her to see how she was doing? No, he was in charge of creating what he called "enhanced interrogation," a gross euphemism for unspeakable torture and terror that went on at countless, secret camps in the countries of our allies, and still goes on at Guantanamo even today. Give them no ribbons. Take all the ribbons and medals you can find that were given to those soldiers who gave their very lives for lies, for all those soldiers now lying in all the VA hospitals throughout our country, their bodies permanently disfigured, their minds completely lost, and dump that pile of ribbons and medals in the front yard of wherever W lives in the suburbs of Dallas.

Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks

Love is a smile that never fades,
        but is glanced upon

every morning,.

For we are two parts making more
            than a whole..

For one + one isn't two

its a family of more parts than just
                               us both.

Mum he's teasing me,

                             Dad she stole my deodorant...


Were more than when we started..
    for one and more is never the amount

we expect.

As a family is never what you expect it to add up too..

I'm not here for the silver and gold.
I am here to find somebody to hold.
Someone to wrap their arms around me tight
And make me forget it's a cold winter night.
It's been ten years since you stole my heart.
Now look where we are.
We've come so far from the start.
As you lie with me, watching the fire glow,
I still can't believe I'm the one that you chose.
We were friends in a small town,
Then we became something more.
I can't believe i never knew it was you I was waiting for.
We were friends in a small town,
Then you said "I do."
Because of you, I believe that dreams can come true.

I love you kore than words could ever say
I feel it growing in my heart each and every day
All this love I feel
Has never felt so real
You gave me something no one has ever given me
Its something you cannot see
It makes me think of only you
You're so strong, so true
This wonderful feeling you have given me
Makes me want to be with you endlessly
I want to be in your arms each and every day

To feel your warm embrace
It makes me feel so safe from harm
I love to look into your eyes
To look through your disguise
To feel your hands within mine
As our finger gently entwine
Your eyes filler with unconditional love
Your hugs so soft and so sweet
It makes me crave a thousand more
I wonder how your heart keeps a steady beat

Because mine just soars
I love the way you let me know
Just how you appreciate me so
I love how kuch you care
The love you shown me is beyond compare
I love the way you smile secretly
My eyes are kept on you all the while

I love to hear you say okay
You say it at least once a day
I love the way you apologize
Because it makes me realize
That what you did, was done unintentionally
And you still remain

Even though I'm strange
I made myself change
You say I'm right
Everytime I take a flight
I hate to see you mad
I hate to see you sad
It makes me feel so bad

What you feel, I feel
Because i think our love is real
I hate to see your teary eyes
I always have to wonder why?
I'm sorry sometimes I do the things I do
That makes tou feel blue
I am sorry if I hurt you so
My anger I know sometimes it's hard to control
I don't like it when you feel not enough and insecure
Don't worry too much, because I'm sure
That no one can replace you
Because I love you more than words.