"i'm fine,"
said those who hide their faces from their friends
those who force their laughter and fake their smiles
dull eyes

"i don't care,"
said the ones who were mocked endlessly
teased, ridiculed, excluded, demeaned
the taste of tears

"i'm used to it,"
said the ones who can't sleep at night from anxiety
their hearts race in constant fear of the unknown
numb fingertips

"i can handle it,"
said those who stare at their reflection for hours
those who can't stop thinking they're not good enough
distorted faces

"i'm sorry"
said the ones who scratch themselves 'till they bleed
their bitten nails red and painful
dried blood

My brain is moving

a million miles per hour,

though it pleads to stop.

Help me again from this pain,
My heartbeat is beating so fast and
I don't want to feel this way again
My body is shaking and nobody came
No love from others , and my heart always get some stain.

I feel I was in the penitentiary,
Trapped inside a cell,can't find a way to set me free,
I'm alive but I feel I'm dead
Every second of my life I felt I was running in a thread
Those books I read , Still hauntin' my head ,
The Knowledge I received , Is it good or bad?

This panic attacks , Solution is Xanax
Very addictive , but Helps me to relax.
Is this the same way to begin with ?
Or choose "To be Alive or Dead?"

She wants to talk to me, But I don't want to hear her voice
Voice of selfish person that keeps haunting me since I was broken,
Breaking my heart, ripped every piece of my soul.
You're so lucky because you easily found someone else, ******* *****.

And this is what happen to me , every night I keep pushing myself
that I don't really need you anymore ,
Until the years past I completely move on
Now I'm free , I'm better but not completely at all.

Because since you left me , There's a voice inside my head
That keeps telling me life is just a joke and death is the solution.