When you fall in love for the first time You won’t even know it’s happening The dancing streets, heels against cobblestones The glow of the lampposts Things you wouldn’t even whisper You are now ready to exclaim The whole world is spinning and yet It is perfectly still In this great, big universe It is just two sets of eyes And the landmarks we created
The park benches where we were honest for the first time Where you made sure i was okay before we got up The truth can do that to you - Knock the wind out of your sails
Or the first time we touched each other on purpose I linked your arm with mine And i could feel the stars burning above us And the moon sneaking a glance As we ‘forgot’ all about it And you walked me home
The first time i went to that pizza place I only joined you because we had things to discuss Not for your company, why of course not With every laugh It became harder to think of a reason that i hated you in the first place
I thought only i experienced the clock ticking slower Every second you weren’t with me But the calls and the texts And the exasperated “where were you”s put that all to rest
So i made the leap And served my heart on a silver platter Full, beating and red And i watched you watch it beat blue and gasp
But now time doesn’t seem to pass at all when we’re together And everytime we’re alone we wait for someone to join us; our desperate eyes search, pleading with anyone to end our suffering I watch you when i used to run to you And i miss you when i see you every single day
I love you But i can’t do this anymore We can’t even pretend to be friends properly I remember what you said Believe me, every word But I felt us that night We saw each other for the first time I don’t think I’ve ever had that with anyone And despite what you say I don’t think you have either
Strangers think we’re in love Your friends and my friends Steal glances every time we look at each other We weren’t alone It felt like it was just us But everyone got to witness The way we were I didn’t stop smiling for three months
I miss you I miss your honesty I was trying to break down a wall And you threw open the gates Now i can’t even see the wall anymore
I’m on the outside looking in Losing what we had was hard enough I wasn’t prepared to lose you as a friend I don’t think i’ll ever be but we haven’t been friends for ages So who are we kidding I knew this didn’t need a dramatic close You don’t need me to take a bow
So I was ready to watch you from afar Having you in my rearview was better than not having you at all But just as I take my first breaths You hook yourself on And I have to learn all over again
I refuse to do this anymore We are not friends You didn’t have to admit anything because i wasn’t prepared to lose you But it’s time For this ship to sail You are losing me.
I promise I will be good Don't let anyone steal you from me I will care for us as I should I'm not always close, and I know that is hard But don't let anyone see what I see in you Don't take yourself away from me Because you are the she, the she that makes me complete
Loving me in this world Tied to you, lifting me up Enclosed in a warm balloon of love We can reach the ceiling of the sky I can taste the sun warmed vapour As it flows down your salted skin Kisses, melt the billowing clouds And we ignite in lightning sparks As the world explodes around us I see you, as stars light your eyes I am weightless, but your heart holds me In our floating universal paradise
every night i end up writing something about you- the way your lips moved along with mine to voice our poetries together the way your hands slipped around my waist to lead me through a slow dance the way your eyes twinkled into mine to make me want to write something about them; about you- i don’t want to write about you. i’m done with making you the ink of every phrase i scribble of letting you be the canvas of my artwork it’s like this poem isn’t mine anymore it belongs to you you are the words in it and, you are it’s heart; our heart, It calls for you because, i’m too scared to do it on my own- call for you. i can’t let you have more pieces of me than you already do even though it’s me who’s still holding onto your memories your touch your voice your clothes your scent you. here here is the only place i have you for me it’s like the world goes in a blur and, it’s just you me and us holding onto each other grasping clutching not letting go. but, it’s just me who’s hugging my memories of you grasping, clutching- not letting go. the pen slips my grip your warmth escapes me i did it again. i wrote about you. again. and like every other night tonight I end up writing about you- but i don’t want to.