our lips will never meet
nor our fingers intertwine
and so bless my dreams
for indulging what's not mine

i need to stop
setting myself on fire
to keep you warm.

In a drop of you, I lost an ocean of me.

as vibrant flowers press
their beginnings
up
from the frozen ground
below
i untangle
my body
from
your body
i am the primavera diosa
bringer of new life
destroyer
of what existed
between us
expert
at new beginnings

as ice melts
from the blazing sun
above
i let out a sigh
releasing my feelings
for you
and thawing
the earth
around me
i am the warmest
the softest
thing you will ever
get your hands on

finally deciding
to deal with the
aftermath
of what you
left behind
has been the
single most
difficult
and
rewarding
thing i've done

boys are not to be mistaken for bandages