These days all I got is just me and my idols
They give motivation so I don't fall idle.
My words are a promise so I try not to speak
Never been known to live tongue in cheek

I wanna cry out but I don't wanna cry
I'm alone with myself, yeah so am I
You know I'm not weak, but don't think im strong
Surprise surprise, it's been a mask all along

Don't wanna do this life much more, i'm tapped.
Could make a whole new planet from all this crap.
People often like me and I don't know why
I've always been a loner, always saying goodbye.

Guess I'm stuck in old habits
With a blade to my wrist
The angels on my shoulder saying
"Don't do this."

"I know you're right",
I throw the blade.
Can you get a soul back
If the Devil's paid?

What's it take to get to Hell
Then get the **** back out?

What if I redeemed a soul
Can anyone escape a black hole?

I've got.
3 siblings that I don't even **** know about.
And.
2 siblings, who I'd never wanna live without.
But.
with 5 siblings, I've always been an only child.
Alone in my room, playing with my toys awhile.

I'd.
walk along alone, my thoughts my only company.
Wondering what the world is for, whats the need it has for me.

Confidence, It,
Never really was in me.
But, as I learn me more, It's always been abundant, see.

This pain inside my heart, it's what we call reality.
The life I want to live, lives only inside of me.

Nobody ever saw the saddness that resides in me.
The tears in my heart, they're never gonna dry it seems.

i enjoy being a loner
when i need my silence
but not when i am walking in the streets
snow crunching beneath my feet
and look around, see an empty town
void of any faces, a lack of any hello
that i begin to realize
i don't always enjoy being alone
sometimes i yearn for a hand to hold
i enjoy being a loner
i don't want to die a loner

Don't smile...Nobody loves you
Wait until they ask
Let the inner depressing part of you take over
That is how you really feel
At least then you won't have to smile anymore fake smiles
Now people will actually know what goes on underneath that smile and laughter
You don't belong
You're just a loser, coward, and a selfish piece of trash.
You tried to fit in but it doesn't help
Just live knowing no one would mind if you disappeared
All they do is take advantage of you
They get what they want and ignore you
It's actually pretty exciting knowing that the
world around you is slowly caving in
Yeah I may seem happy,
But this is me


This part of me
Is lighting up
The part of me
That is willing to smile for those
who truly love me
Even when I feel horrible
There is a part of me
That wants to stand tall
And show the world what I have to offer
When ever I see the faces of those I love,
That is what keeps me going
Even though there are people
who wouldn't care if I disappeared
People like you reading this do
I hope...

i'M an empty shell
who pretends to be
**alive.

Spending time alone, gives an opportunity to discover who you are. *To be Alone *doesn't mean you're Lonely.

Why is it that I'm never be seen?
I'm the only one that doesn't  gleam,
Through my joyful, happy disguise,
Can't you see the pain in my eyes?

Though still I have friends,
But I locked in my head,
Hurtful words they never said.

You made me feel worthless,
Like I'm the odd one out,
But on the inside,
I have won.