Who’d have thought I could go from loving
To hating you within a day.
I don’t even hate you
I’m hurt.
And you hurt me.
The person I trusted most in the world.
I thought this time it would be different but
It looks like I pick the same sort of girls
Doesn’t it?
Lies hurt, I don’t care why you lied,
To protect my feelings or whatever ******* excuse you can come up with,
It ******* hurts.

You convinced me it was us against the world
but once you finished building your kingdom
I wasn't worthy of you anymore.
Kicked to the curb and drowned in the bottom
of your swimming pool.
- high and almighty.

You can find me waltzing at an ungodly hour under a blood red sky
with tears upon my pain stricken face and terror in my eyes.

You can tell me to stop, tell me how I’m hurting myself,
and still I will pick at the same seams until I find comfort in pain

You can hear me singing “So don’t let me cave in” in a basement at a party,
and know that if I do, it’s not your fault.

You can talk to me and I will listen.
And here. In this moment. In this interaction, I will smile. I will lie.
I will say that everything is fine.

But what makes you stand out is that you never believe me.
You have no idea how much I need that.

say what you want about me
cause i know it ain't true

your friends don't believe you
and that’s a sign of the truth

i composed a script for you to listen
to all the words that I'm saying

speaking lies ain't gonna fix it
or the destruction you made...

We say that we don’t mind
when lovers leave
when friends don’t believe
when this world is so unkind
Though, we do, oh we do
hearts wounded deeply
souls esteemed so cheaply
so what else is new
We are tired
tired of the paucity of thought, of feeling
and it leaves,
****, it leaves us reeling
And all the pain we take
and all the pain we make
leaves us emptier than before
please, please no more
Help us to just believe
in light, in Truth
though still we deceive