IT'S OKAY TO FAIL;
BECAUSE YOU'RE STILL LEARNING.
YOU CAN BE FRUSTRATED;
YOU CAN CRY;
BUT YOU CAN'T QUIT
KEEP GOING;
KEEP GROWING;
AND BE THE BEST VERSION OF YOURSELF.

The Hatred I Feel is Caused Be me.
Trapped alone because I don't let anybody see.  
I Lie to myself to pretend this isn't real.
Embarrassed and guilt ridden hoping with time this will heal.
All I want is to make you proud.
Secrets hidden away I will never be able to speak out loud.
I am trying to change to become a better man.
Growing up with big dreams this was never part of the plan.
now all keep on thinking I have ran out of time.
the feeling is this life is no longer mine.

I've met so many people,
Seen so many faces
Yet here I am
Sitting by the tree
All alone,
Often Pondering
What life would have been?
Had I not cut off
People who reminded me of
Simpler and happier times,
Singing together
To the tunes that barely rhymed,
Had I not cut off
The things that always seemed so real,
And some feelings that I tried to conceal.
But here I am
Learning to be happy,
Even if it seems sloppy
Maybe God's watching over me,
As I walk along my path carefree
Maybe I was playing with my sanity,
Just by sleeping in the arms of destiny.
Will I be happy about being selfish?
Or is treading the longer path towards gratitude something I'd relish?

Ya Know....
I Write About LESSONS...
In... Most of My Rhymes...

The... Lessons In Life...
That Can... OPEN Your Eyes... !!!
And Sometimes SURPRISE... !!!!!!!!

Some That... TRULY...
AREN’T That Nice... !!!!!
When Dealing With GUYS...
Who... CHOOSE TO LIE... !!!!!!!!

The... Type of FAKERS...
CLAIMING... Gangsta’ Status... !?!

Talkin’ Bout' THIS....
And Talkin' Bout' THAT....

Talkin’ Bout... Clips... !!!
And Talkin’ Bout GATS... !!!

NOT EVEN HALFWAY Thugs... !?!

... Who DO SHOOT GUNS... !!!!!

The Type Whose GUMS...
Just... LOVE To RUN... !!!
To PROVE They’re BAD...
When IN FACT... It’s SAD... !!!

The LIVES They Have... !!!!!
... Caught Up In HYPE... !!!
That... “ Flirts With MIKE "... !!!

But... NEVER EVER...
... Touches HEIGHTS...
That Prove They’re CLEVER... ?!?

... REAL Peter Pans’...
With... NO Labyrinth... !?!

The Type of Man... ?!?
Who Think They’ll WIN...
Because They Live...
By ALL KINDS OF TRICKS... !!!

THREATENING Things...
From......... FAR Away... ?!?

Because What STINGS...
Is The... FACE TO FACE... !!!!!

“ You wanna **** me, go ahead son, DO !
What makes you think, i’m AFRAID of You ?
My Spirit is STRONG, so, make your move ! “

Maybe Like... “ Pac’ “... ?!?
What I Now Speak On...
Is... FUTURE ATTACKS... !?!

If It Is Then... COOL... !!!
Cos’ I’m TIRED of School... !!!!!!

These Types of Lessons...
Just Lead To STRESSING... !!!
When People Be Attempting..
To DESECRATE The Blessings...

That The MOST HIGH Gives... !?!?!

It’s THE DEVIL That Be Resting...
In THESE... ADULT KIDS... !!!!!

Conscience BURNING... !!!
Because of Their YEARNING...
To BE.... TOP DOG.... !!!
of... FAULTY Cogs... !!!!!

Their... Wheel of Fortune...
Has Them SCORCHING... !!!!
WITHOUT REAL FIRE...
That Takes Them HIGHER...

Firin’ BLANKS....
But They AIN’T Tom Hanks... !!!

You See They Like To ACT...
But DON’T GET Call Backs... !!!

My Lesson HAS BEEN...
DON’T Get Caught In...
Their... Web of SIN... !!!

Cos’ A Spiders Web...
TRAPS You Like DEATH... !!!!!!

Taking... DEEP BREATHS...
To... Find AN ESCAPE... !!!!!!

FAKE *** Meths’...
Who DON’T... " Bring The Pain “... !!!

They Just Wanna STRESS BRAINS...
Time And.... AGAIN.... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But The Lesson For Them...
Is... “ NO PAIN, NO GAIN “... !!!

What They... MAINTAIN...
Will Bring... PROBLEMS... !!!

These ARE LESSONS...
That... DO NOT Strengthen... !!!

They May... ASSUAGE...
What They Feel Today... ?!?
But Tomorrow’s SORROW...
Leaves Them Feeling HOLLOW... !!!

Because... Their Game...
Is... FILLED WITH SHAME... !!!

... Courting DRAMA...
As If It’s Their PARTNER... ?!?
They Should Keep CALMER...
Before They See KARMA......

CONTROL... Them...
Just Like A SNAKE CHARMER... !!!

They LOVE To RATTLE...
But Have... NO BITE... !!!

When It Comes To The BATTLE...
They’d... Rather NOT Write...
Because They KNOW That’s A Fight...
That They... CAN’T Contrive... !!!

The BATTLE That Comes...
When It’s IN THE MIND... !!!

As BIG MAN Said I’m READY TO DIE... !!!
Just... NOT BEFORE My Time... !!!

Because of The Guys...
Who KEEP ON MESSING...
With The MOST HIGHS’ Blessings... ?!?

By NOT Taking The Time...
To HEED... Life’s...

........ “ LESSONS “....... ?!?

Understanding is based on holding a malleable space in the mind.
2. Math allows a measure or order.
3. Math is like learning a foreign language - exposure!
4. There is a time to say "I can't" and a time to say "I can".
5. Personal hard work must be activated.
6. There will be a time time to invent, a time to watch, a time to solve problems, and a time to take notes - let them come out of desire.
7. Assumptions slowly transform into comprehension, forgetfulness slowly turns into memory.
8. Math is traveling through all the illusions to come into reality.
9. I will always make markers for my steps.
10. I will always say something about the motions.
11. I will always say something about my capacity.
12. I will always wish to discern qualities.
13. There will always be existential questions.
14. No one will be able to look beyond a good night's sleep, nor be able to see tomorrow.
15. "He" will become the Voice in which you hear math.

P.S. It is the simple math that is hardest to calculate, and not knowing how to solve a problem is the hardest math.

Now The Learning Curve...
Within THIS WORLD...

When It Comes To How We Live...
Is A..... SERIOUS THING..... !!!

You Might THINK You Know A Person...
But It’s Clear That HIGHER LEARNING...
Means You Need To Be OBSERVANT... !!!

Because People Tend To Show...
What They WANT You To Know... !!!

Because What They Hide...
About Their Lives....
Could DENT Their PRIDE...
When What You FIND...
Is HOW MUCH They LIE... !!!

So This Is A Line Built For The WISE... !!!

You Really DON’T Know...
What You THINK You Know... !!!

And Are NOT As SMART...
As You Might THINK You Are... !!!

See I’m A Man of Verse...
And... Poetic Words...
So You’d Think That I Know...
An ABUNDANCE of Words... !!!

Well Today What I Got...
Was A Comment That SHOCKED...

Because The Word...
..... “ GROKKED “.....
Left My Head In KNOTS... !!!

Because My First Thought WAS...
Had They Spelt The Word WRONG... ???

Because It Didn’t Look Right...?!?
But I Figured That I...
Should Just Look This Word Up... !!!

And To My SURPRISE...
What Did My Eyes FIND... ?

That This Word Exists...
And Simply Means THIS...

“To Understand DEEPLY...
And Have Empathy...
That Feeds Intuitively... “

Which Was News To Me... !!!

Cos’ It’s A Word..
That I’d Never Heard...
And Had Never Ever Seen... !!!

Until This Persons Comment...
Came From My Poetry... !!!

The Poem Is Called... " DEAL "...
And This Comment Made Me See...

How LITTLE That I Know...
Even Though I’m One Who Reads...
And Has Good … Literacy... !!!

Well At Least...
That’s What I BELIEVED... !!!
You See Knowledge Is DEEP... !!!
Like The OCEAN's SEAS... !!!

And Knowledge Indeed Has So Many Seams...
And Different Levels Within Our Mental...

That It’s IMPORTANT NOT To THINK...
That You Know... EVERYTHING... !!!

And To Be More Humble... !!!
Before You Stumble...
Upon Something...
That Makes You Think...
That You Are... STUPID... !!!

Because Maybe You ARE... ?!!!?
To Think That You CAN'T GROW...
Even When You Get OLD...

Cos I’m... Fifty Now...
And Have Seen A Lot of Towns... !!!
As Well As LOTS of Clowns...
Who Have Run A LOT of Mouth... !!!

About How Much They Know... !!!
From... Women To Men...
And Even Some Children... !?!
Have... PLENTY of Talk...
That Seems... ASSURED... !!!

But Is DEEPLY FLAWED...
And That’s For SURE... !!!

I’ve Heard Too Many Make CLAIMS...
That Are... CLEARLY INSANE... !?!

About Relationships...
And... Historical Links...

When There’s SO MUCH To LEARN...
And Indeed DISCERN About This World...
And How It Turns That Requires RESEARCH... !!!

NOT Words With NO WORTH...
That CLEARLY DON'T Serve...
ANY DEPTH of Purpose... !!!

UNLIKE This Word... GROK...
That’s Inspired This Verse....
That Made Me Jot This Set of Words...

That Have PROVEN To Me...
That EVEN At... FIFTY... !!!!!

With ALL The Things...
That I’ve Lived To See...
And Indeed OBSERVED...

That NO MATTER How WISE...
You See Yourself As Being...

That There Are Things In This World...
That You May NEVER See...
So Show... HUMILITY... !!!

When It Comes To This Thing...
That Is... DEEP And STEEP... !!!

That’s DEFINED By These Words...
AMAZINGLY... Just Three...
That Are... Simply THESE...

“ The Learning Curve “...

”I’m not mad, I’m just disappointed.”
To a child who only knows life
And distant lessons of death.
A boy learning to builds walls
Out of plastic bricks—
Defending against feelings.

”I’m not mad, I’m just disappointed.”
To the one who falls asleep
Next to the voiceless dog
As it's quiet breath whispers
Instinct and unknowing—
Young ears open to all things.

”I’m not mad, I’m just disappointed.”
To the son who knows no difference.
Climbing to the tendriled top
Of his trusted tree friend.
Swaying in what was real—
Falling and the warm Midwest wind.

A city man met with a villager man.

The village man talked about his work in the fields when the city man stopped  him by saying:

“ Do you know that the city people have invented large airplanes that can fly through the air?”

The villager was deeply impressed.

The city man went on “We have got great boats that can cross the oceans”

The villager was even more impressed.

The city man continued “ We’ve got cars on the road that drive at tremendous speed”.

After all,
The villager asked the city man:

“ The man in the city, you are talking about,
Who flies through the air, and moves through the ocean can he still walk on his two legs?”