silence is loud when you're alone
and it's not the absence of noise
or the humming in your ear,
it's something only you can hear and no one else
it's constant and explosive and all around
it's the uproar of your thoughts
making all that sound
you can try and hush it,
try to make it a nice place to be but
you know another just comes
and it can affect you, hurt you
leave you in a loop— analysis paralysis
now don't lose yourself in it
break from that cycle, don't let
it eat at you bit by bit
it's like a virus that spreads
and starts numbing your body
your mind'***** overload and
just blaring, almost deafening...
you can never hear complete silence
not even when you're alone
so go rest your heavy head
and escape from reality
i'm sorry you have to do it again
because dreams are temporary.
my mind won't shut up and it's speaking nonsense
don't call us “friends”
when all you do is pretend
act like you don't want to attack
but you'll do it behind my back
and all i've been was loving and nice
but you were threatened by my spice
you mistake me for being flirty
when you're the who did me *****
telling everyone i'm the one to hate
when all i've done was be a good mate
so go on and talk **** about me
and i get we all have our insecurities
but don't be fake and start talking ****
hurting other people is just not it
words are just as hurtful as fists
pain like this can exist on wrists
there's too much hate already being hurled
when are you gonna realize we need more love in this world?
if you're wondering if i'd ever do that to you
i don't have the heart to do what you did to me too
and in the end, i'd still care about you
even if our relationship decides to falls through
you took advantage of my kindness, i was so blind and completely mindless
i gave you the room key
just to stay for one night
but you've been extending
coming back even at daylight
you run in the clouds
and walk in the sun,
your overstay has hit its time
so when are you checking out, ***?
minding my own business till you came along, you were allowed only one night in my mind but you stayed longer than i thought. i didn't expect you to stay in my dreams or stay when i awoke, you need to leave before i get attached.
let's play a game
you and i
stare in silence
while locking eyes
nervous and quite shy
turned into big smiles
then quiet laughter
still looking intently all the while
every second passing
and strings started to exist
attaching and latching
knots tying in twists
electricity started flowing
unseen but a rushing feel
back and forth
a connection -- is this becoming real?
in that short time
i started to imagine
me leaning in to kiss you
and I almost let it happen
three hundred seconds is up
and i tried to explain
but i couldn't tell you everything
that was going on in my brain
so i told you i feel closer to you
without saying anything more
didn't want you to know
it was you i was longing for.
i saw a video about people staring in silence for five minutes and we decided to try it and it was funny at first we couldn't stop smiling and quietly laughing then as time passed, our reactions were changing and we got more serious, i started to feel more than what i'm seeing in front of me. i was taking deep slow calm breaths and started to feel a true connection with you and in the end when we could finally share our experiences from it, you told me yours and i didn't tell you what was going on with me fully, didn't tell you my urge to kiss you, didn't tell you the feelings that were growing because after all, we're just friends trying a game right?
distance makes the heart say you want her
"distance makes the heart grow fonder"
my feet were grounded till you held
the world in your hands
shook it hard in your palms
i could no longer stand
and i fell so fast with nowhere to grip
slipping through my fingertips
nowhere to go but down,
tumbling, sliding, trying to find ground
gravity's pulling me faster
it's been disaster after disaster.
is this what it feels like to fall for someone
you’re the kind of high i like,
the one i can’t get enough of,
you are my favorite flower.
and i’ll watch you lay on a blanket,
and wrap your arms to cuddle me in,
let our emotions ride the waves
feelings all so raw and real.
and i’ll inhale you deeply,
hold it in,
plant the seeds to grow a
garden of you.
your aroma, your scent,
it thickens in my memories,
my lungs tastes of you.
and exhaling all that anxiety,
my mind has turned a switch
and all the noise i once drowned in
are muffled whispers going into silence.
and i smile by the way
i’m addicted to you that
all i want is more of you,
i don’t want just the bouquet
but the paradise garden that is you.
on the spot writing so might tweak in the future but you get me as high as a kite