Sometimes I feel
I am no longer writing for myself,
but rather becoming more like an elf.
Working and writing for everyone,
but myself.
I feel the need to keep my followers
entertained consistently and constantly
out of the fear I may lose my audience.
I feel I lost the purpose of my writing,
finding myself writing to the others liking
rather than expressing the voice within me.
For, once writing felt like a destress
but now it seems more of a stress.
I find myself beating my mind,
scraping for ideas,
juicing what's left within me,
to be drained
just to post consistently.
It's important to remember
to put yourself first above others.
To express to your likings and authenticity.
To not lose one self in the muddle of others
demands, voices and likings.
To remember the reason,
why you initially started.
