There's this horrible taste in my mouth.
I can't get it out.
Why can't I get this taste out?
What can I do to fix this?
I've tried everything.
It just doesn't work
I'm a walking corpse
Who should be dead.
I should die
I'll hide myself in the pits of hell
If that means I can escape
The tint of a toxic faith
In the heavenly realm.
The word is ending.
Every person is too.
I'm not ready yet,
And nor are you.
You aren't here
You aren't anywhere.
All you ever do in life
Is blow clouds through the air,
Wasting away through strife.
You know your wife hates it.
You know your children do.
You know that all our money goes
To your selfish habits and you
As your addiction grows
I love you though...
I just wish you'd end this phase-
The one that's spending all our cash
And shortening your days until
You're turned into dust and ash.
You're an absent father
(MY absent father..)
Only here when you need to be
Then you're gone for the end of this verse
And most in between
Either spaced out, asleep, or hearsed.
I've been taken advantage of.
I've been lied to a thousand times.
My mind is awfully broken now,
Adn my body is riddled with lines.
I can't believe you did this to me
After you said you loved me.
In the end, it was just a trap,
And the ransom was my sanity.
I made myself pretty for you,
Dolled up with bows and paint.
It was never good enough though.
You stole more of me every day.
I tore myself apart because
I couldn't be enough.
Even then you yelled at me
"Get over it.. Life is tough"
You never believed me when I said
A thing you didn't like.
I told you I hated you in my life
Always feeding me molten lies.
Even then, you pushed me away
And tore me limb from limb.
Everything I did to myself
Was caused by you, mum, not him.
Bruised and bandaged blisters
On hands ravaged by wars
Against one's own life through years
Paired with cascades of burning tears
And left dangling o'er wooden floors.
Though you may run from your fate,
You'll never escape its iron grasp.
Reality will grab you and hold you down,
Pulling you under a diminished frown
Until you end the pain at last.