It wasn't expected
The way her hand
Intertwined with mine
Beauty snuggled gently
Into my skin
And slowly confidence
Grasped back

Steady my breathing.
Slowly drifting floating.
Close my eyes while
I'm dreaming.
Thoughts in my mind
can you see what
I'm thinking.
By looking without
blinking.
A fragile soul still
holding on strong.
It's when life unvolds.
When things can go wrong.
Leaving scars on our heart.
Fix them fast so you
don't fall apart.
We all have our highs and lows.
It's how we deal with situations.
Shine through dark nights.
Sometimes we have
to let rivers flow.

the world is filled with beautiful things
others die just to allow their kids to dream
A boy is allowed to walk because someone dared to think
But a beautiful world is not in my dream's
Silence is deadly as far as I'm concerned
My minds filled with beautiful words
I write the truth nothing more
Cover up the deadly the sick and the depressed
All so you don't have a heavy heart inside your chest
you've devoted your time to playing video games
im sorry that I act this way
but my words do speak the truth
the world is beautiful
but I owe my beautiful world to you
kind as you are I don't know much
your catholic your not its not a big deal but
I know you like fallout boy
and your American flag pants
you wore your sisters shirt
and you wore a 1920's hat
your suspenders are red and you like to excel
You don't like drama and your kind of introverted
your eyes are brown
and you have no idea how bad im hurting
but ill put it aside all just to Keep you happy
because without you I don't know if I could keep lasting

We don't know
How to handle each other,
I feel trapped in this
"I don't like you"
Way of view.
I'm climbing a rope
In gym class
It's a timed race
I will end up last.
"I can't climb anymore"
This rope became an obstacle course
Of how can I hold on the longest?
Do I have to prove I'm the strongest?
It's a battle of
"Great minds think alike,
And if I'm right
You're wrong"
And I have to be wrong.
Right?

Face your demons—if that’s what it takes for you to keep moving forward.
Stop holding back—if that’s what it takes for you to feel whole again.
Let it go—if that’s what it takes for you to unnumb.
Do not suffocate—if that’s what it takes for you to move on.
Don’t fall hard—if that’s what it takes for you to live longer.

Because everything that falls, gets broken.
Because when you win some, you lose some.
Because when you decide to stay, they won’t.
Because he let go, you didn’t.
*Because you gave happiness you didn’t own and he’ll always be a question mark.

worth is not in my vocabulary,
I am without it.
there is no worth around me,
no value or importance.
leaving myself to believe
that worth is just a construct.
I will not focus on it,
for I am utterly useless.
holding on to anything
that will get me through the day,
nothing that contains worth.
there is no point in the world,
yet I am still searching for it.

Is my life one worth making
I know it's not just me feeling this ground shaking.
I try to walk but can't move sit but stand still
I have gotta love this dynamic will
But what will happen now
No more parle-ing or functioning
I can see and feel it and its the time that's changing
Just let me love feel and breath with out
eyes watching I just want to care
and let 'em know I believe in 'em
I know I meant to have your back
But who has mine when things are holding me back