I didn’t care
Swear
You and I
It meant nothing to me too

You were just someone to pass the time
Swear
I didn’t care

The excitement I felt when you would stare a  too long meant nothing to me

You were someone to pass the time with
I didn’t crave it more when you lips pressed lightly on my body

Neck

Fingers

Forehead

Lips

It meant nothing to me
Swear

I didn’t want it more
Swear
I didn’t care

I wasn’t falling for you
Your just a friend
Who was a bit friendly then most

I didn’t want you, too
Swear
I wasn’t madly in love with you
I have no reason to lie

I don’t love you

I didn’t care
When you found someone else

I was happy for you
You wanted more

I was not heartbroken
We were just friends
I wasn’t heartbroken
Swear

Best to be left us in the past
And it’s not like I was in love with you
Swear

I don’t love you
Swear

(how to convince me otherwise)

She opened her heart with
too much force.
She gripped it with fingers from both hands
ripping it apart
revealing
too many fragments of her soul.
They spilled out with
too much momentum and ended up
sprawled out
on the floor.
Will he notice the precious fractals of
her sweet spirit
crushed and broken on the ground?
Will he step over them?
On them?
Or sweep them under the rug?
Does he see the masterpiece that just
destroyed herself from being
too daring
too close to the edge?
She has
too little patience
to leave it up to him
what to do with the wreckage displayed.
She carefully picks up each piece
mindful of the sharp edges and new angels.
She borrows sap from her favorite Pine.
Blends it with gold dust powder
borrowed from ancestral strength
stored in her spine.
Applying this sturdy paste
she meticulously reconstructs
the segments of her discarded gift
into an alchemized transformation.
A Kinstsugi treasure with a new reservoir
inviting the love she has for herself
which can never be
too much.

I didn't know it would feel like this
That shallow kiss
You grabbed my wrist
The second and the first
Were momentary bliss
I was on cloud nine
If only for a moment in time
We only met twice
I thought we'd been spliced
It was warm, and it was nice
I'd thought that maybe,
you could be my first someone
I'd promised myself - "I won't run"
An awkward thank you
My cheeks aflush
I stepped away,
And then came the hush

Why does this feel so strange?
Like my heart has decayed
Brown, and withered
A moth without its flame?
It was warm, and it was nice.
Still...we only met twice
I suppose I was too ready to open the door
Unfortunately,
This has happened before
Maybe if we were to meet twice more
I might feel a flutter of desire,
I'm sure

Three days have gone,
I wait, I stall
I don't know how to feel at all
Was it karma,
or was it fate?
Did the universe just spit in my face?
I thought I had been brave -
I said yes. I had stayed.
I was willing to learn how love might taste,
My heart might have bloomed
in haste - not chaste
But maybe that was the mistake.

"The ones before were purely ******"
"I'm not ready for love"
He said,

Something twisted in my chest

I hoped it wasn't true,
But I think you felt something different for me,
than I did for you
It seems you didn't want my feelings,
My hopes,
Or my dreams
I think you only wanted my body
Just to satisfy your needs
I was ready
Steady -
And now,
Empty

But it was warm, and it was nice.
We had only met twice.

Dear lover, you left me behind
When I needed you the most
But that doesn’t matter
I started slipping, and you left me
I don’t care now, but that’s a lie
I would leave me too, but *******
Dear lover, you lied.

You tell me you'll love me forever,
More than anything,
forever.
maybe "forever" meant something else to you,
like "until next month".
unfortunately when I promised forever,
I meant the "forever" kind of forever.

You go ahead and cry your heart out.
You can go in circles in your head for a bit if you’d like.
You fight those demons though baby.
You are lovable exactly how you are right now.
You aren’t seeking.
You are a frequency not everyone can tune into.
You don’t go lowering your frequency to theirs.
You do not chase, you attract.
You are a magnificent creator of life.
You are the embodiment of emotions.
You are the healer.
You are magic.

How I wish to you hold you
Even just once more
All my thoughts distorted
Now that you're no more