Making me laugh when I’m feeling broken and on the brink of slipping again
You say  there’s nothing wrong with me

The lights inside shut off
You’ll keep turning on the switch to ward off past emotions that keep trying to be a constant in my mind trying to shout into the present moment

Steadying my thoughts when I’m confused
As I question;
Which are mine or which are from another timeline

Make me feel safe enough to be loud and dance down the street.
What’s happening?
Who is this person I’m becoming?
I’m starting to like who I am
Saw me as I kept blossoming as weeds
Struggling to stay on my feet
Frustrated at the continuous challenges
While patching the patterns as you heal the trust issues that cause too many issues
I slowly have stopped questioning what you’re up to
Patience really is a virtue-
You’re just not the kind of person I’m used to

Disagreements are part of the process.
We get angry but always come back.

It’s known that perfect doesn’t exist;
But the imperfection is the beauty in all this

I’ve made a lot of bad choices-
But growing along with you has left me with no regrets;
Let’s keep doing it again and again

I’ll sing a million songs as time goes on
But it’ll never be enough to express the warmth that builds up as I exist in the same era with you

It’s 2:00am
I’m distraught again
I’ll say, “I don’t want to be a burden”
You ask if I need to talk
Giving your shoulder for my head to lean on when it’s too heavy for me to hold up
I’ll say that,
“Sometimes I want to give up”
You remind me I’m tough

Saying thank you never feels enough
So I’ll ***** the sappy words til I get the point across

Thanks for making the world a little lighter
&  Giving me the hope that’s been lost in weighing thought

If one day distance one day comes to greet what we have,
I’ll cherish our journey

& Be sure to remember these moments til my time fades
Leaving behind nothing but the Brighter days.

Nitong nakaraan, naging nostalgic ako sa mga new year na nagdaan, mga new year nung bata kami, and sa new year na dadating pa.

Oo sobrang saya ngayon, hindi rin naman mapapantayan ang saya! Pero alam ko na iba na siya. Ibang-iba na siya―kasi noon, kumpleto pa kami at wala pang nawawala samin. Kumpleto pa ang mga lolo at lola namin. May mga fireworks display, sinturon ni hudas mula sa kanto hanggang kabilang kanto. Isinasampay pa ung sinturon ni hudas sa katawan namin tapos magppicture kami, may trumpilyo, luces tapos isusulat ang pangalan sa daan, maging yung ray-gun na paputok meron din. May mga pagkain pang nakalagay sa la mesa dahil naghahanda ang mga lola. May ham, tinapay, hot choco, at kung ano-ano pa na pati mga kapitbahay namin doon din kumakain salo-salo ang lahat! Meron din sayawan sa kalsada mga 90's na tugtugan "don't cry" sa gitna ng kalsada.

Habang sinasalubong ang taon, we played this game na "thankful for 2022, and looking forward in 2023" with cousins and titos and titas while drinking wine and alcohol til we drop. Ang saya mapakinggan yung mga bagay na pinagpapasalamat nila at mga bagay na nilo-look forward nila lalo yung mga things they share about our family. It means so much na pare-parehas kami na support sa isa't-isa at ramdam yung pagmamahal sa bawat isa.

Sabi ng isa kong tita, darating daw yung time na baka maiba na dahil siyempre magkakapamilya, career, ibang paths to take, na baka yung iba di na mag new year sa Clemente. Pero sabi niya sila ay nandiyan pa din dahil yun ang gusto nila. Oo alam ko pwedeng mangyari dahil na-experience ko na sa mga kaibigan ko. Dati palagi kaming magkakasama tuwing new year at pasko. Mahal namin ang isa't-isa na kung pwede nga lang palagi kaming magkakasama. Pero siyempre iba-iba kami ng mundong ginagalawan at tinatahak, may lumipat ng bahay, may mga pamilya na din kaya bihira na lang din kami magkasama sama. Nakakamiss!

Hindi ko alam ang future, pero sana lahat kami nandito pa din magkakasama, isang buong pamilya na magkakasamang haharap sa panibagong taon habang nabubuhay kaming lahat!

Masaya ako na na-experience ko ang pasko at new year sa Tondo! Marami akong ipinagpapasalamat hindi lang sa 2022, kundi magmula 1992! Alam ng puso ko kung ano yung mga bagay na yun hindi ko maisa-isa, basta alam ko masaya lahat at grateful ako sa family na ibinigay sa akin ni Lord. Hindi man kami mayaman, madami man kaming pagkakaiba-iba, pero solid mahal namin ang isa't-isa. Looking forward to 2023 and more! **

𝘖𝘩! 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘤𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱, 𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦.
𝘠𝘦𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥, 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘢𝘯𝘥, 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨.
𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘪𝘮, 𝘐 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺.
𝘚𝘰 𝘧𝘢𝘳, 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦.

𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘢𝘵, 𝘵𝘩𝘶𝘴, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 -
𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘶𝘯𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘬.