if anything,
i forgive you.

i don’t care
if you’ve changed
or if you’re still
the same person
that broke me
years ago.

one thing’s for sure:

it’s not my job to trust you anymore.

We have an opportunity to take this one step at a time.
To move our feet, left then right then left then right.
We can be optimistic even when our steps are moving backward.
We have an opportunity to take this one movement at a time.

You see it is like this...
We are at a threshold where our minds and our hearts are trying to find a bridge to one another.
But the way forward has fallen into the ravine.
It has been rebuilt several times, but it keeps crumbling beneath our feet.

You see it is like this...
We have an opportunity to take a leap of faith.
We have a chance to walk over the invisible bridge.

Let's shift this to a more personal level.
Let's examine my heart for a little bit.
A little selfish I know, but my brokenness is something I guess I like to share.
My brokenness is something that could inspire hope.

I believe in a Love that transcends time and space.
I believe in forgiveness that leads me to reconcile those who don't deserve it.
I believe in a Love that helps me forgive others who have hurt me.
I believe in a heart that beats and makes me realize that I am still alive.

Is it fine to share the innermost secrets of my heart?
I don't know.
It could go either way.
Well, let's dive into it, shall we?

I am a control freak, I want it to go my way.
I have hurt someone close because this tension has not been let go.
I didn't look out into the valley and walk by faith.
I did it my way and used God as a crutch to justify my unjust judgment.
I am not a man who likes to be alone with his thoughts too long.

I am a liar.
I am a thief.
I am a murderer.
I am not worthy of the forgiveness that Love presents to me.

But here we are.
But here we lay.
In the mud, I find my home, but one day that mud will be wiped away.
One day I will walk across that invisible bridge to a land where I am meant to be.

A land where Love has a form.
A land where hope is not just a feeling, but where I can grasp it and see it.
A Land where borders are torn down and we are all one.
A land where Love has made my body clean.

We have an opportunity to take this one step at a time.
To move our feet, left then right then left then right.
We can be optimistic even when our steps are moving backward.
We have an opportunity to take this one movement at a time.

This road before us might take years to go through.
Maybe we must take paths we never knew were there.
We might need to grow new trees along different paths to remember where we have been.
We might need to forgive those who may never care or know we have forgiven them.

Love light my path.
Love help me to cross the invisible bridge.
Love teach me how to forgive.
Love teach me how to walk with one foot in front of the other.
Love when I die, I want to keep moving on.

Drunk words
Sober thoughts
I take one more
***** shot
Just to make sure
I will forget you

I lay down
I give in
I feel your touch
On my skin
I know
It is wrong
Cause you mean
Nothing to me

i will never forgive myself
for ripping apart
your tender heart
i will never forgive myself
for the natural disaster  
which made your love break faster
i will never forgive myself
for the hatred i inflicted on you
while all you wanted to do
was love me back
but how should i have known
you have not shown -
the love you kept
inside your mind trapped
please take me back
to the place we call home
i don't want to be alone
without you by my side

but do not worry, never mind

You are the poison to my apple,
The dark cloud in my blue sky,
We are more the same than we are different
Contrary to what you might think
I forgive
Your ignorance is bliss

I wondering if I forgive you what would happen,
You know both of our life is messed up,
It's kinda hard for me to explain our relationship together,

Are we going to regret our decision later?
I always ask myself do I really HATE you?
or is this to save me from hurting more than it was.

I have blurry memory,
People face, scenery and what the conversation is in the past,
Doctor said my mind just blocking the memory,
from flashing at my eyes,
Even my body protect me from getting this suicidal life.

I always ask why you do it?
Why can't you just cherish us?
In the end, I see myself 5 years old,
Standing with the fluffy red eyes,
tears streaming down the round cheeks,
hugging herself and whispering...
Enough..please no more...
No more...

And the end...
Some mistake gets made,
Some its alright and some are not..

Forgive forget regret

Somethings are just too hard to forgive
Some people are just too much to forget

I'm ruining my life and no one understands why.
But i do i just can't seem to tell you why

But tell me am i the problem to why this **** happens
I mean you seem to make it out as it is my fault

The **** that happens you don't know the half of it yet you don't bother to ask
Not that i would waste my breath in telling you what i need you to hear

No no you only want to hear what makes you happy, so have you thought that maybe just maybe this is why i don't want to hear from you?

Come on you have to question it.
Yes i listen to what u want me i agree so you don't get mad at me not because i agree to what you say.

Okay so we have talked about the first one forgive
Well that was leading up to that
Forgive ( definition to the word forgive, verb stop feeling angry or resentful towards someone)
But what if you just can't simply forgive.


forgive part 1

the world is busy
the virus is not lazy

do not say bye
the sun gives shine

you must also pray
ask God to forgive you

we must apologize
draw a smile as a prize

the sun will shine
with hope every day