With sole and simple focus
heart pumps
mind flickers
continue on until done
though the race is never won

This is all normal -
Petting dogs,
Nodding at strangers,
Holding the door open.

Sometimes this all makes me
Go underwater and cry,
Where my tears blend in with
Everything.

I wonder why
I'm even wondering why
we seek joy in these small moments.

I sit so naturally, perched,
On a tall, naked, tree branch
Puncturing the grey sky
With its vague horizon
And brisk, quiet air.

I admit I never had real love for you
I admit I did truly care for you
I admit I was ever so tolerant
I admit despite you narcissistic nature
I still never hated you.
I admit despite your using nature and definitions of what "love" and a "real man" is
I stayed there for you even from a distance.
I admit I see why you are alone and never found real love, sorry *** doesn't make love true no matter how good it was.
I admit I never dated anyone as pathetic as you.
I admit falling for you ,I now grew pathetic Too.
I admit  I want to learn you and you learn to me and I don't maybe we both can grow.
Can you just admit it's your fault just once.

Let today shine bright
Choose my attitude this hour
Every thought I think
Spreads and ripples on with power
All the seeds I plant
Will in time bear fruit and flower
Today let my light shine bright

Choose well, for today I lose or win
Stand firm in the way that I begin
Stay bold, when others say to wait
Act today, before it grows too late

My success is sure
When I’m focused on today
And the prize I’ll gain
Helping others on the way
And my wealth will grow
When I confidently say
Today let my light shine bright

Choose well, for today I lose or win
Stand firm in the way that I begin
Stay bold, when others say to wait
Act today, before it grows too late

Trigger warning: self harm


And here we are again
Another day lost to depression
There's so much to do
Can't clear my head of this noise...
I just want to spend some time
Taking care of myself
Or enjoying something
But I have things to do
Work to be done

and i know how to do it
i can quiet the noise
it's not hard
just a bit messy
i just... i just need a little...
a few delicate slits
right on the wrist
shock me back into existence
jolt me back to reality

i need it
i need to bleed for a little while
to clear the fog
to quiet the noise
to get me to focus
to get the work done
i... i have to...
i'll sort out coping strategies later
'cause right now
right now i need this.