only the sound of the rain
and the beat of my heart
there he was
standing in front of my door
soaking wet to the floor
maybe it was a mirage
from the cold I was having
even so
his ice-cold touch
were melting my fever lips
when he asked me
to love him with all I am

my eyes were feverish and my head, it spun
i was almost delirious due to the pain in my abdomen
the frost of winter and the ice in my heart
slowly, slowly they tore me apart.
fragile and tortured, i lay in bed
the thoughts of you running through my head
and as the Morning Light entered through a break in the curtain
i felt your arms wrap around me to stop the hurting
your breath on my neck seemed to melt me inside
i let the tears flow, i didn't have to hide
you whispered to me darling i'll never let you go
just feel better, i'm here, you're not alone
rest your weary head on my chest and just breathe
darling i'll stay with you as long as you need
forever i whispered forever remain
you're the only one who can take away the pain
forever you whispered forever i'll stay
without me you'll never have to live a day
sleep a sweet slumber my sweet angel
i'm here now my love, there is no danger
my breathing regulated and your heart beat me a lullaby
and i felt calm, safe and blissful for the first time
i'm not quite sure when i fell asleep
but i fell asleep knowing you were next to me
Morning come, i found myself on a sterile single bed
with beads of a fevered sweat on my forehead
the sheets was made and your scent didn't remain
i asked them why you were no longer there to take away the pain
it's your delusion, child, he was never here
please get him off your mind, my darling dear
your fever it rises with the thoughts of him
you're burning dangerously from the outside in
you'll die if you don't cooperate with us
let go of this illusion of your love
he's long gone or maybe he never existed-
no! i cry *no he did he did!
he loved me he'd never leave me, God forbid
he held me last night as he's held me since the first day
he'd never leave me he'd never go away
it's you in the white coats keeping me so ill
he's my medicine my only way to get well
you're keeping me from him because you want to see me hurt
you cruel cruel men you like to watch me burn
he is not the problem it is you, it is you!
he is my love and my cure it is true, it is true!
but without him this fever won't leave and this pain won't surrender
i'll die! i'll die before the end of this weather!
oh doctor oh doctor give him back to me
oh doctor oh doctor don't keep him from me
oh doctor oh doctor i'll die can't you see
oh lover oh lover return, return to me please

Shiver. Beetles under my skin
wear top hats in my fever dreams.
They dance on pinprick goosebumps in
the pale fabric of my shirtsleeves.
Crawling. Aching. Never let it stop.
I need it more than it needs me.
Lock up my addiction; Throw away the key.
Gasping. ******. Never let it stop.
One more drag.
One more drop.
Lock up my addiction; Set me free.

Drop by drop
How it was done 
Condolence ripped eyes
Forever in the dusky light

Marching soldiers like water glides
Country by country for the moments pride
Still digging and digging for the new way
Like ant's used to do near a cozy place

Elephants were humble to nod and stay
Loosing temper was not his game
Like pond still and shinning on a full moon day

Meteors fall just to burn in the way
Bam.. explosion
If they land to celebrate a day
Elephants might not live to sing
A Happy.... happy Birthday 

Who might survive
I guess ant's would stay
Coz they'll be hiding in their cave


Manisha

This dismal face softens
And flushes with just a touch
Of life.

Turmoil broke like a fever
And trickles of security
Bled through the cracks.

I lit a lamp instead of sitting
Here in the darkness I've become
So accustomed to.
Lukewarm light isn't much
But it's enough to go on.

My heart never stopped but now
It's beating with a purpose.
Not one of affection,
Not one of intimacy,
But for the pursuit of living
I've been putting off for so long.

Maybe I'm fine. Maybe everything's fine.

I looked at you and you made my eyes enlarge. I analyzed you to see your style, you had on fresh toms with perfectly cuffed jeans with your signature orange jacket and your green book bag.

The contrast was perfect, the clash of your bright colors didn't make me stop trying to catch a glimpse of your face though. The first time I only saw it passing by, and it was beautiful. I was waiting for you to look up, so I could see the hue of your eyes. I saw your nose which seemed to be at a perfect acute angle. Your silver ball earrings, you round cuticles, your luscious flowing golden-brown locks.

I noticed you picked up a Luna bar, and many other types of granola. You must be healthy or aware of what you eat.

You're like the moon because you're slowing driving me crazy, your dim shine is there but it never goes unnoticed, I could chase you for hours and still never catch you, I wish I could howl a love song to you, I wish I could have one conversation and just learn your name.

I wish my heart would stop beating as I think of you and I wish I belonged to you.

My, my, my* -
My body knows
That you are not here.
It's tired, it's restless -
It needs your *******
Pressed up against it;
Your thigh tucked in
Between both of mine.

I don't miss you -
I need you.
My body knows
And I have a fever.