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Malia Oct 2024
I want to erase the fingerprints
I leave on your days, weeks, and years,
To drain through the gaps
In your floorboards,
To float through life,
Unable to embrace but
Too incorporeal to be slapped.

I need to

go.
Slipfast:

adj. longing to disappear completely; to melt into a crowd and become invisible, so you can take in the world without having to take part in it—free to wander through conversations without ever leaving footprints, free to dive deep into things without worrying about making a splash.
Malia Sep 2024
I struggle between the truth and peace
Balancing on this crystal beam—
So fragile, on the edge of breaking
As I try to make myself lighter
To keep it in place.

I keep it in place
And it keeps me in pieces.
I would shrivel to nothing
For this.
I would disappear—
Just say the word.

I’m sorry.
How many more times
Must I say it?

I’m sorry.
You never said that to me.

I know I’m the one in the wrong
But it hurts like white-hot tongs
And I cannot ever sing you this song
So I let go of the pain and move on.
is it dramatic? is this feeling too dramatic?
All the world and its beauty.,
I made you my world with all might..!!
All the darkness and the night.,
I took you all in my sight..!!
All the promises and its hopes,
I vowed it all tied tight to ropes..!!
All the mountains and the majesticity,
I stood all tall at your call.!!
All the rivers and the greenery,
I flowed for you painting your life a scenery.!!
All the waves and the kisses to the shore,
I embraced and gave all more.!!
All the flowers and the fragrances,
I bore the thorns holding my patience.!!
All the streams and the melodies,
I sang for you making my life a parody.!!
All the music and the tunes,
I danced leaving myself in fumes.!!

I tried to rise and shine,
Realized its all for vain..!!

And for the person now I am,
I can't quit for I lost my wit.!!

Hence
I wanna disappear
I wanna be unseen
I wanna be unheard

Disappearing like a bubble on that wave,
Like a Dew on that leaf.

I wanna disappear..
All the world and its beauty.,
I made you my world with all might..!!
All the darkness and the night.,
I took you all in my sight..!!
All the promises and its hopes,
I vowed it all tied tight to ropes..!!
All the mountains and the majesticity,
I stood all tall at your call.!!
All the rivers and the greenery,
I flowed for you painting your life a scenery.!!
All the waves and the kisses to the shore,
I embraced and gave all more.!!
All the flowers and the fragrances,
I bore the thorns holding my patience.!!
All the streams and the melodies,
I sang for you making my life a parody.!!
All the music and the tunes,
I danced leaving myself in fumes.!!

I tried to rise and shine,
Realized its all for vain..!!

And for the person now I am,
I can't quit for I lost my wit.!!

Hence
I wanna disappear
I wanna be unseen
I wanna be unheard

Disappearing like a bubble on that wave,
Like a Dew on that leaf.

I wanna disappear..
OpiaOnism Aug 2024
There is no one here. No replies either. To random sms that are unfair.
I don't want your time. I just want to be able to breathe.
And that's easier with distraction.

Silence, actually. Or Haines. Or Hauswollf. Or silence.

But I can't breathe.

Can you remember when you lay on top of me.
Naked.
With your whole body weight. Skin on skin.
I could breathe under your weight.
You were my air.

Pathetic ****. Disgusts me. I resent myself. But I can't breathe.

And yet I'm too cowardly, or the question of why this far and no further,
when I want to cut off my air for good.
It's all there. Simply because it brings a little peace.
Control.
I can. I can. If I really can't anymore. Or want to.
It bores me.

Everything's on the right track now, isn't it?
But you're not coming to see me.

A friend said I shouldn't put it like that.
So that I wish you would visit me again.
I meant the dreams in which you were there.

You told me that we had to find your belt.
What belt?
I replied
that you were a pile of ashes. You didn't care.

But now, after three years,
**** again,
three years,
look, I live around the corner from you now.
For three long years I have avoided this area.
Took the longest detours, counted the shadows.
there were always 114.
i don't want to see your window.

And now
I live here.
In your area. The area that so often seemed unreachably far away when we wanted to see each other.
And we always wanted to see each other.

Sitting in the back seat of a car, I drive past.
And stare into your window.
drive past, sitting on the hard wooden bench in the streetcar.
And stare into your window.
In the unbearably loud subway, I pass by, twisting my head, standing on my toes, twisting my whole body.
So that I can stare into your window.
have stopped counting them. the 114 shadows.
And can't breathe.

He's outside. What should I say?
Why am I even talking to him? 40 euros.
You died for 40 euros.
That's what I say. Yeah yeah yeah... free will, not your fault, grown up... yeah yeah yeah I UNDERSTOOD.

Doesn't change my guilt.

There! Now! I remembered that you weren't just in my dreams.
And now I demand from this world that you look at my balcony.

I “want” nothing.
No needs
except rest.
And Haine…or... Hauswolff.

And now is the point where I no longer find it fair.
Not in a dream.
Sit next to me.
Put your entire weight on my naked body.
Let your sweat drip from the tip of your nose into my mouth and let me taste the salt.

Not in a ******* dream.

Come here now.

Please.

I know..
I can't come to you. You are no more.
I don't know... I still want to be.
I think so.

It's finished.

The spiritual **** disgusts me, your talk disgusts me, I disgust myself

And probably the only reason I haven't hanged myself yet is because I think, I've lasted this long.
and I refuse to accept
sazlianahsam Jul 2024
In the stillness of the night,
Where shadows blend and dreams take flight,
A whisper soft, a breath of air,
Full silence falls, and we disappear.

The world stands hushed, a velvet veil,
As stars recount their ancient tale.
No rustle stirs, no footstep near,
In full silence, we disappear.

The moonlight casts a silver sheen,
On memories of what has been.
We float, unseen, in atmospheres,
Of full silence, and disappear.

In this quiet, hearts find peace,
All worries, fears, and doubts release.
Embraced by night, without a tear,
We seek full silence, and disappear.

Beyond the realms of sight and sound,
In quietude, our souls unbound,
We journey where there's naught to fear,
In full silence, we disappear.
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2024
I'm slowly losing more you every day that disappears

Aren't we incapable of holding onto the things that matter most?
Aren't we all?
LoveIsReal Feb 2024
There was a world, a world destined to crumble and disappear.

In that world was a person, that person was slowly becoming unaware of their surroundings, the only thing they can remember is that they didn't bring any phone or wallet with them. Until BANG. A gunshot rang in their ears, a figure dark and far away from them, their eyes blinking really fast, as they moved their hands to where they felt pain. It felt wet and sticky, they didn't understand why or what, the only thing they knew was that everything was turning dark. Darkness consumed them. Then they were forgotten.

As for the shooter, who had no idea how a gun got in their hands, ran, never looking back. But from above them came a bright light, as slowly as a snail, descending towards them. KABOOM! What was once bright became dark. Darkness consumed them. Then they were forgotten.

The world they lived in was destined to crumble and disappear.
Jeremy Betts Jan 2021
I'm an enigma, a quitter and survivor, a pioneer weary of the change that literally defines the career
In desperate need of a savior or at the very least a lucky rabbits foot souvenir
One to keep me free and clear from the type of bad karma that's over the top severe
I've been thinking I don't belong here, I don't know if it's me talking that talk or the fear
I let it take the wheel and steer, my driving advise from the rear seat falls on a deaf ear
I guess I ain't suppose to interfere with the charioteer, the why isn't clear
Now I've gotta kick it into another gear to commandeer my own life like a buccaneer
This deer in headlights nonsense won't get me anywhere near my "new beginnings" frontier
I lost track of my trail guide mountaineer, forgotten about like I'm the fourth musketeer
The sheer volume of every collected tear almost drowns me at least once a year
Or acts like pavement when I smear across it after falling from the atmosphere
My guardian angel is a horrible puppeteer, seems to disappear when needed most like he's the one with crippling fear
...go figure

©2021
Tiny, puffy clouds
were once above my head
My feet were there below,
steady and firmly placed.

I can walk a straight path
with no complications
Even in twist and turns
and a loss of directions

Rarely do I trip
or dangle from the branches
The weeds are growing taller
but facile to remove.

I traveled further
in the long, narrow streets
The constant flickering lights,
a very mysterious aura

I headed straight,
but something made me turn
the clouds were on my feet
I suddenly disappeared.
© Cyrille Octaviano, 2014
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