You submit yourself to a lifestyle
You guarantee yourself to a good time
Where love and lust only share a letter in common
Where their uncommon association is their juxtaposition
Where both can live in dimensions that are parallel
But you won't be saved by the bell
It rings to say that you're lying to yourself
But you won't be saved by the bell
It yells to tell you that it doesn't suit you well
You need to realize that love and lust share more than you wish they did
That both combined make up what you need
That lust alone makes you think of love
Even in the most meaningless and heated moments of fun
And that love alone makes you think of lust
Even in the most intimate moments of affection

Bloodshot eyes can't sleep tonight
Heartbeats working in overtime
Your smiling face etched in my jumbled mind
The only clarity in my foggy thoughts

Feelings I can't describe cling on to me
How come I became so full of courage?
To ask you out and tell you these hidden desires
I still can't believe how I managed to tell you

I still can't forget that shine in your eyes
When you held me in your arms tight
The words you whispered still ringing in my ears
Right before the kiss that made you mine

Awkward smiles, juvenile hearts
You shined brightly like stars tonight
Your warmth still brings goosebumps all over
Your securing embrace still feels like a fantasy

Am I dreaming like a madman?
Will this disappear when morning comes?
Why does tomorrow come so slowly?
Why is time so fast when I'm with you?

I've never felt this was before
Like a volcano bursting with emotions
As I grow closer towards your gravity
As I fall into the crevices of your heart

This may be what they call love
These unhinged feelings towards you
They consume every fiber of my being
As I think of ways of how to chase you

I scream out loud this love for you
Unleashing this desire to always be yours
You make me crazier with every look you give
Falling faster than light's speed when you touch me

My forever is yours to hold
I'll chase you to the stars and back
I'll love you deeper than the ocean floor
Just stay with me, for tonight and all coming nights

You don't heighten me,
You don’t enlighten me,
Brighten me,
Or even give it right to me,
Not really,
Not like I want you to,
You don’t teach nor reach,
In to my mind or my soul,
Where exclusive intricacies evolve and grow
Assisting in growth, learning the ropes, intrigued by the whole of me

I’m uninspired,
Feel undesired
Stuck in my thoughts, I’m mindlessly wired
I don’t even know who you are and you know little of me, so it seems

I crave you
And degrade me in return
My ego yearns
For this empty,
Worthless gratification,
You provide no real satisfaction,
At this self lit cremation

But while I’m writing you reply and my brain and body collide, heating me inside
A rush, a drug? A quick fix,
A toxic dump for an insecurity slump
I wish I didn’t desire that heavy thud of my heart
With the throw of a dart
Anxiety starts
All over again